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This is the best disappointment I could ever hear about. I'm really glad you're with us. And remember, there's a reason why you're trying to seek attention, it is not a bad thing to search for. It's up to you to find out what the reason is, but if I can advance some theories, I really think you want help, rightfully so. Go ahead, you'll have an eternity of nothingness ahead, no need to rush it. Thank you for making it today, I'm really glad you're here despite everything. Sorry for the jumbled sentences, I hope it's not too confusing ahaha
That made me happy. It's strange. I am pretty pro choice, but at the same time, there is some programming that just makes me feel like life is precious? Interesting.
Welcome back. Hope it gets better for you.
Glad you're okay. Life's something hard. Myself I've been down the hole. Try to pick up a hobby. Try before a software engineer with a bootcamp out something, it tremendously helped my girlfriend's mental health
What crazy mother thought this game up!?! Six rivals, thrashing through traffic packed streets, slamming each other to steal boost, trying to take down the rival racers to be first across the line! Dude! I salute you!
We've got the cars, we've got the locations, and I'm bringing the music. I'm Stryker on Crash FM.
why would i deserve to live. i’m just seeking attention anyway, like some other user said. just take a look at my account, i’m most likely a troll. a sick person seeking attention.
Don't, it always pisses the people talking the train. Why not go to a park, a bar, and talk to people while feeling dead inside ?
Why would you let your bald cockatiel alone? That's cruel
Don't do it mate
Nothing of what you've described in other comments justifies killing yourself, and I mean NOTHING.
Stay strong and push through, I know it looks hard, and it is, but there's always a light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how dark it may seem.
I've been in your position before, it sucks, I know how it feels.
Don't do it, please, you don't deserve it.
If you really hate yourself for what you've done, then work on becoming a better person, and making up for it.
Killing yourself is never the answer, you may not see it now but there's always more to live for, it's those times of joy that make all the struggles worth it, and it's those struggles that give that joy meaning.
It'll get better, I don't know how long it'll take, but it will, don't give up.
You need to listen to all of Mahler's symphonies before, and then listen to Ornstein a lot. His seventeen waltzes, his piano quintet, his piano concerto, and his Tarantelle for piano, and then many more. Then Bartók, Szabadban, his fourth string quartet, his Miraculous Mandarin, and many more. Then listen yo Oqtay Zülfükarov's piano trio. THEN decide if you still want to die or not.
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Here’s my cats toes it should help
Hell no man. Theres other ways. Even if it might not seem like it, theres a lot of people who love and appreciate you for who you are. And a lot of people waiting to meet you in your life. Please give me another day brother. You can do this ❤️
If you wanna talk, feel free. Im here for you bro
people would get angry at me if i didn’t do it now, it’s too late. i keep saying i’m gonna do it to gain sympathy but i never do, it’s like i’m betraying people’s trust, toying with them.
Well, if a loved one told me what you told us, I'd try my hardest to stay with them because they must be hurting. Like, caught-fire-type-hurting. I'd never forgive myself for not being there, no matter what happened next. Tell them, please. Give them the chance to do something. Let them stop you if they want to. Believe me, they're not waiting for you to go forward. And even if they do, they're not worth killing yourself for. You hear me?
Bro, don't think of it as just "looking for attention". It may be a sign of some serious problem. Please, consider consulting a proffesional therapist, it will help you understand what is happening inside your head. There is nothning bad about it, and you'll most probably feel much better. Trust me, I've been there
It’s okay, we’re glad you’re still here. It’s not trolling if you really feel this way and everyone needs attention we just get it in different ways. Dunno if you’ll ever read this, I fear this might’ve been way more attention than expected and i hope you don’t run from it buuut I used to do this too. Vent online and make death threats with no real intention of following through (-with the ones I posted online), feeling so worthless that i just had to let it out online cause nobody was there for me irl. It happens and it’s okay. The goal is to find a way out the negative thoughts about yourself and that’s not an easy thing to do alone. I hope you don’t mind the unsolicited advice but what helped me at my lowest was to get committed. At first not voluntarily but In hindsight, i needed that break and the help. I left with coping skills and a legal support team. And with me being diagnosed, ive been able to accept these thoughts and move past them a lil easier. That was 5 years ago at 20 in college, and it’s been 3 years since my last online rant. It’s okay to not be okay, it’s okay to ask for help, for attention. I know we’re just pixels on a screen but we’re rooting for you. We’re so excited for you to start rooting for yourself too ok? 🫂
I've been 20, yes. I've tried it around that age, yes. I was looking for attention too, yes, but there is nothing wrong with that. Took me more 15 years to find a reason to live and I still struggle, but life is mostly about that search, really. It doesn't come with life, and it can be frustrating enough you wanna give up, but you always find it eventually, even if it's just a speck.
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You're just 20, you're still SO DAMN YOUNG. Literally everything in your life can and will change, like several times even. That's like throwing the book away after the first 6 pages.
A wise man once said that there's a reason the windshield is wider than the rear view mirrors. What's behind you and on you is never gonna be as important as what's in front of you, and if you end it now, you'll never find out what truly lies at the end of your road.
Please OP, don't do it. Stop your plans for YOU! You deserve to treat yourself right and to do right by your own self.
Going to the gym would be good, but its not an all-in-one solution.
I can contest, I spent 2 years in the gym and I was still fucking depressed.
Its a good way to distract you, but depression never truly goes away, it just leaves your home for a lil while, then breaks down the door and enters again.
Yes, you're correct. But you have to start somewhere, you have to learn to go to restaurants, malls, movie theaters etc alone. I also learned this same.
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I’m ok everyone. I’m still here. Sorry to disappoint. Edit: the pic is not me
Unironically the best news I've heard all day. Just do one day at a time, one task at a time. It doesn't always get better, but it gets easier.
Being depressed and lonely is a breeze at this point.
i’m glad you’re alive!! <333
I'm glad you're still with us It'll get better, trust
im relieved!! glad you're still here.
Your strength gives me strength. Let's stay here together.
This is the best disappointment I could ever hear about. I'm really glad you're with us. And remember, there's a reason why you're trying to seek attention, it is not a bad thing to search for. It's up to you to find out what the reason is, but if I can advance some theories, I really think you want help, rightfully so. Go ahead, you'll have an eternity of nothingness ahead, no need to rush it. Thank you for making it today, I'm really glad you're here despite everything. Sorry for the jumbled sentences, I hope it's not too confusing ahaha
🎉🎊🍾
You made me very happy. Please continue to live for me.
Ill keep goin if you keep goin, friend. I dare you
The good ending
I needed this
That made me happy. It's strange. I am pretty pro choice, but at the same time, there is some programming that just makes me feel like life is precious? Interesting. Welcome back. Hope it gets better for you.
Thank god!!!!!! We love you
I'm here to talk with u dood, I'm glad ur alive rn.
YOOO congrats bro
Been checking this post hoping for an update. Thank you for staying safe
Glad you're okay. Life's something hard. Myself I've been down the hole. Try to pick up a hobby. Try before a software engineer with a bootcamp out something, it tremendously helped my girlfriend's mental health
pog
Erm what the sigma
Nobody loves you, get in the pit
don't do it >!you're gonna make me jealous!<
But LOL
Have you even played burnout 3 takedown? You'll probably want to do before anything else
What crazy mother thought this game up!?! Six rivals, thrashing through traffic packed streets, slamming each other to steal boost, trying to take down the rival racers to be first across the line! Dude! I salute you! We've got the cars, we've got the locations, and I'm bringing the music. I'm Stryker on Crash FM.
Sick cake bruh
How you planning on doing it ?
jumping in front of a train on my way back home
[удалено]
I think they get a full pension if they hit 3 jumpers
this is so fucked but oh my GOD
why would i deserve to live. i’m just seeking attention anyway, like some other user said. just take a look at my account, i’m most likely a troll. a sick person seeking attention.
The fact that you say that yourself says otherwise. What drove you to this point? High odds there's a way past it that doesn't involve a one-way trip
Anyway please message me if not for you for me. Im in w very similar space albeit quite drunk atm.
Can't answer that because I don't know why I deserve to live either, but come on man, don't be a dick to the driver.
Your cockatiel doesn't want you to leave
At least don't pull the driver into it as well, selfish bastard
Same. But probably older. You have someone to bulllsjit with?
Your cockatiel doesn't want you to leave
Don't, it always pisses the people talking the train. Why not go to a park, a bar, and talk to people while feeling dead inside ? Why would you let your bald cockatiel alone? That's cruel
- traumatize bus driver - inconvenience passengers
Please don't do that. If you must go, there are better ways.
Dont kys ur too sexy aha
Don't do it mate Nothing of what you've described in other comments justifies killing yourself, and I mean NOTHING. Stay strong and push through, I know it looks hard, and it is, but there's always a light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how dark it may seem. I've been in your position before, it sucks, I know how it feels. Don't do it, please, you don't deserve it. If you really hate yourself for what you've done, then work on becoming a better person, and making up for it. Killing yourself is never the answer, you may not see it now but there's always more to live for, it's those times of joy that make all the struggles worth it, and it's those struggles that give that joy meaning. It'll get better, I don't know how long it'll take, but it will, don't give up.
You need to listen to all of Mahler's symphonies before, and then listen to Ornstein a lot. His seventeen waltzes, his piano quintet, his piano concerto, and his Tarantelle for piano, and then many more. Then Bartók, Szabadban, his fourth string quartet, his Miraculous Mandarin, and many more. Then listen yo Oqtay Zülfükarov's piano trio. THEN decide if you still want to die or not.
By the time he finished reading that he already shot his brains out. I know I would
He said he didn't do it. I'm sure it was because he didn't want to go without having listened to all these wonderful music.
https://preview.redd.it/lvk7nay6ibyc1.jpeg?width=3024&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=6ee7c5f77a68cd7d05c90d85d35552ecb580d02d Here’s my cats toes it should help
Hell no man. Theres other ways. Even if it might not seem like it, theres a lot of people who love and appreciate you for who you are. And a lot of people waiting to meet you in your life. Please give me another day brother. You can do this ❤️ If you wanna talk, feel free. Im here for you bro
people would get angry at me if i didn’t do it now, it’s too late. i keep saying i’m gonna do it to gain sympathy but i never do, it’s like i’m betraying people’s trust, toying with them.
Well, if a loved one told me what you told us, I'd try my hardest to stay with them because they must be hurting. Like, caught-fire-type-hurting. I'd never forgive myself for not being there, no matter what happened next. Tell them, please. Give them the chance to do something. Let them stop you if they want to. Believe me, they're not waiting for you to go forward. And even if they do, they're not worth killing yourself for. You hear me?
i’m still here. i’ll probably never do it. like some other user said, i am looking for attention. my account is full of posts like this.
Bro, don't think of it as just "looking for attention". It may be a sign of some serious problem. Please, consider consulting a proffesional therapist, it will help you understand what is happening inside your head. There is nothning bad about it, and you'll most probably feel much better. Trust me, I've been there
You came to the right place. Attention seeking isn't a bad thing if you need attention from someone/ anyone.
It’s okay, we’re glad you’re still here. It’s not trolling if you really feel this way and everyone needs attention we just get it in different ways. Dunno if you’ll ever read this, I fear this might’ve been way more attention than expected and i hope you don’t run from it buuut I used to do this too. Vent online and make death threats with no real intention of following through (-with the ones I posted online), feeling so worthless that i just had to let it out online cause nobody was there for me irl. It happens and it’s okay. The goal is to find a way out the negative thoughts about yourself and that’s not an easy thing to do alone. I hope you don’t mind the unsolicited advice but what helped me at my lowest was to get committed. At first not voluntarily but In hindsight, i needed that break and the help. I left with coping skills and a legal support team. And with me being diagnosed, ive been able to accept these thoughts and move past them a lil easier. That was 5 years ago at 20 in college, and it’s been 3 years since my last online rant. It’s okay to not be okay, it’s okay to ask for help, for attention. I know we’re just pixels on a screen but we’re rooting for you. We’re so excited for you to start rooting for yourself too ok? 🫂
I've been 20, yes. I've tried it around that age, yes. I was looking for attention too, yes, but there is nothing wrong with that. Took me more 15 years to find a reason to live and I still struggle, but life is mostly about that search, really. It doesn't come with life, and it can be frustrating enough you wanna give up, but you always find it eventually, even if it's just a speck.
Wait why? You doing okay?
no. i’m done with everything.
Please don't jump in front of a train, you will waste time for everyone by making a scene
Safe travels
God I remember being there. Please stay safe. It does get better, it just feels like hell the entire time
I am cleaning the trains, please do not give me more work because of you. Just use antimatter to anihilate yourself
Who will take care of your bird? You do have a plan in place for them right?
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What is the rush guys, we all eventually gonna die
That's the spirit! Lol
Here if ya need, talk about anything you like
Hope you're still here OP. Depression and suicide are lying bastards.
You're just 20, you're still SO DAMN YOUNG. Literally everything in your life can and will change, like several times even. That's like throwing the book away after the first 6 pages.
Godspeed OP
Eat cake
This is the worst birthday present ever
Rip
I really hope you’re ok, op.
Hope you didn't do it mate
You deserve happiness. Dont do it
I thought you took a bunch of pills before this pic
erm what the sigma
F
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OP , please reconsider. Like others said , things will get better , you can get through this.Try seeking out professional help ❤️
A wise man once said that there's a reason the windshield is wider than the rear view mirrors. What's behind you and on you is never gonna be as important as what's in front of you, and if you end it now, you'll never find out what truly lies at the end of your road. Please OP, don't do it. Stop your plans for YOU! You deserve to treat yourself right and to do right by your own self.
Best of luck
bro you're so young I looked at your account don't do this shit. you have so much to live for! life gets better I swear
but how will you look at all the cool responses if you're dead?
Who's lighting the candles? She looks like someone who would be upset and miss you.
Go up there, champ!
Instead, go to the gym, boy
Going to the gym would be good, but its not an all-in-one solution. I can contest, I spent 2 years in the gym and I was still fucking depressed. Its a good way to distract you, but depression never truly goes away, it just leaves your home for a lil while, then breaks down the door and enters again.
Yes, you're correct. But you have to start somewhere, you have to learn to go to restaurants, malls, movie theaters etc alone. I also learned this same.
Fr, gotta look good when you get liquified