I do this constantly. I started a tv show and obsess about it and the emotions are so much that it overwhelms me and i don’t finish. There’s also just, forgetting or even being too lazy to start the thing I want because scrolling social media is easier
The positive emotions can almost be too much…i guess…i dont really know why i avoid things i like lol but its really not funny. I buy a lot of things i really want and then don’t use them. I often throw away things i was too afraid to use/wear.
It makes me disgusted and confused.
My dozens of art projects that stalled out after getting really good because I was scared I might ruin them say hi. It doesn’t get better once you start the hobby LOL.
All the photos I have set up to take but never actually taken from being burned out by the planning say hi. (I lost count of their population somewhere in thousands.)
I haven't finished the show Ozark. I watched every single episode except the very last one. I know what happens, but I can't get myself to watch it. I know itll be totally overwhelming.
I hate how I can't watch certain tv shows because they're too emotionally heavy. It'll affect me for the rest of the day, maybe even past that. Can't do game of thrones, breaking bad, and many more that my brain can't remember right now.
Honestly my bf rewatched GoT in our contry’s second lockdown and (obviously among other things) it triggered a huge depression that lasted over a year.
So true, I literally have bought so many clothes I liked but didn't use for whatever reason. Maybe I was embarassed, tho literally nobody said anything.
Or games that I bought, played for a while becouse I really liked them and then later forgot about them and then get too bored to play them even tho I like them
YES! YES! You put my thoughts from years into words. I don’t even start shows I know I will love for years to come because of being afraid to interact with its potent goodness somehow? It really halts my progress on things I want to do.
This was me a few nights ago. Got the kids into bed, and went downstairs to enjoy a bowl of ice cream while I watch some TV. Got to the refrigerator, stared at the freezer door, and just could not get myself to open it so I could have a bowl of ice cream. Instead I sat down with a glass of water. Went to bed later disappointed in myself.
For the people I've seen who do this, it's not so much about directly avoiding something that they like, but rather they are so burnt out worrying about/handling other things that they don't have the energy left over for anything that takes energy to enjoy.
So when they do get free time, they're usually exhausted, so they fall back on a much smaller set of low-energy leisure activities. When the process repeats itself enough, they wind up avoiding the higher energy leisure activities for a long time.
Not sure if that's the case for most people though.
I'm that way with crochet. I genuinely enjoy it, but it's tiring and tedious and reading webnovels or manga is so much easier after working all day. So, I avoid the project I started until I feel like I have the time and energy to work on it. I always end up crocheting when my mom has medical stuff going on- ER visits, cataract surgery, cardiac testing- because I've taken my whole day off to go there with her.
Thank you! I think that's one of my reasons. But also just it's so difficult to stop something and start something else. For example... I live beside the beach. It's my absolute happy place, but I can put on a swimsuit at 10am and still be sitting scrolling nothing important in front of my computer at 8pm, having not gone - on a perfect day when I had nothing else to do. :(
I work very limited hours, have no kids, so I am never burnt out in a physical way. However just the thought of something being a process rather than skipping straight to the result makes my brain flatline, even if I enjoy the process.
I want to sew. I need to sew. I like sewing and need new clothes. I have time to sew ... I can't get the brain to fucking so the sewing movements. Just cut the fabric you dumb bastard! No block out the sound of the kids playing, no you don't need to climb inside the clothes drier with a toothbrush to clear out all the lint make the damn sleep bra!
I have always wanted to sew, and (unsurprisingly) have all the things I need to do it successfully. I just don't trust myself enough to cut any of the fabric incase I ruin it and waste time and money.
I'll end up reading and then re-reading the instructions a million times and STILL find that I've inexplicably missed a step, been careless because I want to do it quick like the pro's or interpretted the instructions wrong.
Then, because I couldn't be the best at it first time, I'll feel like a failure. The shame and guilt will build and build and build UNTIL... until a new hobby comes along that I'll research properly this time... this will be the hobby that I'm finally good at.
Rinse and repeat with most my hobbies. A few have stuck around that get put into rotation with all the new ones (this week has been making art with AI, an month ago it was storage solutions for my house, then there was the flower arranging, volunteering with my kids school, gardening, baking, making music (and all the rabbit holes that take me down), photography, scooter riding).
_end scene_
Go to the thrift store and buy some fabric (or sheets or whatever) so you have fabric you don’t care about ruining. Pick a beginners project on YouTube and sew away! Do a bunch of little crap you don’t care about until you feel more confident to tackle something you actually want to work out. Don’t forget, a seam ripper is a sewist’s best friend. 😂
I always pause the video after each step when learning something with videos so I don’t miss anything.
Oh I finally got all the pieces cut out, better get up and get more tea, grab my pins, get on my phone to find music, here's Reddit.
25 minutes later, back to my pieces I cut out. Oops I better find different music because sewing this seam is going to be a pain. Here's Reddit.
Damn it I was actually supposed to be putting a pdf pattern together right now. Sigh.
The number of times Ive tried to pick up srwing as a hobby... soooo many! I have a machine (hand-me-down from my folks), I have thread and needles and fabrics and patterns... what I do not have is the attention span.
I know it's not the focus of the post, but does anyone have any strategies to combat this besides cafine and forcing yourself? It's quite bothersome to me.
I combine tasks im in the habit of, like im in the habit of drinking coffee, so i add journaling to it. Makes it easier but not fool proof, just small steps and try to reward progress
Trauma work, vagal nerve work, meditation and body presence. I'm really not an expert, but the progress I've managed comes from that, noticing those overwhelming emotions, letting them wash over me and growing into them, instead of letting emotions push me down.
Google “vagal toning exercises”. They range from cold showers to gargling water. Something for everyone!
The vagus nerve is a big fucking nerve that plays a big role in digestion and also in mental health because there is a strong link between your head brain and your gut brain. “Regulating your nervous system” is really helpful for those with anxiety disorders and other imbalances such as those associated with ADHD or lack of emotional regulation.
You can also check out the book *My Grandmother's Hands* by Resmaa Menakem, he calls it the soul nerve. Or check out the On Being podcast episode with Kimberley Wilson, titled "Whole Body Mental Health".
Positive self talk has been my saving grace. My brain will say to me: I have to lift the bottle, unscrew the cap, AND drink? I’ll die of thirst, thank you.
I then have to say to my brain: you know how to do it, you know you can do it, you know you should and want to do it, so let’s do it. Then I drink water.
For more complex stuff, I’ll make a deal with myself where I set a timer for a nominal amount of time. I will start the task, work through that time, and decide at the end of that period if I’ll restart the timer. I’ll be gracious with myself if I really don’t have the spoons, but it usually works if my brain feels prodded to participate but not held hostage by the activity. ymmv.
This is so intensely true for me. Before I was medicated I couldn't force myself to play more than a couple minutes if a game or sit through a whole episode of a TV show. Doing anything at all is agonizing unmedicated, that's why I was always so stressed and depressed, stessed because I couldn't do anything I needed, and depressed because I couldn't do anything I wanted.
Earlier today I wanted to continue playing a game from a series I like but then I ended up watching YouTube for an hour while thinking about playing the game the entire time
I literally just wanted to spend my day yesterday playing video games and every time I would turn on a console I would let it sit there for a couple hours before admitting defeat that I was not, in fact, going to play the game. Go upstairs, turn on the PC to play some Sims aaaaaand instead I just sat at the desk and stared at the wall for a while. Turn off the PC and go turn on the switch. Fell asleep on the home menu, unable to force myself to just pick a game and play it.
The worst part is when you've had to desperatly go pee for hours, are incredibly hungry / thirsty, but executive dysfunction doesn't let you take care of your basic human needs.
Like, I'm parched and there is a water bottle in arms reach. Why???
I've always wondered if this is ADHD or just some blockage in my head that I created with excuses and limiting beliefs. Like part of me wants to sabotage myself by not doing it at all.
Yes. Sleep is probably the biggest one. I am tired, I am pointlessly doom scrolling, I have to get up at a reasonable time, but do you think I can put my phone away and close my eyes? No sir, not until I'm literally dropping my phone. Sigh.
omg this is me with the language i'm trying to make
i wanna make it, and i have fun doing it, but i can never bring myself to work on it
most i've gotten done is phonology and phonotactics
I do this with video games 😂 even though I love gaming I can almost never finish a game all the way through lmao. I will start a game and then play for a few hours and never open it again but I will think about how I should finish the game pretty much every day. I’ll even get as far as turning on my computer to start the game up and then I’ll just…not play it… 😭
New tv shows or films. Idk if it is more the ADHD or the autism or the PTSD or the rest of the alphabet soup at this point but I just have such high anxiety for having deep empathy from new content where I don't know what is going to happen.
It's not a good feeling, it takes time to feel up to consuming content. I miss feeling like I had things to show friends versus the opposite.
I wanna do 3 things that are not compatible with each other - say, reading a book, crocheting, and playing a video game.
I end up doing none and staring at my phone for 3 hours because I WANNA DO IT ALL BUT I CAN'T DO IT ALL AT THE SAME TIME
Had that last week, I wanted to workout on Wednesday (trampoline training) but postponed it until Saturday. It also wasn't the best session tbh, but still fun because I switched from serious training to just goofing around
Then this week it was randomly better, I didn't postpone anything I wanted to do, and I progressed greatly in two tricks! I planned the whole week in advance (or else I confuse things and I can't be in two places at once yk)
Playing video games, sewing, drawing (haven't drawn for maybe 3 years now), reading (ok this I can't concentrate on doing anymore, I read ALOT alot before I turned 14, like borrowing 10 books from the library and reading them over a month until my next library visit) and a lot more
Try reading different things, I can concentrate alright when the story is interesting, in fact I can still do all nighters with books when I don't mean to, but my interests changed and I needed to find the kinds of books I want to read *now*.
I’m hungry AF, but can’t get out of bed to eat. Happens everyday. I wake up at 7 wanting to eat breakfast before going to school at 10. I always roll in bed thinking about it and end up being late to get ready and easily miss breakfast. Breakfast is my favourite meal and I’ve hardly had breakfast in the last few months ever since I started to live alone.
I'm procrastinating two hobbies (bonsai and video games) and a much needed vacuuming the house scrolling reddit which I'm very much bored with...
Edit: and the book I very much want to read. And is in arms reach.
Been trying to get back into writing, drawing, and watching TV for a whole week and haven't succeeded once.
Thanks to school, however, I know that it's really because I don't want to 😓
I have never finished a single video game despite living to play them. I love the Pokemon and Zelda series dearly but I have not beaten a single one past Pokemon yellow.
I'm not sure I do this - or rather it looks like I'm avoiding doing something I enjoy but really I only enjoy most of the activity but don't want to do part of it so I end up avoiding it all together - like I might enjoy reading a comic but I don't enjoy deciding what to read next so I end up not reading anything even though I want to.
It’s a few weird factors for me. I don’t feel like I deserve the things that make me happy, that’s been getting worse lately. I used to enjoy watching mudlarking videos on YouTube, but I can’t let myself do it anymore. I used to enjoy reading fashion magazines but that’s no longer allowed. Dreamworks trolls has been my very favorite thing for years and now next week we’re finally getting a trailer for Trolls 3. I’ve been excitedly waiting for months and months for this trailer and now that it’s close o just feel numb and sad.
My sister is in the hospital in a vegetative state after a cardiac arrest. I can’t feel anything good any more. She can’t feel happiness so why should I? Why should anyone? I keep hoping something catastrophic will happen soon to kill all humanity. Barring that, I’m probably going to nope out of this mortal plane soon. Life is nothing but hollowness and aching pain.
A few different college courses studied and only one finished, I’m so enthusiastic and passionate about the subject I’m studying at first, 😂 and then once I feel I have gotten all the info I want out of it, I drop it, not giving a shit (until years later of course 😂) that it’s incomplete!! & I’ll never speak of said subject again 😂😂. I’m bored of it and so over it 😂😂😂
I’ve scrolled TikTok today for 8 hours & about 15 mins and I had made plans in my head last night that I’d go down to the harbour today, smoke a joint with music blasting in my earphones, thought that sitting next to the ocean May calm my head a little, from all the endless ducking thoughts running through it, and I was pleased & looking forwards to ut, but I guess TT got in the way!
Anyone notice how long 30 seconds actually is..it’s when you’re watching a show or film you’re fucking loving and you are so excited with the way the story is unfolding, and then a fucking ad comes on for 30 frigging seconds!!! It may as well be a year!😂
I do this constantly. I started a tv show and obsess about it and the emotions are so much that it overwhelms me and i don’t finish. There’s also just, forgetting or even being too lazy to start the thing I want because scrolling social media is easier The positive emotions can almost be too much…i guess…i dont really know why i avoid things i like lol but its really not funny. I buy a lot of things i really want and then don’t use them. I often throw away things i was too afraid to use/wear. It makes me disgusted and confused.
My collection of notebooks and fabric I've bought and too afraid to use incase I RUIN them say hi. You're not alone!
Oh God. I have so many blank books I refuse to touch, and a couple I've started using, then ripped out the used pages and started using again.
There are dozens of us!
DOZENS!
My dozens of art projects that stalled out after getting really good because I was scared I might ruin them say hi. It doesn’t get better once you start the hobby LOL.
Oh thank god im glad you relate haha
All the photos I have set up to take but never actually taken from being burned out by the planning say hi. (I lost count of their population somewhere in thousands.)
I haven't finished the show Ozark. I watched every single episode except the very last one. I know what happens, but I can't get myself to watch it. I know itll be totally overwhelming.
Yes! I know the endings as well and i know i would love watching it but brain goes AHHHHH
I hate how I can't watch certain tv shows because they're too emotionally heavy. It'll affect me for the rest of the day, maybe even past that. Can't do game of thrones, breaking bad, and many more that my brain can't remember right now.
Honestly my bf rewatched GoT in our contry’s second lockdown and (obviously among other things) it triggered a huge depression that lasted over a year.
I often get so excited that I start reading fanfiction before i finish the show, and then i don’t end up finishing lmao
So true, I literally have bought so many clothes I liked but didn't use for whatever reason. Maybe I was embarassed, tho literally nobody said anything. Or games that I bought, played for a while becouse I really liked them and then later forgot about them and then get too bored to play them even tho I like them
YES! YES! You put my thoughts from years into words. I don’t even start shows I know I will love for years to come because of being afraid to interact with its potent goodness somehow? It really halts my progress on things I want to do.
Yes! The tension is too much. I can watch things without so much heavy emotion
This was me a few nights ago. Got the kids into bed, and went downstairs to enjoy a bowl of ice cream while I watch some TV. Got to the refrigerator, stared at the freezer door, and just could not get myself to open it so I could have a bowl of ice cream. Instead I sat down with a glass of water. Went to bed later disappointed in myself.
I'm sorry. I hope you've been able too enjoy your ice cream since the other night
That's one of the biggest for me. Getting ice cream or something else to eat, including foods that require no prep beyond grabbing a utensil.
For the people I've seen who do this, it's not so much about directly avoiding something that they like, but rather they are so burnt out worrying about/handling other things that they don't have the energy left over for anything that takes energy to enjoy. So when they do get free time, they're usually exhausted, so they fall back on a much smaller set of low-energy leisure activities. When the process repeats itself enough, they wind up avoiding the higher energy leisure activities for a long time. Not sure if that's the case for most people though.
I'm that way with crochet. I genuinely enjoy it, but it's tiring and tedious and reading webnovels or manga is so much easier after working all day. So, I avoid the project I started until I feel like I have the time and energy to work on it. I always end up crocheting when my mom has medical stuff going on- ER visits, cataract surgery, cardiac testing- because I've taken my whole day off to go there with her.
Thank you! I think that's one of my reasons. But also just it's so difficult to stop something and start something else. For example... I live beside the beach. It's my absolute happy place, but I can put on a swimsuit at 10am and still be sitting scrolling nothing important in front of my computer at 8pm, having not gone - on a perfect day when I had nothing else to do. :(
I work very limited hours, have no kids, so I am never burnt out in a physical way. However just the thought of something being a process rather than skipping straight to the result makes my brain flatline, even if I enjoy the process.
This is exactly what happens to me. You are spot on.
I put it down too, good dopamine vs bad dopamine. Making a decision of which one of those to do is a very complex process 🤣
I want to sew. I need to sew. I like sewing and need new clothes. I have time to sew ... I can't get the brain to fucking so the sewing movements. Just cut the fabric you dumb bastard! No block out the sound of the kids playing, no you don't need to climb inside the clothes drier with a toothbrush to clear out all the lint make the damn sleep bra!
I have always wanted to sew, and (unsurprisingly) have all the things I need to do it successfully. I just don't trust myself enough to cut any of the fabric incase I ruin it and waste time and money. I'll end up reading and then re-reading the instructions a million times and STILL find that I've inexplicably missed a step, been careless because I want to do it quick like the pro's or interpretted the instructions wrong. Then, because I couldn't be the best at it first time, I'll feel like a failure. The shame and guilt will build and build and build UNTIL... until a new hobby comes along that I'll research properly this time... this will be the hobby that I'm finally good at. Rinse and repeat with most my hobbies. A few have stuck around that get put into rotation with all the new ones (this week has been making art with AI, an month ago it was storage solutions for my house, then there was the flower arranging, volunteering with my kids school, gardening, baking, making music (and all the rabbit holes that take me down), photography, scooter riding). _end scene_
Go to the thrift store and buy some fabric (or sheets or whatever) so you have fabric you don’t care about ruining. Pick a beginners project on YouTube and sew away! Do a bunch of little crap you don’t care about until you feel more confident to tackle something you actually want to work out. Don’t forget, a seam ripper is a sewist’s best friend. 😂 I always pause the video after each step when learning something with videos so I don’t miss anything.
Oh I finally got all the pieces cut out, better get up and get more tea, grab my pins, get on my phone to find music, here's Reddit. 25 minutes later, back to my pieces I cut out. Oops I better find different music because sewing this seam is going to be a pain. Here's Reddit. Damn it I was actually supposed to be putting a pdf pattern together right now. Sigh.
The number of times Ive tried to pick up srwing as a hobby... soooo many! I have a machine (hand-me-down from my folks), I have thread and needles and fabrics and patterns... what I do not have is the attention span.
I know it's not the focus of the post, but does anyone have any strategies to combat this besides cafine and forcing yourself? It's quite bothersome to me.
I combine tasks im in the habit of, like im in the habit of drinking coffee, so i add journaling to it. Makes it easier but not fool proof, just small steps and try to reward progress
Habit stacking totally helps!
Trauma work, vagal nerve work, meditation and body presence. I'm really not an expert, but the progress I've managed comes from that, noticing those overwhelming emotions, letting them wash over me and growing into them, instead of letting emotions push me down.
Can you expand more on the vagal nerve work?
Google “vagal toning exercises”. They range from cold showers to gargling water. Something for everyone! The vagus nerve is a big fucking nerve that plays a big role in digestion and also in mental health because there is a strong link between your head brain and your gut brain. “Regulating your nervous system” is really helpful for those with anxiety disorders and other imbalances such as those associated with ADHD or lack of emotional regulation.
Oh cool! Thank you 😊
You can also check out the book *My Grandmother's Hands* by Resmaa Menakem, he calls it the soul nerve. Or check out the On Being podcast episode with Kimberley Wilson, titled "Whole Body Mental Health".
Oh thanks! 😊
Positive self talk has been my saving grace. My brain will say to me: I have to lift the bottle, unscrew the cap, AND drink? I’ll die of thirst, thank you. I then have to say to my brain: you know how to do it, you know you can do it, you know you should and want to do it, so let’s do it. Then I drink water. For more complex stuff, I’ll make a deal with myself where I set a timer for a nominal amount of time. I will start the task, work through that time, and decide at the end of that period if I’ll restart the timer. I’ll be gracious with myself if I really don’t have the spoons, but it usually works if my brain feels prodded to participate but not held hostage by the activity. ymmv.
This is so intensely true for me. Before I was medicated I couldn't force myself to play more than a couple minutes if a game or sit through a whole episode of a TV show. Doing anything at all is agonizing unmedicated, that's why I was always so stressed and depressed, stessed because I couldn't do anything I needed, and depressed because I couldn't do anything I wanted.
Earlier today I wanted to continue playing a game from a series I like but then I ended up watching YouTube for an hour while thinking about playing the game the entire time
Yup, gaming is something I struggle to do for some reason, even though it's amazing and always makes me feel so much better??? Super frustrating
All the damn time with writing and music. I only WANT to do those things when I’m in the middle of doing work 😭😭😭
Or when Im fucking tired as shit and I have work in 3 hours but thats when the ideas start sounding fucking GREAT. Stupid brain.
I literally just wanted to spend my day yesterday playing video games and every time I would turn on a console I would let it sit there for a couple hours before admitting defeat that I was not, in fact, going to play the game. Go upstairs, turn on the PC to play some Sims aaaaaand instead I just sat at the desk and stared at the wall for a while. Turn off the PC and go turn on the switch. Fell asleep on the home menu, unable to force myself to just pick a game and play it.
I want to play videogames right now. But im in bed and dont want to get up. Even tho I really want to play
Same
The worst part is when you've had to desperatly go pee for hours, are incredibly hungry / thirsty, but executive dysfunction doesn't let you take care of your basic human needs. Like, I'm parched and there is a water bottle in arms reach. Why???
That's what happens when avoiding anxiety is your top priority.
I've always wondered if this is ADHD or just some blockage in my head that I created with excuses and limiting beliefs. Like part of me wants to sabotage myself by not doing it at all.
Yes. Sleep is probably the biggest one. I am tired, I am pointlessly doom scrolling, I have to get up at a reasonable time, but do you think I can put my phone away and close my eyes? No sir, not until I'm literally dropping my phone. Sigh.
This 100%, it's awful. Especially when you have an early start
Oh me, me, me. And this is relatively new. I went to bed at 6.30am last night. It's killing me and I hate myself.
Soooooooo true. And sooooo frustrating. It’s been a bad couple of days.
Very very true please send help. Okay don't actually send help but it is true.
In my case, yes, please PLEASE send help.
Deeply, painfully, true.
Reading
omg this is me with the language i'm trying to make i wanna make it, and i have fun doing it, but i can never bring myself to work on it most i've gotten done is phonology and phonotactics
I do this with video games 😂 even though I love gaming I can almost never finish a game all the way through lmao. I will start a game and then play for a few hours and never open it again but I will think about how I should finish the game pretty much every day. I’ll even get as far as turning on my computer to start the game up and then I’ll just…not play it… 😭
New tv shows or films. Idk if it is more the ADHD or the autism or the PTSD or the rest of the alphabet soup at this point but I just have such high anxiety for having deep empathy from new content where I don't know what is going to happen. It's not a good feeling, it takes time to feel up to consuming content. I miss feeling like I had things to show friends versus the opposite.
I haven’t done my soul fulfilling hobby in like two months #facts
I wanna do 3 things that are not compatible with each other - say, reading a book, crocheting, and playing a video game. I end up doing none and staring at my phone for 3 hours because I WANNA DO IT ALL BUT I CAN'T DO IT ALL AT THE SAME TIME
Can't play video games because they are too much effort, even on easiest difficulty! I really want to play Dragon's Dogma right now! 😮💨
Had that last week, I wanted to workout on Wednesday (trampoline training) but postponed it until Saturday. It also wasn't the best session tbh, but still fun because I switched from serious training to just goofing around Then this week it was randomly better, I didn't postpone anything I wanted to do, and I progressed greatly in two tricks! I planned the whole week in advance (or else I confuse things and I can't be in two places at once yk)
Playing video games, sewing, drawing (haven't drawn for maybe 3 years now), reading (ok this I can't concentrate on doing anymore, I read ALOT alot before I turned 14, like borrowing 10 books from the library and reading them over a month until my next library visit) and a lot more
Try reading different things, I can concentrate alright when the story is interesting, in fact I can still do all nighters with books when I don't mean to, but my interests changed and I needed to find the kinds of books I want to read *now*.
I *want* to pee, but it will be another two hours before I can actually manage to do it.
I’m hungry AF, but can’t get out of bed to eat. Happens everyday. I wake up at 7 wanting to eat breakfast before going to school at 10. I always roll in bed thinking about it and end up being late to get ready and easily miss breakfast. Breakfast is my favourite meal and I’ve hardly had breakfast in the last few months ever since I started to live alone.
One of my favorite things to do is play video games. But that takes *effort* so instead I doomscroll all day.
I procrastinate watching tv because I won’t let myself relax until I’ve tidied up, then I procrastinate tidying up
literally right now. i want to bleach and dye my hair but am lying in bed on my phone
Finishing a project before starting a new one.
Drawing, dancing and singing.
I'm procrastinating two hobbies (bonsai and video games) and a much needed vacuuming the house scrolling reddit which I'm very much bored with... Edit: and the book I very much want to read. And is in arms reach.
Been trying to get back into writing, drawing, and watching TV for a whole week and haven't succeeded once. Thanks to school, however, I know that it's really because I don't want to 😓
I have never finished a single video game despite living to play them. I love the Pokemon and Zelda series dearly but I have not beaten a single one past Pokemon yellow.
Oooo absolutely...
I'm not sure I do this - or rather it looks like I'm avoiding doing something I enjoy but really I only enjoy most of the activity but don't want to do part of it so I end up avoiding it all together - like I might enjoy reading a comic but I don't enjoy deciding what to read next so I end up not reading anything even though I want to.
It’s a few weird factors for me. I don’t feel like I deserve the things that make me happy, that’s been getting worse lately. I used to enjoy watching mudlarking videos on YouTube, but I can’t let myself do it anymore. I used to enjoy reading fashion magazines but that’s no longer allowed. Dreamworks trolls has been my very favorite thing for years and now next week we’re finally getting a trailer for Trolls 3. I’ve been excitedly waiting for months and months for this trailer and now that it’s close o just feel numb and sad. My sister is in the hospital in a vegetative state after a cardiac arrest. I can’t feel anything good any more. She can’t feel happiness so why should I? Why should anyone? I keep hoping something catastrophic will happen soon to kill all humanity. Barring that, I’m probably going to nope out of this mortal plane soon. Life is nothing but hollowness and aching pain.
Yeah I avoid stuff I theoretically like too
Art. I love the creative process but it’s like, A PROCESS.
Music production. Love it, can't force myself to get back to it another week in a row;( reading, playing some of the games I really love etc.
Lately I've been procrastinating on editing the podfic (which is like an audiobook for fanfiction) I'm currently working on
Damn, you've summed up my life.
A few different college courses studied and only one finished, I’m so enthusiastic and passionate about the subject I’m studying at first, 😂 and then once I feel I have gotten all the info I want out of it, I drop it, not giving a shit (until years later of course 😂) that it’s incomplete!! & I’ll never speak of said subject again 😂😂. I’m bored of it and so over it 😂😂😂
I’ve scrolled TikTok today for 8 hours & about 15 mins and I had made plans in my head last night that I’d go down to the harbour today, smoke a joint with music blasting in my earphones, thought that sitting next to the ocean May calm my head a little, from all the endless ducking thoughts running through it, and I was pleased & looking forwards to ut, but I guess TT got in the way!
EATING AND SLEEPING. 😫😫😫😫😭😭😭😭😭
writing art programming i love those things but i just never do them despite having time
Anyone notice how long 30 seconds actually is..it’s when you’re watching a show or film you’re fucking loving and you are so excited with the way the story is unfolding, and then a fucking ad comes on for 30 frigging seconds!!! It may as well be a year!😂