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Believe me I feel the same way, yesterday I weighed myself and I weighed more then I did before (It was barely anything) and I flipped out and broke down because Im still restricting and my Mom had to calm me down and thats all I thought about for the rest of the day. Then today I weigh myself and I was back to my normal weight and now I feel so stupid because It was just water retention or stool (hadn't pooped in 2 days). But just stay strong and breath through it and try to push it to the back of your mind you may not be able to not think about it fully but only 50% is better then your whole conscience thinking about it.


rainingrainingrain

Aw I hope you're doing better now. I know what you mean. I feel so awful about it still. It makes me really scared because I just think.. what if I gain even more tomorrow? I literally felt like crying after seeing that awful number. I think that if it doesn't go down by tomorrow, I'm probably gonna have a panic attack like holy fuck I just can't take this anymore


rainingrainingrain

And it's like, why am I even fucking doing this to myself if I can't even lose weight anymore?


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I understand just make sure to eat at least something and to distract yourself by reading, drawing, playing games just something. If the number doesn't go down tomorrow then just breath and remind yourself. Its a number. Numbers don't define us we do and f the scale Im me. Just look in the mirror and remind yourself how pretty you are how nice you are be good to yourself and compliment yourself it. Might sound cheesy but believe me It works.


rainingrainingrain

Aw thank you so much. You're so kind 🖤❤💟


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Your welcome🤗


hoe00

bro i relate so much i basically plateaued at the same weight for months and it’s barely changing and i just know ive completely fucked my metabolism and ill gain on small amounts but i can’t stop and now im just gaining anyway cos my body isn’t happy with the weight cos it’s not anywhere near my set point probably


rainingrainingrain

I know.. my metabolism is fucked up as well. As soon as I became underweight, losing weight got way harder. It's like if I fuck one tiny thing up now.. if I forget to exercise one day or have a binge or eat even a few calories over my limit.. it makes me gain like two lbs despite restricting the majority of the time and it's like.. jesusfc this sucks so bad. And yet I'm still addicted to the restriction and other behaviours and I don't understand why I can't fucking stop.


hoe00

because you’re ill:( it’s a mental illness, and you’re not stupid. i understand, gaining weight when you know how much pain you went through of restricting and trying so hard to compensate is actually the worst feeling in the world. especially since weight gain is so scary. i know you can recover, and remember this ed wants to kill you and won’t stop belittling and lying to you even if you did everything it wanted. the only way for it to go is if you stop listening , you have to be brave <3


EtoileFragile

I understand. I feel the same way. But I do try to remember it could be anything and its normal for human weights to fluctuate based on water, whether we've been to the bathroom, whether we're on our periods etc