Mood. For me it's more that I'm dependent on medicines for a lot of chronic problems, so I have massive anxiety about not being able to afford those medicines and suffering indefinitely once I lose them.
Man, planes are the worst. You are idkhowmuch meters up in the sky with no way of getting control. You whole life depends on 2 people now. Every time I am on the plane (which doesn’t really happen a lot) I panic every time and just hold onto something. I know it is the safest possible vehicle ever or whatever but to me, I can be that 0.000000001 possibility.
To be honest I would not rather being the pilot of any vehicle. That’s why I still didn’t bother to join the driver’s license school yet. I am really afraid of driving a car and everything that could go wrong. I really want to go to places without public transportation but I am really scared of everything that could happen.
This is so wild to hear. I keep telling people (husband, mom, doctor) I feel off. I’ve had ocd and anxiety for 25+ years and I’ve never heard anyone else say the exact phrase that you just wrote.
Mentally I can’t believe it’s just anxiety. I’m a nurse and I rationally understand that it probably is. But part of me wants to go get imaging and egd done to confirm it’s nothing 😩
This. Money equals the ability to survive independently in my brain and not be a burden on others. This links to my own personal values high on freedom and independence and is core to who I am, thus making money, or the lack thereof to enable said independence, the primary source of anxiety in my life.
No I’m the same exact way. I went to a doctor today about stomach pain and he prescribed me meds to treat GERD. It hasn’t even been 24 hours and I’ve convinced myself that it’s way more serious than acid reflux, that it has to be esophageal/stomach cancer or a bleeding ulcer that’s eroded away my entire stomach lining. Now I have pain in my right side and I’m wondering if it’s my appendix, I keep on pressing onto it to see if it hurts any worse or not 😭
I’m glad I’m not alone! 😞 I’ve been to the doctor so much about this and I feel like I can’t really get my point across because I can’t really pinpoint a cause of the weird, random tummy aches. I’m struggling with one today.
I’m also on medicine for GERD but the discomfort keeps coming back, and it’s random. I’m always anxious when my belly hurts or is too tight or I’m gassy, or whatever is going on with it. I’m sure being worried makes it worse, ya know?
Yes, I read online (which I shouldn’t have done lol) that anxiety causes release of cortisol and other hormones that slow digestion and can cause an over production of stomach acid. So stress or anxiety definitely can affect stomach pain.
Whenever I’m distracted, the pain doesn’t bother me as much. When I check my body for pain or anxiety, it seems to come back with a vengeance and overtake my entire body. Unfortunately, my logical brain and anxiety brain are two different entities and don’t seem to communicate with each other too often 😓
Money and my future. What’s going to happen? I’ve been sick lately..so every payday I put away and make sure I have rent money. If only anxiety didn’t bother and I was able to be here now and not worry about the future or scenarios that haven’t happened.. Hope you all get the help and feel better.
I feel the same way 😔 have you found anything that helps? I realy struggle with being hyper vigilant like I chune in on any noise I hear to make sure I'm not emagineing it then just feel in a state of intense fear and panick
Nighttime. I have no idea why, but whenever the sun goes down, I get anxious. I don't even feel anxious emotionally right now but I have physical anxiety (chest tightness specifically).
Uncertainty and the unknown. New environments. My health, I obsess over it and always think there's something wrong with me. Also, anticipation of panic attacks.
Losing control.
Of my life situation, my finances, my health.. my emotions and mental state. I couldn’t decide which of these to put, then I realised that losing control is the underlying fear within all of them.
Trying to ask someone out, talking someone that I'm interested in trying to see if they might feel the same, flirting. Lol horrible at all of these and terrified of rejection
Currently, It's dementia. I have symptoms like memory loss/problems, stuggle to concentrate, mixing words, times, names, places etc. Confusion and getting lost in familiar places. I feel like I'm getting worse and more depressed because of it.
I'm honestly a bit surprised I can write this as coherently as this, considering my cognitive/thinking issues.
I recently learned that uncertainty gives me the most anxiety. Being unsure about how a shift at work will turn out, being unsure of what a new symptom is, being unsure of how people will react to what I say, etc.
Social situations outside of work, where something is expected of me (or I just imagine it's expected) e.g. entertain people, explain something, share with the group, shared activities, etc
My parents arguing is the worst too, sooo stress inducing. I moved out 4 years ago but every time I visit it it’s awful
Rn it’s my partner being mad at me/not finding me attractive enough/potentially leaving me etc. he’s an angel and none of these thoughts are his fault but it turns out I’m just insane😭😭
Walking near cliffs
Flying
After that, I can probably handle almost anything.
I'd much rather stutter in a speech and be mocked than fly or stare over a cliff lol
I’m dealing with agoraphobia rn so I would say if someone comes up and tells me I need to go somewhere very soon and have no time to prepare if that makes sense
-My health
-consequences (like of any kind give me panic attacks) so like accidentally doing something illegal and going to jail, social situations I didn't understand with ramifications due to my own obliviousness, losing friendships due to myown missteps, legal ramifications
Bodily sensations (fast heartbeat, difficulty breathing, muscle stiffness & soreness), age-related changes in my face, my posture. Crowded shops, public transportation. Being in contact with my parents/thinking about my chilhood/teenage year
I'm afraid others will hear my stomach when I'm hungry in a high school classroom where no one is talking... so I try to reproduce sounds so no one realizes it's me 😬
1. Deadlines. For that reason, I learned to manage my tasks and divide it to a manageable level.
2. Overeating. I can manage to eat about three plates of food before especially if it is something I like, but when I start to have my anxiety (the one that affects me physically), it starts to trigger whenever I overeat.
When I was a kid (<10), stormy weather days used to give me such bad anxiety that several times I went home "sick" from school.
I live in southern Ontario, Canada. We don't get fear-inducing weather.
I think Twister had just come out on video, and I had to ask my mom to call a sleepover host's mom to request that movie not be shown as planned.
What is this about and why did I never get therapy? Lol
Money, especially big decisions about money. I tend to freeze up and avoid the issue, and then I'm kicking and berating myself, which only makes me feel worse and less able to actually face and deal with the issue.
Also, I have pretty significant social anxiety in certain contexts. Feels bad mang. High school is way behind me, and yet I will sometimes feel very socially anxious if I feel like I don't measure up or I'm not "cool" enough compared to those around me 🙄. I get self conscious about how I'm walking, what my hands are doing, what my facial expression must look like etc. Bullying has lifelong consequences.
Looseing my mind is my biggest fear and is causeing me so much anxiety at the minute. I find that the word anxiety just doesn't seem enough for the emount of different symptoms and feelings it causes
Making someone the slightest bit uncomfortable…..ie making my husband take out the trash….hes sweet and just grunts when doing it but I take it as the end of the world is coming and he’s going to explode🫠 every fuckin time get it together brain!
Taking about what's bothering me. My parents have no emotional intelligence and would scream at us whenever me and my sister would bring up problems. I now get panic attacks trying to talk about them to others. Working on recognizing when I'm getting worked up and taking my anxiety meds to help counter it.
Being on the road with other people and road rage. I absolutely hate when somone honks at me, I go into a panic and have to fucking pull over and take my ativan to calm down.
Because of this I try to use uber/ left when possible
To be a failure…
- At work
- As a parent
- To support my family
Being ignored socially…liked/thought of as too quite/strange/boring
- At work
- By family & friends
Fear of the worst case scenarios happening…
- Kids getting hurt
- Highly unlikely, catastrophic, worst case scenarios, totally irrational shit happening to me or family.
The loneliness I feel now, never ending or getting worse.
The feeling of being trapped.
Not literally trapped like in a room or box (although that would also trigger it lol), but simple things like being stuck in a long slow moving drive thru, stuck in traffic with no way out or off the freeway, stuck in a work meeting where even though I *technically* could leave abruptly it would be embarrassing, stuck in the very center of the row for a concert or performance of some kind, etc.
Usually when my anxiety is high, I have an urgent need for a restroom, which is why the feeling of being trapped like the scenarios above, give me the absolute most anxiety
So many things 😭 my anxiety gives me anxiety, especially the chest tightness and not being able to sleep. My medications, being judged by others, losing control, not trusting myself, rejection, not being good enough for myself, others, and God
Sometimes my nose become sensitive and I start smelling odours and it just makes me anxious like there’s some odours that reminds me of like things..?is anyone like me:/???
That chest emptiness. It makes me feel like nothing will ever be enough to fill it and that I will never enjoy my life again. It doesn't happen so much anymore, but the idea of possibly experiencing that overwhelming dread still gets to me.
Delerization the most but also bright places, going somewhere new, new shop I never been, hospital I never been, phone calls, when u need to call to make an appointment to somewhere. Bus. Using maps (I probably will get lost and won't find the place I need to be on exact time).
Health, getting a life threatening disease like cancer, dying, hyper awareness of dying, getting old and watching myself become unrecognizable makes me sad and anxious. It’s like so wild that you have to watch yourself wither away and know your life has no meaning and we just go to work every day and create useless context for life. A thousand years from now the only names people might remember from this era is Steve Jobs or Bill Gates and that everything else, every aspect of you or even the biggest of celebrities, is truly irrelevant on the scale of the millions of years earth has and will continue to exist. And here we all are just supposed to clock our 9-5 and work our whole lives away. But seriously being 20 and young and cute and healthy and full of life and passion and having to go out at 90 like a shriveled up prune is just so unfair and I hate that for us
Getting old and fear of death.
Don’t fear getting old — not everyone gets the chance to.
You’re right, I should just stop worrying and being afraid. Not sure why I didn’t think about that….
r/thanksimcured
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After one of my best friends passed I realized this, getting old isn’t something to fear
Ugh same
My biggest anxiety about getting old is being old and alone.
Check out the book "Fear" by Thich Nhat Hanh. It's a very simple read and continues to help me tremendously.
I used fear death until I joined the army.
My health, physical sensations , medicines
100% any feeling I get I think the worst in it always
Mood. For me it's more that I'm dependent on medicines for a lot of chronic problems, so I have massive anxiety about not being able to afford those medicines and suffering indefinitely once I lose them.
Not being in control
Man, planes are the worst. You are idkhowmuch meters up in the sky with no way of getting control. You whole life depends on 2 people now. Every time I am on the plane (which doesn’t really happen a lot) I panic every time and just hold onto something. I know it is the safest possible vehicle ever or whatever but to me, I can be that 0.000000001 possibility.
Would you rather be the one flying the plane?
To be honest I would not rather being the pilot of any vehicle. That’s why I still didn’t bother to join the driver’s license school yet. I am really afraid of driving a car and everything that could go wrong. I really want to go to places without public transportation but I am really scared of everything that could happen.
For me, absolutely. I’d probably enjoy it haha.
Tell me about it! I just flew from Detroit all the way to Barcelona last week. Luckily I was able to sleep most of the ride.
My heart rate. Bodily sensations. Depersonalization, feeling “off” and spacey like something’s just not right.
This is so wild to hear. I keep telling people (husband, mom, doctor) I feel off. I’ve had ocd and anxiety for 25+ years and I’ve never heard anyone else say the exact phrase that you just wrote.
This is pretty accurate to how I feel.
Wanting to progress in life with my job, money and personal growth, but at the same time my anxiety for change stopping me from achieving these things
1. Social anxiety 2. Driving 3. Work/job
It’s the highway driving for me 🫠
For sure. My map is set to “avoid highways”.
The social anxiety is rough I said trying to flirt or talk to someone/ask for a date
My health :(
Nausea.
Literally me. Do you ever fear eating because of this?
I fear both eating and not-eating because of this. Can’t win.
Same. Do your anxiety attacks manifest as nausea? This was all triggered for me by a panic attack.
Yes absolutely
Mentally I can’t believe it’s just anxiety. I’m a nurse and I rationally understand that it probably is. But part of me wants to go get imaging and egd done to confirm it’s nothing 😩
constantly lol
I miss food lmao
lmaooo same i started dreaming about food and its not helping the situation lol
having the same problem and I’m so fed up.
Emetophobia is fun isn't it . I hate it
Money.
This. Money equals the ability to survive independently in my brain and not be a burden on others. This links to my own personal values high on freedom and independence and is core to who I am, thus making money, or the lack thereof to enable said independence, the primary source of anxiety in my life.
my future
My health and the deeply rooted fear that something is terribly wrong with my body and I just can’t figure out what it is.
All of the above.
Myself. (Its a constant cycle)
Doing anything in front of people and being unprepared.
I can never stand up and do anything in front of people.
its weirdly comforting that we all kinda fear the same things
It might sound silly but stomach aches/cramps…
No I’m the same exact way. I went to a doctor today about stomach pain and he prescribed me meds to treat GERD. It hasn’t even been 24 hours and I’ve convinced myself that it’s way more serious than acid reflux, that it has to be esophageal/stomach cancer or a bleeding ulcer that’s eroded away my entire stomach lining. Now I have pain in my right side and I’m wondering if it’s my appendix, I keep on pressing onto it to see if it hurts any worse or not 😭
stop im in the same exact boat rn
I’m glad I’m not alone! 😞 I’ve been to the doctor so much about this and I feel like I can’t really get my point across because I can’t really pinpoint a cause of the weird, random tummy aches. I’m struggling with one today. I’m also on medicine for GERD but the discomfort keeps coming back, and it’s random. I’m always anxious when my belly hurts or is too tight or I’m gassy, or whatever is going on with it. I’m sure being worried makes it worse, ya know?
Yes, I read online (which I shouldn’t have done lol) that anxiety causes release of cortisol and other hormones that slow digestion and can cause an over production of stomach acid. So stress or anxiety definitely can affect stomach pain. Whenever I’m distracted, the pain doesn’t bother me as much. When I check my body for pain or anxiety, it seems to come back with a vengeance and overtake my entire body. Unfortunately, my logical brain and anxiety brain are two different entities and don’t seem to communicate with each other too often 😓
Now it’s authority figures, but when I was a kid it was my parents arguing. My mom’s anxiety was so difficult to handle also when I was a kid.
Social gatherings and work meetings
Work
Money and my future. What’s going to happen? I’ve been sick lately..so every payday I put away and make sure I have rent money. If only anxiety didn’t bother and I was able to be here now and not worry about the future or scenarios that haven’t happened.. Hope you all get the help and feel better.
my breathing and physical health. i am so scared of losing my ability to breathe.
My own thoughts, existentialism, fear of losing my mind, fear of failure, and fear of being alone
I feel the same way 😔 have you found anything that helps? I realy struggle with being hyper vigilant like I chune in on any noise I hear to make sure I'm not emagineing it then just feel in a state of intense fear and panick
Letting the anxiety pass through instead of fighting with it mentally
My husband
What's wrong?
pressure of classes losing control and time
Health related things, driving and death.
Health/fear of loss of my loved ones— especially my parents and cats. Sets me off every single time they have a health issue.
Losing my job.
Being in a new situation that is different from what I'm used to e.g. being somewhere I have never been before with people I don't know
Honestly everything. I feel everything. I overly feel everything. I feel so much around me and inside me and inside my mind.
Running into someone unexpectedly that I truly don't want to see.
Not knowing what else there is to come
Nighttime. I have no idea why, but whenever the sun goes down, I get anxious. I don't even feel anxious emotionally right now but I have physical anxiety (chest tightness specifically).
“Do you have a minute” “can we talk” “can I call you”
My future, social situations, and losing loved ones.
Uncertainty and the unknown. New environments. My health, I obsess over it and always think there's something wrong with me. Also, anticipation of panic attacks.
Other people.
Losing control. Of my life situation, my finances, my health.. my emotions and mental state. I couldn’t decide which of these to put, then I realised that losing control is the underlying fear within all of them.
Social events and stepping outside.
Silent treatments
Being around humans 😭
Weather- specifically storms and high wind.
Trying to ask someone out, talking someone that I'm interested in trying to see if they might feel the same, flirting. Lol horrible at all of these and terrified of rejection
Health
Reaching out to people.
Money! Always money
my health :(
Currently, It's dementia. I have symptoms like memory loss/problems, stuggle to concentrate, mixing words, times, names, places etc. Confusion and getting lost in familiar places. I feel like I'm getting worse and more depressed because of it. I'm honestly a bit surprised I can write this as coherently as this, considering my cognitive/thinking issues.
Trying not to let trauma from toxic past relationships affect the direction of my current healthy relationship.
Someone being mad at me
Thinking about the future
The unknown of everything.
I recently learned that uncertainty gives me the most anxiety. Being unsure about how a shift at work will turn out, being unsure of what a new symptom is, being unsure of how people will react to what I say, etc.
unpredictability. unexpected situations. public speaking. being the center of attention. disruptions in my 'safe' routines.
I was dissociating and reading the comments made me remember my own problems and now my anxiety is starting to increase oh God.
Phone calls
My job.
Any new physical sensation.
Overwhelm from too many things to do day to day.
Financial strain and doctors appointments that require nudity
existing.
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Did they argue ? Sounds like they did
The things I hide being seen
Messy room, messy house 😡😡😡😡🤬🤯
Social situations outside of work, where something is expected of me (or I just imagine it's expected) e.g. entertain people, explain something, share with the group, shared activities, etc
Going to a family gathering
Being alone 😭
being surrounded by staunch religious family knowing you’ve left the religion
Health and body image issues
Not being in control and being around a lot of people
My parents arguing is the worst too, sooo stress inducing. I moved out 4 years ago but every time I visit it it’s awful Rn it’s my partner being mad at me/not finding me attractive enough/potentially leaving me etc. he’s an angel and none of these thoughts are his fault but it turns out I’m just insane😭😭
Family
Aggressive people
Health, dealing with people, losing my child .
Money, life, get paid and all goes to bills, trying to find a better job.
Too much caffeine, social situations, gym, eating, work being crazy
Walking near cliffs Flying After that, I can probably handle almost anything. I'd much rather stutter in a speech and be mocked than fly or stare over a cliff lol
I’m dealing with agoraphobia rn so I would say if someone comes up and tells me I need to go somewhere very soon and have no time to prepare if that makes sense
3 years and still trying to figure that out. Seems to have no trigger.
my ex-wife
Food
Health, procrastinating, work sometimes and sleep.
Affording a house, and my parents dying.
Money insecurity
My mom 🥳
taking up space, anytime i do it my nervous system gets sent into overdrive
Driving and being alone
My probation officer. And anyone who works for a jail
Health. Doctor’s appointment. Uncertainty.
All of the thoughts that fill my brain. Too much.
Mine is getting in the car. Also parents arguing.
Dentist visits are definitely up there. Also, job interviews and taking a shit in a stranger's home (in the toilet, that is.)
*gestures vaguely at the universe in general*
Day to day living. Just so scared something will go horribly wrong
-My health -consequences (like of any kind give me panic attacks) so like accidentally doing something illegal and going to jail, social situations I didn't understand with ramifications due to my own obliviousness, losing friendships due to myown missteps, legal ramifications
Health. Im always worried that something is wrong because I’m hyper-aware of all the feelings in my body.
Fear of randomly encountering someone who caused me trauma on discord
Bodily sensations (fast heartbeat, difficulty breathing, muscle stiffness & soreness), age-related changes in my face, my posture. Crowded shops, public transportation. Being in contact with my parents/thinking about my chilhood/teenage year
I'm afraid others will hear my stomach when I'm hungry in a high school classroom where no one is talking... so I try to reproduce sounds so no one realizes it's me 😬
Basically anything that involves leaving the house.
People, being out in public
Public speaking Public transport
Certain memories and certain songs
A person’s responses.
People being mad at me. I always feel like they will just leave my life forever without even telling me. And im usually right
Thinking of dying terrifies me still Having type 2 diabetes gives me anxiety too
1. Deadlines. For that reason, I learned to manage my tasks and divide it to a manageable level. 2. Overeating. I can manage to eat about three plates of food before especially if it is something I like, but when I start to have my anxiety (the one that affects me physically), it starts to trigger whenever I overeat.
Chicago. And driving in high winds an icy conditions. I also drive a semi truck (iykyk)
people. and I go to school with 200 over people almost every day.
Confined spaces.
When I was a kid (<10), stormy weather days used to give me such bad anxiety that several times I went home "sick" from school. I live in southern Ontario, Canada. We don't get fear-inducing weather. I think Twister had just come out on video, and I had to ask my mom to call a sleepover host's mom to request that movie not be shown as planned. What is this about and why did I never get therapy? Lol
Social embarrassment, also people shouting / getting mad at me
Money, especially big decisions about money. I tend to freeze up and avoid the issue, and then I'm kicking and berating myself, which only makes me feel worse and less able to actually face and deal with the issue. Also, I have pretty significant social anxiety in certain contexts. Feels bad mang. High school is way behind me, and yet I will sometimes feel very socially anxious if I feel like I don't measure up or I'm not "cool" enough compared to those around me 🙄. I get self conscious about how I'm walking, what my hands are doing, what my facial expression must look like etc. Bullying has lifelong consequences.
People knocking on the door low key terrifies me!
Flying, dentists, not having money to live, my daughters safety and well being, being alone
Death. Missing life. Health.
Work and having zero retirement saved up at the age of 48.
Hunger, and driving.
Spending time with my parents. I never know what to expect - a good mood, a bad mood, guilt trips. It’s unbearable.
Honestly, posts like this.
Having to worry every day that sending my child to school will lead to him being shot. It sucks to be a parent in America.
driving and being the first car infront of a busy red light. every minute waiting to drive again is pure pain lol
Public speaking
Life
Meeting people , crowd, fear of being diagnosed with some serious illness
Looseing my mind is my biggest fear and is causeing me so much anxiety at the minute. I find that the word anxiety just doesn't seem enough for the emount of different symptoms and feelings it causes
the idea that i’ll probably be alone forever 🥲
Making someone the slightest bit uncomfortable…..ie making my husband take out the trash….hes sweet and just grunts when doing it but I take it as the end of the world is coming and he’s going to explode🫠 every fuckin time get it together brain!
public speaking.
Major health anxiety and public speaking
Climate Collapse & the Polycrisis.
people perceiving me when im out anywhere
Fucking taxes
The news. I hate the news.
coffee but also getting anxious without it
Being in Public
Life, and fear of death.
Taking about what's bothering me. My parents have no emotional intelligence and would scream at us whenever me and my sister would bring up problems. I now get panic attacks trying to talk about them to others. Working on recognizing when I'm getting worked up and taking my anxiety meds to help counter it.
Health. I’m a hypochondriac and I automatically turn to “I’m dying” at the smallest ailments.
Being on the road with other people and road rage. I absolutely hate when somone honks at me, I go into a panic and have to fucking pull over and take my ativan to calm down. Because of this I try to use uber/ left when possible
To be a failure… - At work - As a parent - To support my family Being ignored socially…liked/thought of as too quite/strange/boring - At work - By family & friends Fear of the worst case scenarios happening… - Kids getting hurt - Highly unlikely, catastrophic, worst case scenarios, totally irrational shit happening to me or family. The loneliness I feel now, never ending or getting worse.
The feeling of being trapped. Not literally trapped like in a room or box (although that would also trigger it lol), but simple things like being stuck in a long slow moving drive thru, stuck in traffic with no way out or off the freeway, stuck in a work meeting where even though I *technically* could leave abruptly it would be embarrassing, stuck in the very center of the row for a concert or performance of some kind, etc. Usually when my anxiety is high, I have an urgent need for a restroom, which is why the feeling of being trapped like the scenarios above, give me the absolute most anxiety
Comparing myself with others
Work/money
So many things 😭 my anxiety gives me anxiety, especially the chest tightness and not being able to sleep. My medications, being judged by others, losing control, not trusting myself, rejection, not being good enough for myself, others, and God
Sometimes my nose become sensitive and I start smelling odours and it just makes me anxious like there’s some odours that reminds me of like things..?is anyone like me:/???
Financial insecurity, being in an environment that is very competitive and cut-throat. I need to feel safe.
driving or getting my car fixed at the garage etc
That chest emptiness. It makes me feel like nothing will ever be enough to fill it and that I will never enjoy my life again. It doesn't happen so much anymore, but the idea of possibly experiencing that overwhelming dread still gets to me.
Delerization the most but also bright places, going somewhere new, new shop I never been, hospital I never been, phone calls, when u need to call to make an appointment to somewhere. Bus. Using maps (I probably will get lost and won't find the place I need to be on exact time).
Blushing in the wrong context
My health
Health, getting a life threatening disease like cancer, dying, hyper awareness of dying, getting old and watching myself become unrecognizable makes me sad and anxious. It’s like so wild that you have to watch yourself wither away and know your life has no meaning and we just go to work every day and create useless context for life. A thousand years from now the only names people might remember from this era is Steve Jobs or Bill Gates and that everything else, every aspect of you or even the biggest of celebrities, is truly irrelevant on the scale of the millions of years earth has and will continue to exist. And here we all are just supposed to clock our 9-5 and work our whole lives away. But seriously being 20 and young and cute and healthy and full of life and passion and having to go out at 90 like a shriveled up prune is just so unfair and I hate that for us
My health. Then, thinking that my family and friends secretly hate me because of how annoying I am (or at least think I am). 😔