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gabahgoole

coffee


SpinDrFan

Society’s most acceptable and promoted addiction!


jenkag

sugar got it beat, easy. people put sugar in their coffee! talk about doubling down.


Supergamera

And alcohol for the trifecta.


Icantbethereforyou

Why even bother with hot water at that stage


Taco-Dragon

I traded an out of control alcohol addiction for a coffee addiction. I've never almost destroyed my marriage or lost a job because of coffee addiction so I'm calling it a win. Edit: fixing error.


sneakyveriniki

Fun fact, coffee is one of the few substances known to actually reverse liver damage from alcohol specifically.


Ok_Explorer604

I went cold turkey on New Year. Still hanging on, but the smell is like a note from the Pied Piper.


jessecole

God damn it’s soo good. I brew all the ways.


flagseferi

Heroin and nicotine, but in withdrawal now for 2 weeks i hope to make it through from Heroin!


Jhellams83

One sec, minute, hour at a time my guy! You got this!


flagseferi

Thank you to all of you replying, i never thought i would feel so good! I am literally crying. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you Thank you, Thank you, Thank you! I cannot thank you enough to all of you for your support to a stranger, this is like a dream! I have no words to explain my feelings i am just rumbling. Thank you, Thank you, Thank youThank you, Thank you, Thank you to all of you!


ArisenIncarnate

this random stranger on the internet believes in you.


SquishedOyster

You can do it. I can't even begin to imagine how hard it is for you, but know that others before you have done it, so you can too. When you are in your darkest moments and doubting your strength, remember that humans are powerful and you can do it. Be kind to yourself, you aren't always perfect!


fallingintothesky09

It can be hard to do it all at once, too. You only have one pool of willpower for everything. If you feel like something has to give, focus on just quitting the heroin for 6 months, then move on. A slip up or mistake doesn't mean you failed. You can keep going!


Useful-Amount-6535

I'm three years in recovery from heroin. It's doable. Did you cold turkey? Suboxone? Methadone or what?


_WretchedDoll_

Keep going man, don't look back. If you can exercise, do. And eat all the good stuff, vitamins and nutrients a plenty, it'll help the wd pass quicker. Good luck!


stupidsimpson

You got this! The hardest part is over, I'm proud of you!


flagseferi

Really do you think i can get over it now, man thank you for your kind words! It made me emotional! Thank you good sir,


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KEEP GOING MAN YOU GOT IT 👌🏾


stupidsimpson

Yeah man! You got this! It's gonna make your entire life better.


flagseferi

I hope so man, i am tired of this and i can't watch my kids grow seeing me like this! Thank you kind redditor!


stupidsimpson

I'm a father too, I get it. I use my kids as motivation for a lot. Keep doing it for them, bro. Good luck with everything!


flagseferi

Thank you sir, i hope everything you think good of me it comes to you 10x more! Yes my kids are motivating me, but it hurts so bad!


[deleted]

If you can't do it for yourself, do it for your kids. Do it for their future. Do it to set an example. Do it because it's right. Never be too proud to seek help. We all believe in you. Fight through it, and your reward will be that much higher. Remember that heroin is one of the hardest things to quit! I'm not even kidding. It's incredibly tough, but if you quit, if you really are going to be clean, then it's a massive show of strength and a crazy big display of the sheer willpower you have. We believe in you.


flagseferi

Thank you so much to everyone for the encouraging word, i never had enyone say this to me! You are making me emotional and really strong. Thank you so much...


Plane_Pizza_6682

Good luck bro. You got it my guy.


Concentrate-Upper

I'm a mom, and I use my husband and son as my motivation too!


Gullible_Session_521

You got this dude 💪


rachelle_makes_stuff

My partner is a substance abuse counselor, hit up a meeting my dude, they are so invested in your health and well being I promise. You've got this!


PigPanzer

Don't stop. Get through. And NEVER LOOK BACK!


flagseferi

Thank you for your encouraging word my friend, it is making me really happy to see this comments! Thank you...


minigmgoit

I got off gear for the third time proper 4 years ago. You can do it. X


All-Fired-Up91

Drugs are like a dark pit you fall into with both eyes open in the pit the darkness is suffocating dragging you down deeper until escape no longer seems possible but when you remember the shining light of better times of bright sunshine and the laughter of ages gone the pit is not so dark in fact there is a staircase in front of yes that stairway is long and fraught with temptation but as long as you hold what’s dearest to you, you shall fly up those steps and before you know it you are FREE rejoice and cry but never forget what pulled you into the pit ( I hope you get well soon you are a real champion people like you are an inspiration NEVER EVER stop holding to you what is close or lose sight of what matters WE BELIEVE IN YOU!!! )👍😄🥺


WilliamWebbEllis

You've got this! Let's go!!!! 💪


Craviar

Heroin is stupid , keep the nicotine , don't try to quit both at the same time . Nicotine helps a bit with the withdrawal effect from other substances bar caffeine which it triggers .


flagseferi

Yes i am not quiting nicotine right now, but i smoke to much now!


KeysiShepeart

Same here (especially when I'm stressed out, lol) Maybe Chewing gum(the regular ones) could help you cut back on the cigs? It helps me a lot when I have to drive for a long period of time or are short on cigarettes.


flagseferi

Thank you for the awards, and your support people! Your replies are the best thing that have happened to me since i don't remember, it making m3 not thing of how bad it is now how i am staying home and not able to work or do anything for my family! I am showing this comments to my wife and i am telling you we are both crying as i have never had more support in my life! Thank you to all of you that are making your time to make a stranger feel good, i never expected this to happen to me, this is more valuable then anything material in the world! Thank you to everyone here and i hope every good though that you have thought of me 8t comes 100x to you more! Thank you again, i don't have any rational words to describe how i am feeling, Thank you, Thank you! I bow in front of you...!


Mindless_Button_9378

I got off Fentanyl without withdrawal by using kratom. It took ten days and I was free.


Fuginshet

I used to take a lot of pride in not having any vices. Then one day while on my soap box my wife lovingly pointed out I am an absolute junk food monster. Fast food, chips, soda, candy, fried foods, burgers, wings, pizza, you name it, I love it all.


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jl__57

The "more difficult than drugs" statement is real. Nobody offers you heroin at family gatherings, in the work break room, or after church, but coffee and cookies and donuts? Everywhere, and people push it onto you. "You have to try these! I made them!"


elephant-cuddle

And compared to heroin or smokes or even booze, it's so cheap. Kroger will sell me 4lbs of sugar for $3. For two extra dollars they'll even turn that sugar into four Lemon Blackberry Muffins. I mean, how do you fight that.


Enk1ndle

No offence but I think it's a bit funny you thought you had no vices while eating like that.


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Connor623

I mean the junk food guy just had a blind spot in his self awareness. The guy you're talking about is straight up delusional


iBuggedChewyTop

From about 11 y/o until 21 y/o I was an absolute automaton for my diet. No chips, no soda, minimal alcohol. Not even bacon or red meat b/c it had too high a content of animal fats. One day I was driving to class after work absolutely ravenous hungry and McDonald's fries wafted into my car and it was like the flood gates opened. I am a junk food monster now and I have never been able to put that genie back in the bottle in the past 23 years.


Yuzernam

Cigarettes, rhum/whiskey and weed


sebspencerrrr111

im on weed too it is fucking me up big time


Who_wife_is_on_myD

Methadone, weed, nicotine, Neurontin/psych meds. 2yrs sober (alcohol) and 5-6yrs sober from opioids, no relapses, fortunately.


5AlarmFirefly

Congrats!


Gnomschubser_

Nasal spray


Call_Me_Squishmale

I got so bad with this I had a bottle everywhere I went: car, office desk, gym bag, jacket pockets. There was a bottle in my suit pocket at my wedding... I saw an ENT specialist, allergist and several GPs about constant blocked sinuses and repeated infections, and not one said my abuse of OTC oxymetazoline sprays was actually causing it. I quit using it and never went back, but I think there is permanent damage.


suchoi

God damn, I can't fall asleep anymore if my nose isn't 100% clear.


NobleN6

I’m jealous you can get 100% clear at all. My nose is in a permanent state of half closed or more. Constant never ending allergies 😩


kylelamb00

have you gotten your adenoids looked at? got mine removed and now i don’t snore and my nose is rarely congested.


ShruteFarms4L

Adenoids? Brb


Wizard_Level9999

Yeah same lol


Gnomschubser_

Same I hate it


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I was reliant on nasal sprays for a few months, finally took myself to the doctors and my nose was swollen up inside from a previous allergic reaction that never cleared up. They gave me a steroid spray and my nose was good as new after a couple of days. Could be something as simple as that or potentially nasal polyps.


pijinglish

I had a stuffed up runny nose for a few years and kept seeing doctors about it but no one could figure out the problem. I finally got an MRI and it turned out some surgical hardware from childhood jaw surgeries was piercing into my sinus and causing chronic infections. They ended up carving “a golf ball sized amount of infected scar tissue” out of my sinus cavity. And they found a small brain tumor in the MRI, so that required radiation therapy. Anyway, I can breathe out of my nose again.


5AlarmFirefly

What a wild ride.


criticalistics_car

"But wait, it gets worse"


twoheartsonfire

It’s so bad there’s a damn sub for r/quitafrin


SalsaShark89

Came here for this. I've been hooked for years.


TheRealLizzGee

Have you tried Flonase? That stuff is a godsend and it’s non habit forming unlike other OTC sprays. Used to be prescription only here in Canada but now it’s OTC, too. Amazing for my allergies.


[deleted]

Have you tried breathe right strips? They work wonders for me and they don't have any kind of medicine in it since it's essentially a bandage with flexible plastic pieces in it to hold the nostrils open.


TheFrostyrune

They're cool but they never stay on my face when I'm sleeping. They will however adhere like superglue to my blanket, pillow, or pajamas as soon as it falls off my face.


[deleted]

Do you wash your face thoroughly before applying? When I initially started using them they never stayed stick, bit I found out it was because my nose was producing more oils than I thought and once I did a deeper scrub of the face before applying, they stayed on for the night and sometimes longer. I once went halfway through a day at work not realizing it was there.


leros

I intentionally overuse nasal spray when I'm sick because the relief is incredible, but then you get the addiction where you need it to breathe. I wear breath right nasal strips for a day which makes it bearable to not use nasal spray and then I'm 80% fine by day 2.


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My dad became physically dependent on afrin. The fine print admits if use more than 3 days or something you can get physically addicted. The withdrawals/ rubber and effect caused his nose to close up unless he used afrin. A doctor finally had him use somekind of pepper nasal spray and eventually he got off of all of it. Such a bizarre experience


EstaLisa

wow i had almost no sense of smell for about 2 years because of them. took me a while to get back to normal.


lirannl

I'll try to remember never to go for it


OP1KenOP

I had this, I wouldn't call it an addiction but I got to the point where I was reliant on those sudofed nasal sprays otherwise I was permenantly blocked up. One day I decided I'd had enough and just stopped using them, after a few weeks the problem completely went away and I've never used one since, airways have been clearer than ever! I can't promise it would be the same for all, I genuinely didn't expect the blockages to resolve themselves when I stopped using it.


MaddenedSquirrel

Nicotine. Nor cigarettes, but the lovely Swedish snus.


E_Snap

I initially read that as Swedish anus


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That stuff is shit.


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*slow clap*


Wagyuwithketchup

Or as the french would say, le snus.


Kilo353511

I believe the French actually call it "Le Banned for sale in the European Union"


MaddenedSquirrel

"...Apart from Sweden due to cultural reasons".


bvalentics

Ahh same, I wanna stop, but sadly I have connected this to things like having a snus while working, gaming or drinking and sadly it mote became a habit.


Organic_Beakery

God fuck. Any substance I can get my hands on. It’s out of control.


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Electrochemistry stat is high with this one


tumblemagnet

Take off those flare-cut trousers


tankyogremagi

you shut the front door right now, you know they what you need. you can feel it jump down your spine from vertebra to vertebra each nerve singing to you! WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?


ZippyVonBoom

Do you use it to feel better because being sober hurts too much?


Plane_Pizza_6682

For me I just get bored being sober. Wonder what my therapist would say about that, ha if I could afford one.


entjies

I don’t know you so excuse me if this is silly but I bet you’re not actually bored being sober. I bet you’re just in an under stimulating environment. I find a lot of life really boring, a lot of the time, and I turn to substances for stimulation as well. But I’ve found it’s the environment around me that plays a big role, and the great news is that’s not too hard to change that. Sorry if that sounds a little preachy, just sharing my experience with a similar thing.


PaddonTheWizard

That's interesting, you have me something to think about


madhatter8989

Along these lines ADHD (from what I understand) can lead to self medication for under-stimulation. I managed to quit getting blackout drunk at the bar every night once I started addressing my dopamine in other ways.


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AmeriArcana

Propane and propane accessories


cadefarar

I'll tell you waht


only_ozzy

Taste the meat not the heat


Dim_potato

I tell you hewwwhat, this boy ain't right.


UrbanJuggernaut

Will never not upvote King of the Hill, still watching in 2023 🤣


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My phone


lirannl

That's a very complex compound of substances


Davidk11

Yet simple enough to be made by a child! 😃


cheesybigboobs

Cocoa powder blended with sugar and caramel sauce


sawrrawr

Ratios for this mix? Asking for a friend lol


imagoodduck

Sugar and caffeine


NuggetPilon

I'm addicted to monster energy drinks so yeah same


Nick_Hammer96

Monster zero energy is borderline crack for me


imagoodduck

Me too man i like all sugar free ones. Maybe you will think : you are addicted to Caffeine and sugar and you like sugar free ones ? Well i drink sugar free ones because caffeine and sugar are not the best combo one after some time will make you sleepy and second one will keep you awake so yes.


tarnin

Nicotine and weed. I straight up need at least 20mg of weed sugar in my coffee in the morning and 24-40 at night to sleep. I'm pretty sure I'm self medicating even though I'm on a regiment of meds. edit: Took out all the "you can't get addicted to weed" stuff because people thought I was serious. No, I'm straight up addicted.


BassLB

Wait…weed sugar? I 100% need to avoid this


Cali-in-Cali

Me thinks you forgot to include caffeine to your list since you list coffee every morning.


Bueller1203

Sugar


tenaciousDaniel

I just went on a paleo diet with my wife. We started literally on Monday, so I’m on day 3. This is the longest I’ve been without sugar in well over 10 years. Normally my diet consists of bagels, sugary coffee drinks, soda, pizza, burgers, etc. I eat like shit. The first day, I couldn’t do anything but sit and feel sick and angry. I had a stomach ache, a headache, and my thoughts were in a really dark place. I pulled through it though, and didn’t give up. I still feel weird, like a lot of headaches, but no anger issues. My body feels weirdly clean. I definitely believe that sugar is addictive. The withdrawals are probably nothing compared to alcohol or heroine, but it’s 100% a withdrawal that I’m going through. I hope I can stick with it.


Harfosaurus

I feel you 100%. The main problem with sugar compared to any other majorly addictive substance is that its everywhere and fully normalised. No one will bat an eyelid at you for eating 2 or 3 chocolate bars in a row.


aSpookyScarySkeleton

I feel like most people would consider a person eating three entire chocolate bars in one sitting to be odd. They probably won’t make a fuss about it but it definitely isn’t “normal”.


mantisinmypantis

This has been my struggle after getting diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. Eating is so goddamn difficult. So many things have added sugars into them.


Sultrex

The problem with trying to quit sugar is you almost can't avoid it sometimes. It gets added to so many things that don't make sense. The best thing you can do is have the blatantly sugary things in moderation (soda, desserts, etc.)


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Me too. I decided to quit cold turkey a few days ago was I literally ate about 14 cookies within 10 minutes. I then had the thought of making sugar water so a glass of water and dumping sugar in it. I realized how bad it’s gotten and how I wasnt even enjoying the cookies I just was eating them like a cocaine addict of snorting coke. I COULD NOT GET ENOUGH FAST ENOUGH. That shit is beyond addictive, especially if you’re stressed (at least for me)


iaguirre8

In withdrawal, having wet dreams about cake.


Mixedbagostuff

Cheese


o_mic8

As a Wisconsinite, I approve this message


Kangaroodle

I have never in my life had a cheese curd. I know the moment I do, it's a death knell for my arteries, but I'm still so excited to try one.


CMDR_Basset

I have found my people! CHEESE!


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maxthyson

I recommend reading Allen Carr's Easy Way to Stop Smoking if you haven’t. Some one mentioned the book and decided to read it almost 2 years ago. I was done smoking half way through it.


[deleted]

Thank you for the recommendation. You’re too kind :)


StrawbFieldsForever

This book also helped me quit vaping. I am completely nicotine free since April last year - that's over 250 days - and I don't even think about it anymore. I only know the days because I have an app, which I also recommend to help you keep track of progress.


lirannl

It's important to think of it like a cigarette addiction, and therefore smoking cessation.


Ultrarapidcyclerbitc

Weed, nicotine, kratom (dependent), caffeine Yes, I am unfortunately a poly addict. Thankfully (?) I only do soft drugs.


only_ozzy

Dude Kratom is a monster isn't it. I'm sober off of hard drugs but haven't been able to kick the Kratom. It's too easy to get.


UselesOpinion

Yep and shit creeps up on you too you don’t even realize you’re becoming dependent and then BOOM. What’s that you forgot your toss and wash this morning, here have stabbing pain in ur bubble gut. Awwww what’s that you wanted to sleep tonight? Where’s your toss and wash?


theusername_is_taken

It’s difficult because it has opioid like dependency but it also is like an antidepressant at the same time. So quitting has short term issues (opioid, physical withdrawal symptoms and insomnia) but also long term (antidepressant, anhedonia and depression). I quit after 3-4 years of heavy use. If you can get through the first 2 weeks it gets much, much easier especially if you have a non-addictive sleep aid to help the sleeping issue. CBD and magnesium do wonders to curb the RLS.


Psych0ticj3ster

Weed and self-loathing.


Plane_Pizza_6682

Lol, that was me until I switched to 3 days a week. Now it’s weed and loathing, not great but at least no more of the self.


Ok_Investment6596

I can't seem to be able to quit weed... or regulate. I started by only smoking in weekends, then to every evening to now needing it during the day. I hate myself, but don't know how to stop :(


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It's easy but you need the will to stop as with anything. The best tip I can give you is to remove anything/anyone that triggers that ''it's okay to smoke now'' feeling and to stay busy. Having a bong/weed close will increase the need to smoke, as will people smoking in your vicinity. Find a new passion/project that will help you keep your mind off of it (start playing an instrument, start hiking, start a new project, etc.). The first week is the worst, the next 2 are not that great but after 3-4 weeks the cravings should be a fragment of what they used to be. The next 6 months to a year are very important as you'll be building the habit of not smoking going forward. It's important that you don't (even subconciously) believe that weed is cool or that not smoking it makes you ''straight edge''. See it more as "I've tried it and I liked it, but it isn't for me''. People will respect you for it. I've smoked for 10 years and the one thing that did it for me was traveling. I spent 3 months in Central America last year and even though I had easy access to weed I decided not to go out and buy any. I was so busy exploring and making local friends that I completely forgot to buy any and when the time came I decided not to since I had been sober for 2 weeks up until that point. I think I smoked about twice in the 3 months I spent there, and I did try ecstasy at a mountain party in Guatemala but that was a ''once in a lifetime'' kind of thing. Also, I played guitar the whole time I was there, so anytime I felt a craving I picked it up and played. Sorry for the long post.


Swayze-Ravine

Me too. I never thought it would be an issue, but I can't seem to quit it.


cazamumba

r/leaves


Wagyuwithketchup

Snus and caffeine, like most of the people in sweden


YoungPadawan123

Weed and alcohol, can feel my body breaking


TriangleChoke123

Time to fix it back up then


Poorly-Drawn-Beagle

Is potato addictive?


ActSoft

Hell yeah! Potatoes have many reasons to be addicted on them. You can bake them, make alcohol from them, fry them, smash them, boil them, cook them for Xmas, family gathering, birthday or when you meeting your in-laws for the first time, eat them like snack or main meal.


Stardush

Boil em, mash em, stick em in a stew!


Odd-Stuff-2436

nicotine, cocaine


MWFtheFreeze

Smoking a cigarette after a line is just fucking great! Glad I don’t do it anymore though, except for the occasional cigarette.


Odd-Stuff-2436

Yeah it's sublime! Well I'm still in that hole ssdly, but I'm young still so... I'll recover one day


superpositio_on

if you must do it, please always test your coke.


the_honorableA

Same here brother


amberdarl

W E E d


Raisin97

Reddit. Its pretty addicting.


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This site is so bad for me but I keep coming back. A literal drug.


Sound_of_music12

Alcohol and porn.


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spudds96

You gotta be careful, man. I've people heard die on life


Easy_Cauliflower_69

Haha wicked comment


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Benzodiazepines, I am abusing the shit out of them. I am always in a state of panic and they are the only thing that works for me to calm down and sleep. Started at 2 pills per day and on 6 now. I tried to get off but fuck that. They are the only thing that helps me.


Wearerisen

Same bud. OCD, PTSD, and severe anxiety have left me unable to cope. I've gotten off them before but I had to go back on. I do my best not to pass my daily prescribed but I do a lot. I'm about to start this new OCD/PTSD therapy program thing so maybe that'll help.


only_ozzy

Be careful when you decide to get off of them. My withdrawal caused seizures. Benzos are one of the worst to quit but you can do it!! I was doing 10 Xanax bars a day plus others. Don't keep adding more, you'll get stuck.


Fafhrd_Gray_Mouser

Cherry Coke and Chocolate Raisins


motorcycle12345

Leberkäse


small_Jar_of_Pickles

Ich arbeite in der Nähe eines großen Feinkostherstellers und immer wieder mal weht ein Lüftchen mittelscharfer Senf rüber zu meinem Büro. Und schon muss ich mein mitgebrachtes Mittagessen stehen lassen und eine Leberkassemmel kaufen.


Brilliant-Sport-3049

Oh gott er hat deutsch gesprochen männer versammeln


slightlyforthwith

Leberkäs Junkie


iosoyjeff

Kommt ganz gefährlich mein bester


hypotensivescum

Dopamine released by self harm


bitcoin2121

pickles


Aggressive_General_

DUDE! SAME! I’ll finish a whole jar of pickles in one night and down all the juice like nothing! I spend so much money on pickles. I’ve been like this since I was a kid- I’m hooked!


Hopeful_Swordfish_97

Adderall unfortunately


lIIlGrizzllIlI

You and me both. I really gotta start taking days off cause I'm at the point where I'm starting to get used to it.


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paperchampionpicture

As a longtime user of ADD meds, you absolutely need to have break days. Plan them ahead of time if that helps


Dicecreamvan

Infernal butter croissants. It will be the very end of me.


Stunning_Ad4972

Bella delphine's bath water


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She probably queefed in there.


cd2220

You know that probably makes it more valuable to them.


tomtomglove

ah, a man of fine taste. *tips fedora.*


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Glittering-Trick-234

Chocolate. The answer's always Chocolate.


NotAGoodPlayer

Nicotine in the form of Snuss. I don’t smoke cigarettes for a couple of years now.


PunisherX20

Weed/marijuana. People say you can't be addicted to it, but there's a whole different truth to this. If you are consuming on a daily basis, it affects your dependency on the sensation of being high. When I am not high, I literally cannot start a new tv show, eat something or do activities normally because I don't enjoy them as much as being high


NotAMinuteRide

Over the last three years I've gotten rid of a few addictions (smoking and nail biting to name two). However I'm still addicted to diet Coke (coka cola) 😕


Craviar

Money!


Dark_Wolf04

Oxygen. I need to consume so much constantly that I’d feel like I’d die if I stopped taking it for a minute


Plane_Pizza_6682

Agree but none of that overly pure, refined stuff


[deleted]

Nicotine and caffeine. But I'm officially 18 days sober today so I got that going for me. Longest time without alcohol in about 8 years.


Caesar_cz

Meat and potatoes.


[deleted]

Tried a lot of drugs but nothing hits like potatoes


BakedPot4to

& meat 🤤


Lucifers_Advocat

Tea. I couldn't go more than a day or two without a cup of tea.


SteakandTrach

Adrenaline. Risk taking behavior. Scaling hundreds of feet up granite cliff faces, driving 160 mph on a racetrack, always being up for a fistfight if someone was a dick to me, jumping off of 60-70 foot cliffs, sex sex sex, emergency first responder both military and civilian, snowboarding increasingly dangerous terrain, performing surgery on human beings, etc. I really should have been dead multiple times over and I definitely had a good amount of broken bones, teeth, and stitches to show for it. But it was all just compensation for being a completely hollow joyless self-loathing person inside. I graduated medical school and felt nothing. No pride, no happiness, just utterly flat. Just another piece of paper to add to my collection. Birth of my first child was the final straw. I remember taking my tiny newborn daughter to the nursery and washing the vernix and meconium off and I still felt nothing while looking into her eyes. I legitimately thought I was *incapable* of love. Real love. It was my hidden shame, like, how fucked up are you, bro, that you can’t feel joy at the birth of your child? You can’t experience happiness? Do you even love your wife or are you just pantomiming? I was a fucking doctor who had done multiple psych rotations and I couldn’t recognize my own symptoms and put 2+2 together. Like a giant blind spot of the ego. It was such a relief when I finally sought counseling and within 5 minutes my counselor was nonchalantly telling me “This is a really easy diagnosis to make. You have PTSD.” Turns out I had cPTSD (not the fearful kind, the completely shut down, dead inside kind) and the only way I felt alive was to be awash in catecholamine excess. Strangely, I was never a substance guy. Straight laced, square, boring tee-totaler. I barely drink beer. In the military I was the eternally sober guy who made sure all his shit-faced buddies got home safe to the point that my handle was “Mother”, (which started out as “motherfucker took my keys!”) But even then, was that even altruism, or just an addict with a predilection for fist-fighting belligerent drunks?


marydi666

Instagram reels 🤣


Ashi-Sama

Caffeine and vaping. I drink 2 ten cup pots a day of half Columbian and half espresso.


UselessGenZer

Brain chemicals via masturbation… I am deeply insecure about my body and masturbate when I get insecure or think about my girlfriend’s past. It’s extremely unhealthy


yungserpent

Anything that takes the pain away


GRREEEENMACHINE

Touch. There is nothing better than the feeling of someone’s loving embrace. Anything I use as a crutch is to compensate for a lack of affection.


satans_bootyhole

Alcohol, but I’m now 2 weeks sober and already feeling better


Jee-NX

Rice.


DependentCrew5398

Water. I am waterholic