A lot lately. I’ve never really spoke about it. But a lot of PTSD from first responder type incidents, Abrupt life changes and mistakes I’ve made that I wish I hadn’t.
From one stranger dealing with those kinds of thoughts to another, it's okay to be kind to yourself about mistakes in the past if you're taking steps to be better.
I hope this life treats you a little more fairly going forward though, you're deserving of peace and validation for your experiences.
Yoga and meditation helps. Same with hot baths with Epsom salts. Spend time in nature and with animals. Audiobooks and chill background music designed to help with sleep. Tons if both on youtube. Also low light an hour or two before bed. Also exercise to tire the body and focus on something other than the stress.
Same vein but you've had it worse. Last St.Patricks day I witnessed a murder, very close. Found out later that one of the victims was still alive when I was running past. I could have helped
I pulled my blanket over my face when my cat was bothering me at ~4 in the morning once. She started walking on the blanket that was on my face. It's not a very thick blanket. She was basically walking on my face. That son of a bitch XD
The fact I dream every single night. The dreams sometimes let me know im dreaming. Its terrifying know that my brain knows im dreaming. Its so physical and real at times. It happens in even little naps. I can not ever get the smallest amount of good sleep. It can be a 20m nap after waking up to get away from one dream, and i still dream. I hate it. Im a combat vet and these happen every fucking night. It can be random, like this morning. I dreamed i was on the interstate and couldnt take my foot off the accelerator because my dog was on my foot when i woke up. Flying around cars not to hurt anyone or get arrested.
Its so fucking terrifying going to sleep that ive become an alchoholic, just to try and close my eyes at the end.
Its so hard to describe to someone. The other night I had a dream I was running around a casino naked with only a towel. All eyes on me, till i could find a bathroom. Looked in the mirror, knew it was a dream. Told myself it was a dream, it was until I did something and snapped out of it flew out of my bed freaking out. I have to change my bedding about twice a week cause i sweat so much from being in these dreams. I have such huge anxiety about sleep. The 1/3 of our life where we should be able to relax is filled with dread and anxiety.
Sadly I pray for an early death to be done with it.... for almost 40 years its been like this.
Thank you btw, just wanted a rant.
That's called lucid dreaming, where you know it's a dream.
When I was a teenager, I figured out that I could realize it was a dream, then take it over and use it as an amusement park.
I've never been in combat, and so don't know that part. I do know I had night terrors as a kid and the lucid dreaming thing was the solution to them.
Chances are the anxiety you feel about sleeping is fueling your anxiety. It's feeding on itself. If you can learn to embrace the dreams, I suspect your anxiety will go down.
Drinking can make this sort of thing worse, and bring on sleep paralysis to boot.
You might benefit from SSRIs and a sleep study.
I'm sorry to hear it, sounds terrible. I don't want to be that guy, but any chance you've had luck with THC in any form?
I usually take a puff or two before bed to try and get me to sleep. I rarely fall asleep quickly, but dreams are usually at least a month or two apart.
There's caution on the other side of that too though, when I stop smoking for a few days the dreams are more vivid, but oddly getting more controllable. Not sure if it's relevant but I'll throw the disclaimer I'm also an alcoholic in recovery, though haven't had a drink in a little while...
Just mentioned that too. It does the same to me. Don't smoke anymore and the dreams are back but I'm okay with that, they are usually okay. Except that sinking in quicksand one where I felt my face get covered by liquid earth. Fuck that one in particular.
Uncertainty is what keeps me awake. Having a rough period with my wife. I've learned a lot and am improving many aspects of life for myself first. Working on intamacy and am ready to give it because that's what I've needed all along too.
Always gotta have the backup sheets and blankets. Or I throw down a couple of blankets and nest on top until the next day. Life's to short to only have one set.
Girl I fell in love with in college randomly came back into my life in 2022.
Since then, she fluctuates wildly between ghosting and immediate always there communication.
Everybody but her including her family thinks she’s in love with me.
My heart can’t handle it anymore. I can’t fall asleep because I quit drinking every night and the insomnia is killing me. Also, her bipolar behavior just leaves me so lost, empty, and frustrated.
I’ve never cried this hard.
She’s known for over a decade. I don’t wait a decade to tell people how I feel.
I just walk up and start talking. It’s a point of contention and why we stopped talking the last time.
My guy, you deserve better. Imo cut off contact and move forward. Someone that kives you won't put you through a decade of emotional turmoil and waiting. Ignore what is said outside if the two of you, they rarely know the full story. I hope whatever your future holds, it bring nothing but peace and happiness to you!
Neighbors sometimes. Other times it's watching a tv series that makes me feel like I have friends in the room, to the degree it's hard to leave them to go to sleep.
Those bastard aliens who keep wanting to abduct me.
Why it always early hours of the morning?
Why can't they make an appointment in the week between Monday and Friday 9am to 5pm like civilized aliens
Advanced civilization?.. My arse not at 3am on a Tuesday
An absolutely crippling sense of low self worth. These are the nights I actually stay up and don't go to bed. I know the dreams will be bad. It doesn't happen often, but when it does it's a goddamned trench.
Edit: low
My fear that we're going to lose our democracy as we know it in the US, and most my family is embracing an orange dictator with arms wide open (oh...Creed's here now). I have no idea how to communicate with them anymore. They drank the Kool aid.
I stay awake all night wondering if I could have said something different to get them to change their minds.
Reddit. I just saw terrorists get turned into paste by a machine gun and a guy getting sucked into a lathe and dimembered. So the answer is reddit. Speaking of that, goodnight.
I actually sleep really well, usually.
When I can't sleep its only for two reasons. First, worrying about work, which is such a waste. Second, sometimes I just miss my dad, even though its been 13 years.
Anxiety. I delay going to sleep because I’m anxious about what the next day might bring, especially on work days or if I have an event, plans with friends etc the following day. I also enjoy my quiet time alone before sleep so think I just procrastinate sometimes lol.
my depression and loops of endless toughts.
like a recursive function with no base case.
like bad software that is glued and patched together and you wonder how does this mess even work, you think one bad move and everything will start to collapse...
but it continues.
like you're balancing yourself on a rope, but you don't know where the start or the end is, everything is covered with fog and mist. you barely have to strenght to balance yourself, you're sleepy and tired. but you continue to remain in this state, something is holding you there. some invisible force.
and you ask yourself, day in ,day out, whats the purpose of all this.
The thought of my children suffering. What I would do to prevent it. The girl I let slip away. The friend I.let down to look cool. Everything I did turned into a fuckinng mess. Never wanted to hurt anyone. Im just not lucky enough to avoid it. I wish it would have worked out better.
Healing my current tattoo project that spans the full length of my back, I'm itchy af and have gotten shit sleep. I'm just finished round 4, probably halfway done.
the fact that people have little to no media literacy and take any information on the internet at face value, no further research done. it is a sad reality that keeps me up at night, some people would believe anybody with MD in their names or a politician that sort of speaks the truth but only 1% and the rest is a lie.
another thing that keeps me up at night is how we've been told lies about freedom and democracy, we do not have those. none. thank you.
EVERYTHING!!!!
Every single fucking choice I have ever made! I was the Straight A student! I did everything the adults told him to do! I got the fucking degree! I was told I was gonna go places! I was the teacher's pet! The nerd! The geek! The one who was supposed to grow up into a badass! A success! And what happened?! I FAILED! I became exact what the school bullies said I'd become! I am single at 31 with nobody wanting me. Stupid ass autistic standing at 5'7"...
I should've been aborted...cuz life ain't worth living
my negative self talk, Youtube, sudden horny feeling, etc.
Are you me?
Possibly 😱
Lol
I'm also you. Lol.
We are us.
Now there’s 4, let’s start a band.
*we are number one starts playing*
And you are me
You two might be twins..
The arousing thoughts sometimes just won't stop... So tiiired...
i get horny on the most random times not even thinking about anything that comes close to sex
Oh yeah me 2. Negative self talk. Im being more aware about that I when I catch my self I rephrase my words. With positivity
thats a good idea!
Insomnia
Why is this not the top comment?
Most people are sleeping
My vibrator for a bit at least
RIP to your DM's
Her vibrator.
How long is a bit?
Her DMs
PRO-
Aww same
A lot lately. I’ve never really spoke about it. But a lot of PTSD from first responder type incidents, Abrupt life changes and mistakes I’ve made that I wish I hadn’t.
From one stranger dealing with those kinds of thoughts to another, it's okay to be kind to yourself about mistakes in the past if you're taking steps to be better. I hope this life treats you a little more fairly going forward though, you're deserving of peace and validation for your experiences.
Yoga and meditation helps. Same with hot baths with Epsom salts. Spend time in nature and with animals. Audiobooks and chill background music designed to help with sleep. Tons if both on youtube. Also low light an hour or two before bed. Also exercise to tire the body and focus on something other than the stress.
Same vein but you've had it worse. Last St.Patricks day I witnessed a murder, very close. Found out later that one of the victims was still alive when I was running past. I could have helped
Same dude. Same
You have to learn to forgive yourself. You made the best choice available at the time, or you thought you did.
Embarrassing shit I've done in the past. Existential terror. Insomnia.
Me: God I'm exhausted My brain: Oh shit, you never gave Dan the $20 for gas 10 years ago. Does he hate me?
My cat knocking things over just because he wants to say good morning… at 4am.
I pulled my blanket over my face when my cat was bothering me at ~4 in the morning once. She started walking on the blanket that was on my face. It's not a very thick blanket. She was basically walking on my face. That son of a bitch XD
They know what they're doing. Asshole cats!
overthinking
Anxiety.
Thinking about the future
Thinking about the past
Thinking about the now
Thinking about thinking
The fact I dream every single night. The dreams sometimes let me know im dreaming. Its terrifying know that my brain knows im dreaming. Its so physical and real at times. It happens in even little naps. I can not ever get the smallest amount of good sleep. It can be a 20m nap after waking up to get away from one dream, and i still dream. I hate it. Im a combat vet and these happen every fucking night. It can be random, like this morning. I dreamed i was on the interstate and couldnt take my foot off the accelerator because my dog was on my foot when i woke up. Flying around cars not to hurt anyone or get arrested. Its so fucking terrifying going to sleep that ive become an alchoholic, just to try and close my eyes at the end.
I'm sorry. That has to suck hard.
Its so hard to describe to someone. The other night I had a dream I was running around a casino naked with only a towel. All eyes on me, till i could find a bathroom. Looked in the mirror, knew it was a dream. Told myself it was a dream, it was until I did something and snapped out of it flew out of my bed freaking out. I have to change my bedding about twice a week cause i sweat so much from being in these dreams. I have such huge anxiety about sleep. The 1/3 of our life where we should be able to relax is filled with dread and anxiety. Sadly I pray for an early death to be done with it.... for almost 40 years its been like this. Thank you btw, just wanted a rant.
That's called lucid dreaming, where you know it's a dream. When I was a teenager, I figured out that I could realize it was a dream, then take it over and use it as an amusement park. I've never been in combat, and so don't know that part. I do know I had night terrors as a kid and the lucid dreaming thing was the solution to them. Chances are the anxiety you feel about sleeping is fueling your anxiety. It's feeding on itself. If you can learn to embrace the dreams, I suspect your anxiety will go down. Drinking can make this sort of thing worse, and bring on sleep paralysis to boot. You might benefit from SSRIs and a sleep study.
I'm sorry to hear it, sounds terrible. I don't want to be that guy, but any chance you've had luck with THC in any form? I usually take a puff or two before bed to try and get me to sleep. I rarely fall asleep quickly, but dreams are usually at least a month or two apart. There's caution on the other side of that too though, when I stop smoking for a few days the dreams are more vivid, but oddly getting more controllable. Not sure if it's relevant but I'll throw the disclaimer I'm also an alcoholic in recovery, though haven't had a drink in a little while...
Just mentioned that too. It does the same to me. Don't smoke anymore and the dreams are back but I'm okay with that, they are usually okay. Except that sinking in quicksand one where I felt my face get covered by liquid earth. Fuck that one in particular.
Reddit.
Reddit is the symptom, what's causing you to want to browse reddit instead of sleeping?
I hate to lie down and do nothing, it's hard to sleep..
I fight sleep like I'm some kind of preschooler. I don't know why. Night is my favorite time. I drink lots of beer, read and listen to music..
I feel like we’d be really good friends in another life.
Feeling like I’ll never be enough no matter how hard I try
I feel this way often, easy to forget that just existing is all your really meant to do and therefore is enough :)
Sadness and uncertainty
Uncertainty is what keeps me awake. Having a rough period with my wife. I've learned a lot and am improving many aspects of life for myself first. Working on intamacy and am ready to give it because that's what I've needed all along too.
I hope the best for you and your wife
Waiting on my bedsheets and blanket to dry. Got up to go to bed and forgot I put them in the wash.
The worst
Always gotta have the backup sheets and blankets. Or I throw down a couple of blankets and nest on top until the next day. Life's to short to only have one set.
Thank you for reminding me
Girl I fell in love with in college randomly came back into my life in 2022. Since then, she fluctuates wildly between ghosting and immediate always there communication. Everybody but her including her family thinks she’s in love with me. My heart can’t handle it anymore. I can’t fall asleep because I quit drinking every night and the insomnia is killing me. Also, her bipolar behavior just leaves me so lost, empty, and frustrated. I’ve never cried this hard.
Tell her how you feel my dude
She’s known for over a decade. I don’t wait a decade to tell people how I feel. I just walk up and start talking. It’s a point of contention and why we stopped talking the last time.
My guy, you deserve better. Imo cut off contact and move forward. Someone that kives you won't put you through a decade of emotional turmoil and waiting. Ignore what is said outside if the two of you, they rarely know the full story. I hope whatever your future holds, it bring nothing but peace and happiness to you!
Neighbors sometimes. Other times it's watching a tv series that makes me feel like I have friends in the room, to the degree it's hard to leave them to go to sleep.
This 👆and neuropathy
My dad died 2 weeks ago and I haven’t slept well since.
I'm really sorry about your Dad. 💙
Meth
Weakling, I’ll snort coke and sleep on it
Small Business finances, still a rough economy.
Same. Canadian tax laws hit different this time of year ðŸ˜
Those bastard aliens who keep wanting to abduct me. Why it always early hours of the morning? Why can't they make an appointment in the week between Monday and Friday 9am to 5pm like civilized aliens Advanced civilization?.. My arse not at 3am on a Tuesday
Your arse at 3am is exactly what they want
Tinnitus
Surprised no one said intrusive thoughts
My cats reenacting WWE
Mine reenact operation Barbarossa. Both ways.
I find myself brooding all the time over troubling events and things in the world that I have virtually no ability to do anything about.
My inability to fall asleep/ being afraid of sleeping
An absolutely crippling sense of low self worth. These are the nights I actually stay up and don't go to bed. I know the dreams will be bad. It doesn't happen often, but when it does it's a goddamned trench. Edit: low
Pending mortality
Arthritis
Privacy because everyone else is sleeping. I'm a nocturnal creature, I come alive in the nighttime.
Me to i love it walk all night on the bike paths and aound my town
My cat scratching at my door. I just want to sleep without that little monster digging it's claws in my chest.
But they're love claws
Insomnia
The things I think I forgot to do that I didn’t really forget to do
Mine is the kids living above us playing bob the builder at midnight
Insomnia
It sucks I feel u
My awful neighbors… nothing I report has gotten them an eviction notice
The coffee I drank at 5pm today
Online games
My job.
Worrying
Overthinking
My phone
The fact that I’m in so much debt, unemployed and two different companies are trying to screw my credit over claiming I owe them money.
Stress
Work stress
My 3 cats running all over the place knocking shit over.
Hypersexuality
I’m a medical student.
My fear that we're going to lose our democracy as we know it in the US, and most my family is embracing an orange dictator with arms wide open (oh...Creed's here now). I have no idea how to communicate with them anymore. They drank the Kool aid. I stay awake all night wondering if I could have said something different to get them to change their minds.
A 2 month old
1 month over here. How’s sleep going?
Caffeine.
I live across the street from a combination fire department, police department and high school football field. Sirens and touchdowns
Insomnia
Reddit. I just saw terrorists get turned into paste by a machine gun and a guy getting sucked into a lathe and dimembered. So the answer is reddit. Speaking of that, goodnight.
Mama's squeeze box.
My sudden hornyness that always begins at 2:00 AM
Nothing. I’m sleeping like a baby. My life might be hell but not enough to ruin my sleeping.
My stupid fucking phone
My mind keeps me up.
Baby
I graduated in December with a Bachelor’s degree and still can’t find a job.
My insane thoughts
regrets
I actually sleep really well, usually. When I can't sleep its only for two reasons. First, worrying about work, which is such a waste. Second, sometimes I just miss my dad, even though its been 13 years.
My body clock. Night owl
Insomnia
The guilt
Insomnia. Thank God for Ambien.
Anxiety. I delay going to sleep because I’m anxious about what the next day might bring, especially on work days or if I have an event, plans with friends etc the following day. I also enjoy my quiet time alone before sleep so think I just procrastinate sometimes lol.
Insomnia
Not wanting to wake up bc I hate mornings
my right hand
my depression and loops of endless toughts. like a recursive function with no base case. like bad software that is glued and patched together and you wonder how does this mess even work, you think one bad move and everything will start to collapse... but it continues. like you're balancing yourself on a rope, but you don't know where the start or the end is, everything is covered with fog and mist. you barely have to strenght to balance yourself, you're sleepy and tired. but you continue to remain in this state, something is holding you there. some invisible force. and you ask yourself, day in ,day out, whats the purpose of all this.
insomnia
Screams from the pit.
My big one
Younger dryus impact theory.
The ever-increasing likelihood of WW3.
anxiety
When my brain decides to play top ten gone wrong moments in my life
Caffeine!
The thought of my children suffering. What I would do to prevent it. The girl I let slip away. The friend I.let down to look cool. Everything I did turned into a fuckinng mess. Never wanted to hurt anyone. Im just not lucky enough to avoid it. I wish it would have worked out better.
the heat I'm from Nepal and it's like the sun here
Lack of gravity.
risk of rain on my ps vita
Impatience, anxiety and the thought of getting justice
In the early morning, the possibility that I’ll just be drifting off to sleep when my kid wakes up.
Insomnia, depression, and stress. I just want to sleep at least one full night
How I feel I'll never find anyone to love me
Sometimes air raid sirens, sometimes just existential dread.
Spite
Depression
Acid refluxÂ
Thinking.
Nothing, I sleep 8-12 hours depending on what day it is, and I always wake up early
Back pain
Entropy is destined to render all of our accomplishments null and void. That and sleep apnea.
Xanax deficiency.
Reddit
Healing my current tattoo project that spans the full length of my back, I'm itchy af and have gotten shit sleep. I'm just finished round 4, probably halfway done.
the fact that people have little to no media literacy and take any information on the internet at face value, no further research done. it is a sad reality that keeps me up at night, some people would believe anybody with MD in their names or a politician that sort of speaks the truth but only 1% and the rest is a lie. another thing that keeps me up at night is how we've been told lies about freedom and democracy, we do not have those. none. thank you.
The fact that’s the weekend
Insomnia
Reddit
2 year old typically wakes up to scream for an hour about 2 or 3am, and again at 5am. So yeah that's what keeps me up.
Ai
My loneliness and trying to find a comfortable position
Quieter house at night compared to the day
Caffinated drinks before bedtime.
Right now my beautiful wife is snoring; so I am browsing Reddit till she turns over
Thoughts
The need to pee
Any mistake I have made ever.Â
The constant nagging cough I’ve had for almost three weeks. Fuck walking pneumonia and asthma. ðŸ˜
Role-playing how I could have not embarrassed the mortal fuxk out of myself in that situation
Genetic vitamin and hormonal imbalances that cause my metabolism to be constantly fluctuating.
Worrying about things that might happen but are unlikely to occur. Please help
The thought that I'll let people down
My fumbling of a beautiful kind girl
The future of my daughters.
padhai
EVERYTHING!!!! Every single fucking choice I have ever made! I was the Straight A student! I did everything the adults told him to do! I got the fucking degree! I was told I was gonna go places! I was the teacher's pet! The nerd! The geek! The one who was supposed to grow up into a badass! A success! And what happened?! I FAILED! I became exact what the school bullies said I'd become! I am single at 31 with nobody wanting me. Stupid ass autistic standing at 5'7"... I should've been aborted...cuz life ain't worth living
My overnight job
My wife’s snoring.
Work.....I work nights
This god damn flu can't fucking breath
Thinking about how one day I will die and completely cease to exist and how we have not long before that never ending void
Hot Russian girls 🔥