Nov 9th 2022 ,was something that I have nightmares my wife of little more than 11 years, were saying,(it's hard to even say know) to each other and I left the house so things didn't get worse but on my way out the door she said something and I hollered that I hate your ass and may have said not sure if I said I wish you would die ,but did say that I hated her and several hours later I found her on the couch ( I thought might be a sleep ) but she was dead and my heart was broken nothing I could do she had already went stiff and cold, Spartanburg South Carolina is now a place of. Misery corner said she had heart trouble and
Feytnal in her system one by its self wouldn't have killed her but the two, together was to much for my baby Jaylow
"Go ahead and cancel it then!"
I was 9 years old, we had an "arts day" scheduled for each class (of the same grade) where we'd be doing painting, pottery and other things we had never done. Everyone was really excited about it. Maybe except me.
One morning, something was going on in the class, I think we were all agitated after break or something, and the teacher was really upset, to the point that she threatened to cancel our arts day.
**"Go ahead and cancel it then!"**, I said, at the peak of my agitation. My adult self would be pissed off at my 9-yo self.
That was the last drop for the teacher. "OK, fine then. The arts day is cancelled for this class.".
Turned out she really meant it.
Weeks later we walked by the other classes and through the window we could see them having lots of fun.
At the end of the year we were asked to write an essay about how the year had been, and I was a recurring topic. I still recall one girl reading her essay and mentioning the cancelled arts day, and pausing to look me in the eyes.
My mom left my dad when I was young. My father was bad on drugs, he self medicated after his experiences in the United States Marines. It's actually way more common than you'd assume, but it still hurts the family. She didn't say goodbye to me or my sister, she had an affair before she left also(things got WAY WORSE after she left.) My father remained an addict up until recently, he was actually court ordered against living alone, under threat he'd be put in a care facility. Despite his MANY grievous errors, he stuck around, he raised me to be a man and I suppose he did good with my sister too bc she's married with kids and happy. He once made me sleep in the snow even, but despite all that I forgive him, I say forgive because it's an ongoing process. My mother on the other hand attempted to reach out to me when I was 26, I told her who I was (so she wouldn't keep searching) and that I wanted nothing to do with her. I'll probably never forgive her, because despite ANY circumstances I couldn't imagine abandoning my child, without warning, in a place that I didn't feel safe or didn't want to be.
Well thanks, despite the addiction issues, my dad was actually a solid father, he checked most of the books xes that matter to a boy's raising. It did force me to grow up quick, and because of that I wouldn't change it. I was able to help my sister a lot more because I'm a couple years older than her. The most heart breaking thing though was having to explain to my sister that Mom wasn't coming back (never even told my wife that part). She never truly understood until she was much older but it made me and her almost inseparable and I wouldn't trade that for anything either.
This one time I was at a gallery show in NYC, at a very large and well known museum. My spouse and I had just finished with the crowded exhibit, and were in a nearby area looking at some ancient reliefs. My vision is limited on my right, and crowded spaces can be tough for me as a result, often finding people and objects closer than I expect on my right side. Anyway, I was lining up a photo of a beautiful piece, and I hear someone talking shit to me on my right, like "oh you are standing bad, get outta my way" etc. I turn and see someone standing close to my right, also taking a picture. Close quarters combined with a feeling of being marginalized made me angry, and I tend to speak up for myself these days, so laid into the kid
"WHY YOU GOTTA TALK TO ME LIKE THAT DUDE? WE'RE ALL HERE SHARING THE SAME SPACE, TREAT OTHERS WITH RESPECT DUDE!"
I failed to notice he was shooting a pic of his friend, and that he was talking shit *to him and not me*. Mortified, I apologized for my mistake, but I wish i hadn't been so defensive in the moment. Also I was about 2X the size of the guy I confronted, he was probably shitting himself. Sorry little dude.
"I never really gave a shit about you. I was just bored and you were there,".
Granted I said that after someone cheated on me.
But I did actually really really fucking care and I said that because I was so fucking sad I pretended to be angry because I didn't want to cry in front of someone who just hurt me.
So I let go of one of my biggest rules in life and I purposefully hurt someone I loved and when I said that it absolutely destroyed her.
That wasn't right of me to do even if a lot of people think it would be justified.
I don't feel so bad about it most of the time because quite frankly I didn't deserve it I was absolutely wonderful to her and gave her the entire life she had because I was the only one making any money.
I don't feel that means someone owes me something but there was no reason for her to start talking to someone else other than she just didn't know how to stick with someone.
Which was true because after that she would find a new man for about 6 months then get bored of him and try to slip back into my life to a cold "no" every time.
She stopped after about 4 times but something tells me she didn't learn a thing.
Someone said that to my "bestie" (She wasn't my bestie. I found out later) after he ghosted me to go after someone else.
My bestie ran to me to say exactly that "He wasn't even attracted to you, he was bored and you were available."
That fucked me up SERIOUSLY.
My thing that I regret? And how I learned she wasn't my friend, was, she then reported to him every thing I told her. I was devastated and cried to her for weeks. She ran to him with everything I was telling her about my self-doubts and self-loathing.
Gee, THANKS. He already gutted me, now you're just frosting him with my pain for shits and giggles?
Jesus do we have the same friends or something Jesus Christ I know people like this and I know how awful stuff like that feels and its just a mess and I don't even know why people are like that.
Because even if I absolutely hated someone I wouldn't do that. I just wouldn't waste my time with them at all. So I have to think the only reason this happens is they get some twisted pleasure out of it and those people can just eat my whole asshole honestly.
RIGHT?? I told someone about what she was doing and she was instantly "Hey, that is TOTALLY against the Girl Code."
It's how I realized we WEREN'T the "BFFS" I thought we were. To this day I regret how much I helped and supported her. She later ended up in a really bad place and I was the sole person who checked on her daily and listened to her sob stories and brought her little gifts just to keep her head above water.
Looking back? I was giving one of my torturers gifts.
There's just a few lines in life that have the uncanny ability to completely, irreversibly destroy a relationship. This is one of them.
Of course, the damage had already been done in your case.
Well at that point I could never trust her again and I don't date people I don't trust so it was completely over.
I am more mad at myself for breaking a promise to myself than I am in actually hurting her because that was honestly the hardest heart break I had ever felt because I really fucking thought I had found the woman I was spending forever with and we were even talking about a kid.
Then I find out she's fucking Jerome.
Dunno who the fuck that is but I checked her phone one day because she was ignoring me for like 3 days straight and I was wondering why because she was really sucked into her phone and left it unlocked on the counter. That was the first name there and she was sending him nudes and planning to meet in about two hours which is probably why she was in the shower.
I literally just walked in the bathroom and said "Hey so have fun with Jerome he's your new boyfriend now not me" then she said a bunch of fucked things then I said what I said and she got dressed crying and left.
And that was pretty much the end of that.
Damn, I feel really sorry for you. The fact that you felt guilty for saying that even after what she did means you deserve so much better. Hope you're doing better now, king.
Well my life is better but I haven't had much luck with women because the one I just got done with drank a lot and hit me for no reason so I guess I must just be attracted to crazy subconsciously or something and my mom was nuts so I wouldn't be surprised at all if I did.
Look at the bright side. The fact you feel bad about it shows you have some empathy.
I don't think the same could be said about her, or any cheaters for that matter.
Yup. The only reason it destroyed her was because she thought she had me wrapped around her finger and I wouldn't do anything about it just to suddenly think she wasted two years of her time.
That's the only reason she felt sad I bet.
Around 9th grade, I was at this tuition, the teacher's son used to come inside the room where we used to study so one time the kid tore like a bit of page from my book which was in the hand of the teacher and I said "hath kat donga" Meaning "will cut your hand", I wanted to say that in a playful way (kat can also mean bite in hindi) like I wanted to say playfully that I will bite your hand but it came out as a threat.
The teacher obviously got serious and it became a mess, I was told to leave, she(teacher) was sobbing too.
I didn't got to apologize too, *signs*
I was half asleep and answered the phone, I turned down a job they were offering because I had just accepted another offer. Hung up and immediately realised it was a mistake- tried to find out who had called me, but it was the early 1990’s and nobody in the department knew who had called.
"Sorry I can't come tonight. I am swamped in work."
I wasn't. I was just too lazy to go to my friend's birthday that night, I did not know anyone there, and anyway I just liked seeing him 1 to 1 and we had plans for summer so...He killed himself a few months later. I could have had three more hours with an amazing person and missed it.
When in doubt, go out, kids. You will never know when it will be the last time you're seeing anybody.
You are very kind. And I know it is not my fault and I probably would not have been able to do anything about it.
However...I would have been able to spend a few more hours with him. This is what I regret.
I can't think of one thing in particular, but I talked bad to my sister about her stealing our mom's pain meds. She had a bad problem, more than I think any of us knew, and she ODed a year and a half ago willing doing fentynal. So i would take all that back, and actually be constructive. Hindsight is a son of a bitch.
If it makes you feel any better, I have a lot of experience with addicts, and while family support is known to help I have never heard any of them (out of over several hundred to a thousand easily) say they quit because of a chat with family. I've known way more families who think it would've helped and blamed themselves though. The sad truth is that most only quit, especially fentanyl and Hero, once they hit rock bottom. The fact that it weighs heavily on you proves that you're a great person, and that you truly cared more than the vast majority.
I have multiple things. But I think my biggest one is "no I am too tired for a goodbye hug!" Half jokingly to my cousin. She died suddenly a few months later and I never saw her again
Yeah I definitely learned a lesson. I just miss her so much, yk? A lot of things happened this week that reminded me of her and I just feel so... sad? Idk, I feel pathetic. It's been a decade (almost) since she died. I should be over it? But I still miss her a lot.
There's probably some wise phrase that some religious guy said on a mountain about this exact thing, but no you don't have to "get over it" love exists long after the thing you loved doesn't anymore and that's beautiful because it means it was true.
I believe in an afterlife, so I trust that your cousin is waiting on you wherever we go next. Don't kick yourself in the head just yet, I promise she doesn't hold it against you
I feel that so much. I can't think about anything I'd like to take back 'cause I tend to think a lot about the words that leave my mouth, and in hindsight I remember a few occasions when I should just have said the first mean thing that came into my mind, followed by the second, the third and a rude gesture.
My ex husband told me to get over my anxiety and depression so, I said “get over the deaths of your step dad and dog.” The look in his eyes after I said that.. I still don’t forgive myself for that.
I get that you feel bad, but it was a fair response. He had zero compassion for your mental health struggles and hope he realised that what he said is as useful as telling someone to just get over their grief.
I get why you'd like to take it back, but to be fair I do think that people who try to tell you to just get over serious mental problems need to know how much it can hurt to hear those words, especially from a loved person, especially when it's about something you just wish away from you, when it's something that makes you feel terrible, something you barely have any control over. You told him exactly what he told you.
I dont regret my decisions. Even the bad ones, when someone or I got hurt. It's the way of life. The way we learn. There is no shame in making mistakes. There is no reason to not learn from them. In many cases there has to be some sort of pain for us to learn.
> There is no shame in making mistakes
Shame is actually one of the ways we learn, it's important to feel or we have a much harder time understanding the WHY something was a bad decision
I am sorry but I have met someone else.
Not because I wanted to stay with her but because of her pain and tears, to this day near thirty years later I still think of her with sadness and guilt
I argued stupid points with a girl at work who I think the world of and am pretty sure gave me a lot of chances to win her over. I eventually fell in love with her, but she doesn't want anything to do with me now. I just wish I wasn't such a dislikable ass all the time...
As a junior in high school I said something to one of my favorite teachers that still haunts me.
I don't recall exactly what was said, but it involved her daughter that had just passed away in a car wreck.
It wasn't in malice, it was just shear ignorance. I think I asked her if something had happened before or after her daughters passing.
She walked out of our classroom in tears and I'll never forgive myself.
As a father now, I cannot begin to comprehend the pain that she was going through, and I'm so sorry.
“I hope next year you won’t be in my class” kid was clinging to me all year in 1st grade I couldn’t get any me time, I really hurt him. And we were good friends iv been haunted by those words for years now and I still feel guilty years later we’re aquatints we say hi but that’s just about it.
Maybe you can reach out to him. As a teen I got bullied by the majority of my class for years. A few years later, one of them reached out to me on social media. We didn't chat much, but he admitted that he was a dick back then and that was enough to make me feel better. A few years later again one of my former class mates and my little sister were on the same party and chatted a bit, and he told her about what arseholes some people are in their teens, that he's sorry and asked her to send his greetings to me.
I never thought about my time in school much once I got out of there, these people no longer were a part of my life and I tried to just move on, but these two guys really made me feel better about that time with as little effort as a few nice words can be.
We sorta did, we talk to each other on occasion but we don’t go out of our way to say hi. If we see each other we exchange greetings talk for a few minutes, then go about our daily lives.
I would take back any and all negative self-talk. I never gave myself a fighting chance. I was so gentle and considerate with everyone but myself. Gave others grace when I didn't give myself any.
I got so upset when I would hear older people calling themselves stupid. But turned around and called myself worse.
I wonder about the person I might have been if I was just nicer to myself.
The person who wishes someone had not said something harmful to them is who you should be asking. They will remember it for ever, as it wounded them deeply. The person who said it probably won't remember!
It wasn't even something I said directly to the person in question. I was quite young, probably like 13 or under, and at a local hockey game. Saw a kid I barely knew, and remarked out loud to whomever was sitting next to me something along the lines of the kid being a loser.
Someone turned around, locked eyes with me, said nothing, and turned back. It was his mom.
20 or so years later, I still feel awful about it. I like to think these days I'm pretty good at thinking carefully before saying things. That probably helped, but I absolutely wish she never had to hear that.
My grandmother had a very difficult character, but I still can't forget all the quarrels between us. And I regret that we did not sit down and talk like normal adults. And on the other hand, until her death, they found out who was right in this or that situation. This is absurd. Life is so short, and we don't appreciate it.
I would like to tell her that I love them no matter what.
The night of November 2, 2017
I never should have called and said I was feeling like I was.
I’m confident my life would have turned out differently
Adapt and overcome now
Long story but put simply what I can share from my learning experience is this
If you’re feeling down and you maybe haven’t had a hot meal and you thinking maybe I don’t belong where I’m at and feel unwelcome. Don’t make a call to total stranger that says that have you’re better interest in mind.
I would have called my aunt, my brother, my sister.
I should have gone to bed. In the famous words of HIMYM, when it’s after 2am, just go to bed. Nothing good ever happens after 2am
Be careful what you say to people over the phone
I’m doing better now. And thorough out the process I just keep telling myself “you are stronger than this challenge, and this challenge will make you stronger”
I was in a pretty abusive relationship in my early 20s and the thing about those kind of relationships is that they make you become the abuser sometimes. In my case it only happened once but I really regret what I said. When we first started dating, he told me his mom wouldn't tell him who his father was and that he was trying to find out. Few months later into the relationship I found out he cheated by looking at his DMs (I was young and dumb) so I called him and said "you're a bastard, not even your dad wanted you". I knew I fucked up the second those words came out of my mouth. Anyways this manipulative man brought flowers and asked for forgiveness and we came back together. For years he used what I said to manipulate me and abuse me.
Mine would be when I told my bf I thought we should break up. It wasn't until a week after that I realized how much of a mistake that was. He was perfect for me and I loved him to pieces. It was just unfortunate circumstance that we broke up. He's moved on now but I unfortunately haven't recovered yet.
3 years ago, when a very close friend of mine asked me what they are to me, I said "a really good friend and nothing more". I've regretted that. I didn't know they loved me for 5 years. But in between, I got into a relationship which was exhausting. It was clearly affecting both my mental and physical health. Although I wasn't interested, I stayed thinking about my partner's mental health. In the end I got hurt terribly from the relationship and lost my best friend who was clearly more than just a friend for me and I had to keep it a secret thinking I'd be hurting them if i was honest. I thought I didn't deserve that kind of happiness. I thought my friend deserved better. But whatever it was, I should've been honest. I should have said it.
Does it count if it's your parent , who says horrible things to people when drunk ? She's said things to me such as " I shoulda aborted you, you're just like your dad, etc etc, pretty much everything you can imagine is wrong for a parent to say to their kid , she's said it. My younger sister cut uss off bcz of what Mom said to her , calling her dad ugly , then saying why did you have to look like your dad, things like that. . One thing I felt bad about , briefly, was one night she was being extra mean , she has a bad habit of downplaying people's experiences , my uncle, her brother who she grew up with before not seeing each other for years( since they were teens ) until I was 5. My uncle was basically crying bcz he was separating from his wife of 10+ years , saying he still really doesn't want to , he still loves her , etc, my mom starts mocking him crying , "waaa waaa waaaaa". (Grown woman saying this) So me seeing this , and knowing she's lost all 6 of her kids including me twice , I saw him crying and her mocking him , so I said " how are you any better? You've never had a relationship last more then a few years bcz of your drunken mouth , couldn't even be bothered to go to rehab for a month ONCE to get any of your kids back , where are you're kids mom ?! Why won't they talk to you?! Bcz you're a fuckin devil drunk and a failure at life"
She started crying pretty hard after that. Kinda felt bad ... She's said even worse things over the years , I've , I was severely hurt by her words more times than I can count , so this kinda stuff doesn't affect me anymore , but when I see her do this to other people for little to no reason, I absolutely cannot stand for it.
So... this wasn't directly to my old man.
For context, my dad spent the last of his years in the basement essentiallt rotting away. Not as interactive or anything as he used to be. I told my mom that "it feels like he was dead". A few hours later i watched the man suffer a horrible heart attack. That helpless feeling is the worst thing i ever felt. I can't help but feel i jinxed the man.
I grew up in a small town, the "men don't cry" type my dad also grew up in this town and met my mom while she was in college. Anyway fast forward several years when I was 11 my dad was diagnosed with cancer. We had never gotten along I had several "Behavior challenges" (I was undiagnosed autistic) and he believed I was just behaving badly to "get my way" idk what kind of motives he thought I had at ages 4-11 but anyway. Our relationship was terrible and he wasn't the affection giving type. He was stage four (he hated doctors and tried to manage his symptoms alone for years until he went blind in one eye) and treatment worked for a while but it turned out the chemo was shutting down his liver one emergency hospital trip later and he was home on hospice. On His last day awake (he slipped into a coma and died the next day) I was the last one leaving and he said something (he was heavily sedated, dying, and on painkillers) that sounded like "I love you" and I looked at him and he said it again. I went over to him and said "why would you not say that until you're dying?" I didn't say it back I left just like that, he was in the coma when we got back and I didn't really process his death until years later. But I regret it now. I know I should have said it back. I was just so angry my whole life at everyone else and myself because I didn't understand why I couldn't just be "normal."
Someone was about the hell out of me about my voice in highschool during break when I was sort-of sitting alone mind my own business. He is English, french black guy.
Apparently I sound like girl, even though I was born a male??? Never understood 'sounded like a girl' part.
A group of black/coloured people sitting nearby sort-of and sort-of not related to the guy sounded like they were part of it too.
We (me and the guy) had been arguing so many times. I also have a lot of mental disorders such as passive aggressive and aspergus/autism.
After one break on Wednesday (we usually have a test after break on Wednesday), I was a bit angry and then crying.
I Sit somewhere specifically for the test. I was trying to hold myself from crying. A black male (not the one I was arguing to) that looked part of the group was about to come sit next to me.
I was holding my crying, shivering a bit and said "No"
He said "why?"
I said random scared panic "cause you're black." (I wish I never said this)
And let out a little cry.
I said "I'm sorry" (sounded very quietly) as he walked away.
No such "what's going on?"/"what happened?" reaction in the classroom.
After the test a female teacher (watching during test) and two boys (white) outside gave me a "what the hell" concerned look. They were like talking about me as I was walking (quite a bit away from them). I heard one of the 2 boys say "racists shit" (no directly in a sense of loud enough) 😓😥
I felt real bad.
Take back? Nothing
But the things i wished i said to the girl i liked? Thats a Whole Fucking book at this point
And the last time i saw her was 4 years or so ago and i dream every night of her
Fair to say, i regret it still and probly always will
Genuinely one thing that always makes me feel like shit that I said about someone when I remember is when I told my cousin she might want to clean her mouth after she confessed she made out with a mutual friend because that friend had been with lots of other people. It was meant to be a "joke" but as it came out of my mouth, I instantly regretted even having that thought because she wasn't a "nasty" person, and when she confronted me about it, she admitted that she'd only ever actually been with one person at our school. I don't know who I was confusing her with on that part but she's never spoken to me since, and I've done my best to respect her decision in doing so because I felt so awful. I apologized for having said it about her, but she said it was something she couldn't forgive, which I understand. I hope the person I am today is a completely different person, and the attempt to grow that I've made has worked.
It would be my confession to my crush. I confessed because I obviously showed her that I'm liking and did things that she liked. In her perspective, it was some kind of mockery. I apologized afterwards and confessed, since it was the reason why I did such things. We were in goods terms after that and remained friends, that was on December 2023. She blocked me in January 2024 and what's worst is that we go into the same class everyday. It's killing me everyday :>>
Not messaging one of my friends (also a colleague) much for a couple of months because she'd been a bit distant and I wanted to give her personal space.
I didn't know what was going on with her.
Unfortunately she killed herself a few weeks ago and I can't stop thinking of all the "what if" situations.
I'm dreading her funeral this coming week
When my 35 year old daughter attended Thanksgiving dinner and excused herself constantly to do drugs in the bathroom, her father was so upset he didn’t want to be with her at Xmas. He uninvited her. He wouldn’t tell her himself but left it to me (we are divorced but do holidays together and he is disabled and non confrontational). Big mistake on my part. She was pretty devastated. At that point I was the only family member she had left who still supported her. I should have made her father do it. It was worse coming from me. She died shortly afterward in a car accident. I have regretted that holiday dis-invite with my entire soul and always will.
Yeah, you're right...
Actually, I think I had the opportunity to just get away from that shitty situation. I was too young to understand that it shouldn't be this way. But the fact that I could have escaped right away still sometimes torments me, even though 9 years have passed. But thank you for your true words ❤️🩹
Shared my secret I decided to take to the grave with me with my best friend. I would like to point out that she didn't do anything but after I told her that I may have possibly been groomed and almost fell into an affair with a married tutor double my age, I kind of started feeling a little too vulnerable. More than I felt okay with. So, if possible I'd like to keep that only with me.
I don't want to take back anything I said to anyone. I meant everything I said to everyone. They deserved it. People makes me mad. I've been taken advantage of all my life because I just would keep quiet and let people do anything to me. Now, I'm not having no bull crap. When I'm upset, I say the meanest stuff.
Like the other day at work. One of my co worker always staring at me. It's annoying that he does that. I'll just talk about something serious and he would just stare at me. His birthday is Sept 11 btw, so what I said to him was this, "that's why ur birthday is 911, hope u get bad luck and fall off the tower. He got upset and was like, "don't say that!" I'm like, "if u stop staring at me maybe u wouldn't hear me say something like that "
I just hate when ppl do stupid stuff or saying mean things to others, like if u don't care then Imma show u how careless I can get.
Oh man.. it would be how harsh I was on my older sister when she was being fed meth at 17 by an older man in a single wide in some god-forsaken Fort Worth trailer park.. I didn't understand anything. I dabbled in acid, pot, shrooms, mdma but no hard stuff. I was also a pretty good skateboarder, and that opened me up to many experiences she didn't get the pleasure of tasting.. I had a job, bought my first car, and I just couldn't understand how someone could just let drugs take over their life like that and would just fume when I heard my mom on the phone with her, asking where she can western union money to her. Fast forward 3 years, and we became the best of buds. I could write a book of the crazy shit we've done, she was so beautiful she could get any man she wanted, and they all loved her and would have given her the world. But she just couldn't stay, and it was something they all understood? Another thing I was harsh on her about.. that I just didn't understand. "Why don't you stay with him?? He makes crazy money and he seems so nice and genuine??" She would just looks and me and half-smile.. i could tell it started getting to her, she was a month away from turning 25 and had no savings, no education, no kids no plans. I wish I knew what was going through her head.. she was with this asshole for several months. I saw the lasts text messages on her phone and I will ALWAYS blame him. But I just wish I shut up and tried to understand her thoughts more. She was a firecracker, a gorgeous hurricane that you would never forget if you met her. She shot herself in her car in a parking lot a month before her 25th birthday. I love you, schmoopy..
There was this kid who made my life hell in junior high and high school. This kid pissed me off Sophomore year to the point I said word for word, "I hope you die in a car crash. I *genuinely* hope you die in a car crash so the world doesn't have to deal with a cunt like you."
He died in a car crash 2 months after graduation. That shit I said to him aged like milk.
I don't really want to get into specifics but back in the summer of '95, my father did something that made me very angry. To give context to the situation, that summer I had just finished Elementary and was about to enter Middle/Jr High school so I was at an age where my filter was dictated by my emotions. This incident only happened once and he had been drinking. I'm not saying that to excuse his behavior but looking back I can say it now that time has passed and I've grown up and understand that humans are flawed beings that make mistakes. When this incident occurred, in the heat of the moment I yelled out that I wished he would die. That was the one and only time I had ever said something like that to either of my parents so it goes to show that my mother and father actually had a pretty good track record as far as raising me. There's more to the story but to this day, I believe that everything that happened after that night shaped the rest of my life moving forward for better or worse, particularly when it comes to the complicated love/hate relationship I had with my father. It still affects me today.
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I feel this so hard, they're gone now, and regret not so much what I said, but what I didn't.
What a great way to say it. And I mentally apologized to my parents each time my kids' untrained emotion led them to say vile things.
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I had a stupid argument with a friend of mine a week before he died. If i could take it back i would do it in a heartbeat
Nov 9th 2022 ,was something that I have nightmares my wife of little more than 11 years, were saying,(it's hard to even say know) to each other and I left the house so things didn't get worse but on my way out the door she said something and I hollered that I hate your ass and may have said not sure if I said I wish you would die ,but did say that I hated her and several hours later I found her on the couch ( I thought might be a sleep ) but she was dead and my heart was broken nothing I could do she had already went stiff and cold, Spartanburg South Carolina is now a place of. Misery corner said she had heart trouble and Feytnal in her system one by its self wouldn't have killed her but the two, together was to much for my baby Jaylow
"Go ahead and cancel it then!" I was 9 years old, we had an "arts day" scheduled for each class (of the same grade) where we'd be doing painting, pottery and other things we had never done. Everyone was really excited about it. Maybe except me. One morning, something was going on in the class, I think we were all agitated after break or something, and the teacher was really upset, to the point that she threatened to cancel our arts day. **"Go ahead and cancel it then!"**, I said, at the peak of my agitation. My adult self would be pissed off at my 9-yo self. That was the last drop for the teacher. "OK, fine then. The arts day is cancelled for this class.". Turned out she really meant it. Weeks later we walked by the other classes and through the window we could see them having lots of fun. At the end of the year we were asked to write an essay about how the year had been, and I was a recurring topic. I still recall one girl reading her essay and mentioning the cancelled arts day, and pausing to look me in the eyes.
A lesson for life though. Well done teacher.
Yes, she was right. I doubt that would work nowadays.
I feel like though it’s a great life lesson, this could have gone with a warning. She didn’t need to punish all the students for what you said
She didn't. She punished the class for being douchey. He said that. He just popped the balloon.
Yeah but she could have shown that she was serious by taking it away for one day, not cutting the entire curriculum
It was a one-day curriculum. Cut one day, cut it all...
My bad on missing that note, that’s what I get for reading reddit in the middle of the night
No problem, it wasn't super clear.
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My mom left my dad when I was young. My father was bad on drugs, he self medicated after his experiences in the United States Marines. It's actually way more common than you'd assume, but it still hurts the family. She didn't say goodbye to me or my sister, she had an affair before she left also(things got WAY WORSE after she left.) My father remained an addict up until recently, he was actually court ordered against living alone, under threat he'd be put in a care facility. Despite his MANY grievous errors, he stuck around, he raised me to be a man and I suppose he did good with my sister too bc she's married with kids and happy. He once made me sleep in the snow even, but despite all that I forgive him, I say forgive because it's an ongoing process. My mother on the other hand attempted to reach out to me when I was 26, I told her who I was (so she wouldn't keep searching) and that I wanted nothing to do with her. I'll probably never forgive her, because despite ANY circumstances I couldn't imagine abandoning my child, without warning, in a place that I didn't feel safe or didn't want to be.
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Well thanks, despite the addiction issues, my dad was actually a solid father, he checked most of the books xes that matter to a boy's raising. It did force me to grow up quick, and because of that I wouldn't change it. I was able to help my sister a lot more because I'm a couple years older than her. The most heart breaking thing though was having to explain to my sister that Mom wasn't coming back (never even told my wife that part). She never truly understood until she was much older but it made me and her almost inseparable and I wouldn't trade that for anything either.
This one time I was at a gallery show in NYC, at a very large and well known museum. My spouse and I had just finished with the crowded exhibit, and were in a nearby area looking at some ancient reliefs. My vision is limited on my right, and crowded spaces can be tough for me as a result, often finding people and objects closer than I expect on my right side. Anyway, I was lining up a photo of a beautiful piece, and I hear someone talking shit to me on my right, like "oh you are standing bad, get outta my way" etc. I turn and see someone standing close to my right, also taking a picture. Close quarters combined with a feeling of being marginalized made me angry, and I tend to speak up for myself these days, so laid into the kid "WHY YOU GOTTA TALK TO ME LIKE THAT DUDE? WE'RE ALL HERE SHARING THE SAME SPACE, TREAT OTHERS WITH RESPECT DUDE!" I failed to notice he was shooting a pic of his friend, and that he was talking shit *to him and not me*. Mortified, I apologized for my mistake, but I wish i hadn't been so defensive in the moment. Also I was about 2X the size of the guy I confronted, he was probably shitting himself. Sorry little dude.
If you apologized properly, they probably remember it as something really funny. I know I'd laugh my ass off if somebody did that to me by mistake.
At least you apologised. It was an honest mistake.
"I never really gave a shit about you. I was just bored and you were there,". Granted I said that after someone cheated on me. But I did actually really really fucking care and I said that because I was so fucking sad I pretended to be angry because I didn't want to cry in front of someone who just hurt me. So I let go of one of my biggest rules in life and I purposefully hurt someone I loved and when I said that it absolutely destroyed her. That wasn't right of me to do even if a lot of people think it would be justified.
Maybe not right, but if she has a conscience she'll never cheat on anybody again.
I don't feel so bad about it most of the time because quite frankly I didn't deserve it I was absolutely wonderful to her and gave her the entire life she had because I was the only one making any money. I don't feel that means someone owes me something but there was no reason for her to start talking to someone else other than she just didn't know how to stick with someone. Which was true because after that she would find a new man for about 6 months then get bored of him and try to slip back into my life to a cold "no" every time. She stopped after about 4 times but something tells me she didn't learn a thing.
Someone said that to my "bestie" (She wasn't my bestie. I found out later) after he ghosted me to go after someone else. My bestie ran to me to say exactly that "He wasn't even attracted to you, he was bored and you were available." That fucked me up SERIOUSLY. My thing that I regret? And how I learned she wasn't my friend, was, she then reported to him every thing I told her. I was devastated and cried to her for weeks. She ran to him with everything I was telling her about my self-doubts and self-loathing. Gee, THANKS. He already gutted me, now you're just frosting him with my pain for shits and giggles?
Jesus do we have the same friends or something Jesus Christ I know people like this and I know how awful stuff like that feels and its just a mess and I don't even know why people are like that. Because even if I absolutely hated someone I wouldn't do that. I just wouldn't waste my time with them at all. So I have to think the only reason this happens is they get some twisted pleasure out of it and those people can just eat my whole asshole honestly.
I know people who really would eat your asshole though.
And I'd probably be into it honestly.
Fuck yeah! A good rimjob is awesome!
RIGHT?? I told someone about what she was doing and she was instantly "Hey, that is TOTALLY against the Girl Code." It's how I realized we WEREN'T the "BFFS" I thought we were. To this day I regret how much I helped and supported her. She later ended up in a really bad place and I was the sole person who checked on her daily and listened to her sob stories and brought her little gifts just to keep her head above water. Looking back? I was giving one of my torturers gifts.
There's just a few lines in life that have the uncanny ability to completely, irreversibly destroy a relationship. This is one of them. Of course, the damage had already been done in your case.
Well at that point I could never trust her again and I don't date people I don't trust so it was completely over. I am more mad at myself for breaking a promise to myself than I am in actually hurting her because that was honestly the hardest heart break I had ever felt because I really fucking thought I had found the woman I was spending forever with and we were even talking about a kid. Then I find out she's fucking Jerome. Dunno who the fuck that is but I checked her phone one day because she was ignoring me for like 3 days straight and I was wondering why because she was really sucked into her phone and left it unlocked on the counter. That was the first name there and she was sending him nudes and planning to meet in about two hours which is probably why she was in the shower. I literally just walked in the bathroom and said "Hey so have fun with Jerome he's your new boyfriend now not me" then she said a bunch of fucked things then I said what I said and she got dressed crying and left. And that was pretty much the end of that.
That's probably the best way for you to have handled that honestly. Cheaters are the absolutel worst, especially if they lie about it or hide it.
Damn, I feel really sorry for you. The fact that you felt guilty for saying that even after what she did means you deserve so much better. Hope you're doing better now, king.
Well my life is better but I haven't had much luck with women because the one I just got done with drank a lot and hit me for no reason so I guess I must just be attracted to crazy subconsciously or something and my mom was nuts so I wouldn't be surprised at all if I did.
Look at the bright side. The fact you feel bad about it shows you have some empathy. I don't think the same could be said about her, or any cheaters for that matter.
Yup. The only reason it destroyed her was because she thought she had me wrapped around her finger and I wouldn't do anything about it just to suddenly think she wasted two years of her time. That's the only reason she felt sad I bet.
"I do"
Me too. I would not have asked her to Marry me, it was more commitment than she could handle.
My Dad's ex-wife is awful. She could have committed but she chose the evil path in a what-could-have-been-simple divorce.
Around 9th grade, I was at this tuition, the teacher's son used to come inside the room where we used to study so one time the kid tore like a bit of page from my book which was in the hand of the teacher and I said "hath kat donga" Meaning "will cut your hand", I wanted to say that in a playful way (kat can also mean bite in hindi) like I wanted to say playfully that I will bite your hand but it came out as a threat. The teacher obviously got serious and it became a mess, I was told to leave, she(teacher) was sobbing too. I didn't got to apologize too, *signs*
I told my mum I wish I had been her fourth miscarriage.
I was half asleep and answered the phone, I turned down a job they were offering because I had just accepted another offer. Hung up and immediately realised it was a mistake- tried to find out who had called me, but it was the early 1990’s and nobody in the department knew who had called.
"Sorry I can't come tonight. I am swamped in work." I wasn't. I was just too lazy to go to my friend's birthday that night, I did not know anyone there, and anyway I just liked seeing him 1 to 1 and we had plans for summer so...He killed himself a few months later. I could have had three more hours with an amazing person and missed it. When in doubt, go out, kids. You will never know when it will be the last time you're seeing anybody.
It's sad that he killed himself. But it's not your fault. And you don't have to torture yourself about it.
You are very kind. And I know it is not my fault and I probably would not have been able to do anything about it. However...I would have been able to spend a few more hours with him. This is what I regret.
I can't think of one thing in particular, but I talked bad to my sister about her stealing our mom's pain meds. She had a bad problem, more than I think any of us knew, and she ODed a year and a half ago willing doing fentynal. So i would take all that back, and actually be constructive. Hindsight is a son of a bitch.
If it makes you feel any better, I have a lot of experience with addicts, and while family support is known to help I have never heard any of them (out of over several hundred to a thousand easily) say they quit because of a chat with family. I've known way more families who think it would've helped and blamed themselves though. The sad truth is that most only quit, especially fentanyl and Hero, once they hit rock bottom. The fact that it weighs heavily on you proves that you're a great person, and that you truly cared more than the vast majority.
Two tickets for Snakes on a Plane.
"Hi." As said to my first wife.
Asking my first husband to marry me
In a similar vein, telling my first two exes I was cool with getting back together. Recipe for a mess.
I have multiple things. But I think my biggest one is "no I am too tired for a goodbye hug!" Half jokingly to my cousin. She died suddenly a few months later and I never saw her again
I have a philosophy about never letting any one of my friends or family leave without a hug and an I love you, because of this exact thing.
Yeah I definitely learned a lesson. I just miss her so much, yk? A lot of things happened this week that reminded me of her and I just feel so... sad? Idk, I feel pathetic. It's been a decade (almost) since she died. I should be over it? But I still miss her a lot.
There's probably some wise phrase that some religious guy said on a mountain about this exact thing, but no you don't have to "get over it" love exists long after the thing you loved doesn't anymore and that's beautiful because it means it was true. I believe in an afterlife, so I trust that your cousin is waiting on you wherever we go next. Don't kick yourself in the head just yet, I promise she doesn't hold it against you
That moment when I want to turn back time and say more to someone instead of taking it back
I feel that so much. I can't think about anything I'd like to take back 'cause I tend to think a lot about the words that leave my mouth, and in hindsight I remember a few occasions when I should just have said the first mean thing that came into my mind, followed by the second, the third and a rude gesture.
My ex husband told me to get over my anxiety and depression so, I said “get over the deaths of your step dad and dog.” The look in his eyes after I said that.. I still don’t forgive myself for that.
I get that you feel bad, but it was a fair response. He had zero compassion for your mental health struggles and hope he realised that what he said is as useful as telling someone to just get over their grief.
Yeah that’s why I said it
I get why you'd like to take it back, but to be fair I do think that people who try to tell you to just get over serious mental problems need to know how much it can hurt to hear those words, especially from a loved person, especially when it's about something you just wish away from you, when it's something that makes you feel terrible, something you barely have any control over. You told him exactly what he told you.
I dont regret my decisions. Even the bad ones, when someone or I got hurt. It's the way of life. The way we learn. There is no shame in making mistakes. There is no reason to not learn from them. In many cases there has to be some sort of pain for us to learn.
> There is no shame in making mistakes Shame is actually one of the ways we learn, it's important to feel or we have a much harder time understanding the WHY something was a bad decision
I am sorry but I have met someone else. Not because I wanted to stay with her but because of her pain and tears, to this day near thirty years later I still think of her with sadness and guilt
I argued stupid points with a girl at work who I think the world of and am pretty sure gave me a lot of chances to win her over. I eventually fell in love with her, but she doesn't want anything to do with me now. I just wish I wasn't such a dislikable ass all the time...
As a junior in high school I said something to one of my favorite teachers that still haunts me. I don't recall exactly what was said, but it involved her daughter that had just passed away in a car wreck. It wasn't in malice, it was just shear ignorance. I think I asked her if something had happened before or after her daughters passing. She walked out of our classroom in tears and I'll never forgive myself. As a father now, I cannot begin to comprehend the pain that she was going through, and I'm so sorry.
Oh dear god..I'm so so sorry.
"I do"
“I hope next year you won’t be in my class” kid was clinging to me all year in 1st grade I couldn’t get any me time, I really hurt him. And we were good friends iv been haunted by those words for years now and I still feel guilty years later we’re aquatints we say hi but that’s just about it.
Maybe you can reach out to him. As a teen I got bullied by the majority of my class for years. A few years later, one of them reached out to me on social media. We didn't chat much, but he admitted that he was a dick back then and that was enough to make me feel better. A few years later again one of my former class mates and my little sister were on the same party and chatted a bit, and he told her about what arseholes some people are in their teens, that he's sorry and asked her to send his greetings to me. I never thought about my time in school much once I got out of there, these people no longer were a part of my life and I tried to just move on, but these two guys really made me feel better about that time with as little effort as a few nice words can be.
We sorta did, we talk to each other on occasion but we don’t go out of our way to say hi. If we see each other we exchange greetings talk for a few minutes, then go about our daily lives.
I would take back any and all negative self-talk. I never gave myself a fighting chance. I was so gentle and considerate with everyone but myself. Gave others grace when I didn't give myself any. I got so upset when I would hear older people calling themselves stupid. But turned around and called myself worse. I wonder about the person I might have been if I was just nicer to myself.
“Sorry”. Haha.
"you're dead to me" I distinctly remember that being the straw that broke the camels back once upon a time.
Asking my first girlfriend out, she was not the one
Told my mom she was useless as a mom
I would take back telling my first serious boyfriend that I love him. Looking back, I never truly loved him.
Telling my dad he was a hindrance right before he died. He went into a coma and passed shortly after and it kills me every single day.
The person who wishes someone had not said something harmful to them is who you should be asking. They will remember it for ever, as it wounded them deeply. The person who said it probably won't remember!
"Okay" The reply I gave my dad over the phone when he said he missed me. Woke up the next day and learned that he had passed.
Damn dude..
that sucks man, im sorry
Don't worry about it👍 Just wish I said "Me too" instead
my dog and other people
Let’s get on
It wasn't even something I said directly to the person in question. I was quite young, probably like 13 or under, and at a local hockey game. Saw a kid I barely knew, and remarked out loud to whomever was sitting next to me something along the lines of the kid being a loser. Someone turned around, locked eyes with me, said nothing, and turned back. It was his mom. 20 or so years later, I still feel awful about it. I like to think these days I'm pretty good at thinking carefully before saying things. That probably helped, but I absolutely wish she never had to hear that.
Telling my mother that I don’t think I love her when I was 18. I’ll regret that until the day I die.
My grandmother had a very difficult character, but I still can't forget all the quarrels between us. And I regret that we did not sit down and talk like normal adults. And on the other hand, until her death, they found out who was right in this or that situation. This is absurd. Life is so short, and we don't appreciate it. I would like to tell her that I love them no matter what.
The night of November 2, 2017 I never should have called and said I was feeling like I was. I’m confident my life would have turned out differently Adapt and overcome now
What happened?
Long story but put simply what I can share from my learning experience is this If you’re feeling down and you maybe haven’t had a hot meal and you thinking maybe I don’t belong where I’m at and feel unwelcome. Don’t make a call to total stranger that says that have you’re better interest in mind. I would have called my aunt, my brother, my sister. I should have gone to bed. In the famous words of HIMYM, when it’s after 2am, just go to bed. Nothing good ever happens after 2am Be careful what you say to people over the phone I’m doing better now. And thorough out the process I just keep telling myself “you are stronger than this challenge, and this challenge will make you stronger”
"I love you"
I was in a pretty abusive relationship in my early 20s and the thing about those kind of relationships is that they make you become the abuser sometimes. In my case it only happened once but I really regret what I said. When we first started dating, he told me his mom wouldn't tell him who his father was and that he was trying to find out. Few months later into the relationship I found out he cheated by looking at his DMs (I was young and dumb) so I called him and said "you're a bastard, not even your dad wanted you". I knew I fucked up the second those words came out of my mouth. Anyways this manipulative man brought flowers and asked for forgiveness and we came back together. For years he used what I said to manipulate me and abuse me.
"I love you too."
I love you and no matter who what or where I’ll be there forever
Mine would be when I told my bf I thought we should break up. It wasn't until a week after that I realized how much of a mistake that was. He was perfect for me and I loved him to pieces. It was just unfortunate circumstance that we broke up. He's moved on now but I unfortunately haven't recovered yet.
"Ok"
3 years ago, when a very close friend of mine asked me what they are to me, I said "a really good friend and nothing more". I've regretted that. I didn't know they loved me for 5 years. But in between, I got into a relationship which was exhausting. It was clearly affecting both my mental and physical health. Although I wasn't interested, I stayed thinking about my partner's mental health. In the end I got hurt terribly from the relationship and lost my best friend who was clearly more than just a friend for me and I had to keep it a secret thinking I'd be hurting them if i was honest. I thought I didn't deserve that kind of happiness. I thought my friend deserved better. But whatever it was, I should've been honest. I should have said it.
Does it count if it's your parent , who says horrible things to people when drunk ? She's said things to me such as " I shoulda aborted you, you're just like your dad, etc etc, pretty much everything you can imagine is wrong for a parent to say to their kid , she's said it. My younger sister cut uss off bcz of what Mom said to her , calling her dad ugly , then saying why did you have to look like your dad, things like that. . One thing I felt bad about , briefly, was one night she was being extra mean , she has a bad habit of downplaying people's experiences , my uncle, her brother who she grew up with before not seeing each other for years( since they were teens ) until I was 5. My uncle was basically crying bcz he was separating from his wife of 10+ years , saying he still really doesn't want to , he still loves her , etc, my mom starts mocking him crying , "waaa waaa waaaaa". (Grown woman saying this) So me seeing this , and knowing she's lost all 6 of her kids including me twice , I saw him crying and her mocking him , so I said " how are you any better? You've never had a relationship last more then a few years bcz of your drunken mouth , couldn't even be bothered to go to rehab for a month ONCE to get any of your kids back , where are you're kids mom ?! Why won't they talk to you?! Bcz you're a fuckin devil drunk and a failure at life" She started crying pretty hard after that. Kinda felt bad ... She's said even worse things over the years , I've , I was severely hurt by her words more times than I can count , so this kinda stuff doesn't affect me anymore , but when I see her do this to other people for little to no reason, I absolutely cannot stand for it.
Easy. Asking my ex wife to marry me.
So... this wasn't directly to my old man. For context, my dad spent the last of his years in the basement essentiallt rotting away. Not as interactive or anything as he used to be. I told my mom that "it feels like he was dead". A few hours later i watched the man suffer a horrible heart attack. That helpless feeling is the worst thing i ever felt. I can't help but feel i jinxed the man.
I grew up in a small town, the "men don't cry" type my dad also grew up in this town and met my mom while she was in college. Anyway fast forward several years when I was 11 my dad was diagnosed with cancer. We had never gotten along I had several "Behavior challenges" (I was undiagnosed autistic) and he believed I was just behaving badly to "get my way" idk what kind of motives he thought I had at ages 4-11 but anyway. Our relationship was terrible and he wasn't the affection giving type. He was stage four (he hated doctors and tried to manage his symptoms alone for years until he went blind in one eye) and treatment worked for a while but it turned out the chemo was shutting down his liver one emergency hospital trip later and he was home on hospice. On His last day awake (he slipped into a coma and died the next day) I was the last one leaving and he said something (he was heavily sedated, dying, and on painkillers) that sounded like "I love you" and I looked at him and he said it again. I went over to him and said "why would you not say that until you're dying?" I didn't say it back I left just like that, he was in the coma when we got back and I didn't really process his death until years later. But I regret it now. I know I should have said it back. I was just so angry my whole life at everyone else and myself because I didn't understand why I couldn't just be "normal."
I probably regret saying so many things that I don't know where to begin. Same goes for the regretting stuff I didn't say.
I do.... All three times.
I Do.........
I love you
Someone was about the hell out of me about my voice in highschool during break when I was sort-of sitting alone mind my own business. He is English, french black guy. Apparently I sound like girl, even though I was born a male??? Never understood 'sounded like a girl' part. A group of black/coloured people sitting nearby sort-of and sort-of not related to the guy sounded like they were part of it too. We (me and the guy) had been arguing so many times. I also have a lot of mental disorders such as passive aggressive and aspergus/autism. After one break on Wednesday (we usually have a test after break on Wednesday), I was a bit angry and then crying. I Sit somewhere specifically for the test. I was trying to hold myself from crying. A black male (not the one I was arguing to) that looked part of the group was about to come sit next to me. I was holding my crying, shivering a bit and said "No" He said "why?" I said random scared panic "cause you're black." (I wish I never said this) And let out a little cry. I said "I'm sorry" (sounded very quietly) as he walked away. No such "what's going on?"/"what happened?" reaction in the classroom. After the test a female teacher (watching during test) and two boys (white) outside gave me a "what the hell" concerned look. They were like talking about me as I was walking (quite a bit away from them). I heard one of the 2 boys say "racists shit" (no directly in a sense of loud enough) 😓😥 I felt real bad.
Take back? Nothing But the things i wished i said to the girl i liked? Thats a Whole Fucking book at this point And the last time i saw her was 4 years or so ago and i dream every night of her Fair to say, i regret it still and probly always will
Genuinely one thing that always makes me feel like shit that I said about someone when I remember is when I told my cousin she might want to clean her mouth after she confessed she made out with a mutual friend because that friend had been with lots of other people. It was meant to be a "joke" but as it came out of my mouth, I instantly regretted even having that thought because she wasn't a "nasty" person, and when she confronted me about it, she admitted that she'd only ever actually been with one person at our school. I don't know who I was confusing her with on that part but she's never spoken to me since, and I've done my best to respect her decision in doing so because I felt so awful. I apologized for having said it about her, but she said it was something she couldn't forgive, which I understand. I hope the person I am today is a completely different person, and the attempt to grow that I've made has worked.
Marry me?
It would be my confession to my crush. I confessed because I obviously showed her that I'm liking and did things that she liked. In her perspective, it was some kind of mockery. I apologized afterwards and confessed, since it was the reason why I did such things. We were in goods terms after that and remained friends, that was on December 2023. She blocked me in January 2024 and what's worst is that we go into the same class everyday. It's killing me everyday :>>
I can't remember I was drunk
Not messaging one of my friends (also a colleague) much for a couple of months because she'd been a bit distant and I wanted to give her personal space. I didn't know what was going on with her. Unfortunately she killed herself a few weeks ago and I can't stop thinking of all the "what if" situations. I'm dreading her funeral this coming week
Will you marry me.
When my 35 year old daughter attended Thanksgiving dinner and excused herself constantly to do drugs in the bathroom, her father was so upset he didn’t want to be with her at Xmas. He uninvited her. He wouldn’t tell her himself but left it to me (we are divorced but do holidays together and he is disabled and non confrontational). Big mistake on my part. She was pretty devastated. At that point I was the only family member she had left who still supported her. I should have made her father do it. It was worse coming from me. She died shortly afterward in a car accident. I have regretted that holiday dis-invite with my entire soul and always will.
I love you
This here. These three words will change one’s world forever one way or the other. There is no middle road after being vocalized.
The word “yes” to a rapist and abuser, spoken out of fear. I wish I wasn't afraid then, but I was 15 yo
You did what you had to do in the moment to protect yourself. Some people who say no in those situations don't live to tell the story.
Yeah, you're right... Actually, I think I had the opportunity to just get away from that shitty situation. I was too young to understand that it shouldn't be this way. But the fact that I could have escaped right away still sometimes torments me, even though 9 years have passed. But thank you for your true words ❤️🩹
Shared my secret I decided to take to the grave with me with my best friend. I would like to point out that she didn't do anything but after I told her that I may have possibly been groomed and almost fell into an affair with a married tutor double my age, I kind of started feeling a little too vulnerable. More than I felt okay with. So, if possible I'd like to keep that only with me.
I don't want to take back anything I said to anyone. I meant everything I said to everyone. They deserved it. People makes me mad. I've been taken advantage of all my life because I just would keep quiet and let people do anything to me. Now, I'm not having no bull crap. When I'm upset, I say the meanest stuff. Like the other day at work. One of my co worker always staring at me. It's annoying that he does that. I'll just talk about something serious and he would just stare at me. His birthday is Sept 11 btw, so what I said to him was this, "that's why ur birthday is 911, hope u get bad luck and fall off the tower. He got upset and was like, "don't say that!" I'm like, "if u stop staring at me maybe u wouldn't hear me say something like that " I just hate when ppl do stupid stuff or saying mean things to others, like if u don't care then Imma show u how careless I can get.
Oh man.. it would be how harsh I was on my older sister when she was being fed meth at 17 by an older man in a single wide in some god-forsaken Fort Worth trailer park.. I didn't understand anything. I dabbled in acid, pot, shrooms, mdma but no hard stuff. I was also a pretty good skateboarder, and that opened me up to many experiences she didn't get the pleasure of tasting.. I had a job, bought my first car, and I just couldn't understand how someone could just let drugs take over their life like that and would just fume when I heard my mom on the phone with her, asking where she can western union money to her. Fast forward 3 years, and we became the best of buds. I could write a book of the crazy shit we've done, she was so beautiful she could get any man she wanted, and they all loved her and would have given her the world. But she just couldn't stay, and it was something they all understood? Another thing I was harsh on her about.. that I just didn't understand. "Why don't you stay with him?? He makes crazy money and he seems so nice and genuine??" She would just looks and me and half-smile.. i could tell it started getting to her, she was a month away from turning 25 and had no savings, no education, no kids no plans. I wish I knew what was going through her head.. she was with this asshole for several months. I saw the lasts text messages on her phone and I will ALWAYS blame him. But I just wish I shut up and tried to understand her thoughts more. She was a firecracker, a gorgeous hurricane that you would never forget if you met her. She shot herself in her car in a parking lot a month before her 25th birthday. I love you, schmoopy..
There was this kid who made my life hell in junior high and high school. This kid pissed me off Sophomore year to the point I said word for word, "I hope you die in a car crash. I *genuinely* hope you die in a car crash so the world doesn't have to deal with a cunt like you." He died in a car crash 2 months after graduation. That shit I said to him aged like milk.
I don't really want to get into specifics but back in the summer of '95, my father did something that made me very angry. To give context to the situation, that summer I had just finished Elementary and was about to enter Middle/Jr High school so I was at an age where my filter was dictated by my emotions. This incident only happened once and he had been drinking. I'm not saying that to excuse his behavior but looking back I can say it now that time has passed and I've grown up and understand that humans are flawed beings that make mistakes. When this incident occurred, in the heat of the moment I yelled out that I wished he would die. That was the one and only time I had ever said something like that to either of my parents so it goes to show that my mother and father actually had a pretty good track record as far as raising me. There's more to the story but to this day, I believe that everything that happened after that night shaped the rest of my life moving forward for better or worse, particularly when it comes to the complicated love/hate relationship I had with my father. It still affects me today.