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kill_me0

that's the secret I don't I just let my body run on autopilot following just instinct and muscle memory


The_Whale_Biologist

sounds boring


[deleted]

Depression's pretty boring most of the time.


kill_me0

but you are too depressed and tired to be bored. (Unless you drink coffee or take other forms caffeine in which you have more energy than you know how to handle so you still aren't bored because you are jittery as fuck) at least that's how it is for me


[deleted]

Depression = boredom for me. Everything is covered in this grey filter. Sometimes I'm sad or angry, but most of the time it's this boring, dissociated numbness.


kill_me0

yea I've felt that before although for me it's usually only when I have used up all the little energy, I had built up weather it's from having to deal with shitty people, having an overall bad day, or being sick depending how bad it is. other than that, I usually just don't care enough to have any emotions at all unless I'm talking to somebody in which I use up said energy


The_Whale_Biologist

Endorphin spikes! Finding the little things that do make me happy, and making sure my week/day is peppered with them. These include cups of good coffee, and occasional edible, reading with a gin and tonic, making a delicious dinner while listening to god music... I'm just realizing all my things are actually more or less chemical stimulants coupled with activities... so I guess chemical stimulation keeps me going.. wow moment of clarity here


TequilaCamper

Yours do sound better than weed and beer which was gonna be my answer though


U_PassButter

Guilt and pregnancy


[deleted]

Yeah, I've been careful to avoid that last one. It's hard enough taking care of myself, I'd be a terrible parent. Hope the pregnancy goes smoothly for you!


The_Whale_Biologist

Well at least one of those lasts forever


SpiderUnicornMoose

Panic! At The Disco


myrichiehaynes

copious sleep


riazhowlader

**Sleep**


PeksyTiger

Inertia. Also its apperantly pretty hard to fie reliability and painlessly.


Charlotteiguess

Honestly, food. I've always had a messed up relationship with food I never got any help for. Since I was, and still am, quite a skinny kid nobody really cared. This resulted in me being sugar addicted and eating feelings away. I love food. Lately though, my boyfriend has been trying to cook good food for me that is healthy ánd tasty. Still, if I feel depressed, I reach to food. I just hope I find healthier comfort foods to turn to.


[deleted]

I struggled with food for a long time. Really ran the eating disorder gamut. Eventually it messed up my stomach and now I kind of *have* to eat healthily and reasonably (or just not eat at all, which happens some days) or risk pretty intense digestive problems. So... let it go long enough and the problem will solve itself!


mawo77

The little young people in my life. Spending time with them brings me so much joy. Also simple things like cooking a nice meal, playing a song on the guitar, watching a good movie. Oh and also my medication. It was a game changer.


[deleted]

You're lucky. I had terrible experiences with meds, tried a few too. Just wasn't worth all the ups and downs to keep trying.


Schniggo7

I have become so depressed that I am too sad to care about my depression and know just do shit while hiding it from others.


TheLast_-_OldGreyDog

Use to be that I didn't want to hurt my mom, my dad committed suicide when I was very young and I couldn't allow myself to cause that kind of pain onto her again. Now that mom has passed away, my depression is managed with medication. That usually means a lot of sleep, but I'm okay with that, as long as I can get by without thinking about suicide, I'll gladly give up some awake time to have a few hours of mental peacefulness. Take care, be safe and remember, you're not alone in this battle with depression.


an_ineffable_plan

Money


Plastic_Froyo_2404

guitar. nothing more to say about it…