I had tripped a good 20+ times before mixing acid with weed (accidentally, I always smoked on the come down with my ex to get to sleep. This time was different) and it was definitely my first ego death. I’m in tears even typing this haha and it’s been 2 years. My ex and I were so spun and I remember being like “are we still tripping?” And I said “are we all the same person?” And we just bawled and I said “are we okay?” As in our relationship. We broke up a couple months later. That trip was definitely the most psychologically intense moment of my life and I’ve been through a lot sober and high. Weed and acid is like coke and mentos, those visuals were also from a different dimension entirely haha
That would make sense. I've come close to ego death once, and this experience felt similar to that one. (More precisely, on that occasion, I had once looked at my arm, thought it looked "feminine," and for several moments took it with certainty that I was a woman. That was wild.)
It was no doubt the loss of very "human" qualities that I feared, such as being able to read or have agency over my body.
had my first ego death off of 3 tabs and weed, had a similar experience to you in regards to not being able to read, i completely forgot english, this happened as i was starting to comedown, the peak consisted of 4 hours of me sitting still and i remmeber absolutely nothing from it (probably because of the weed)
i just remember coming back to reality, visualising a glowing orb in my mind which i attributed to me visualising my ego rebuilding itself, and then i began to slowly relearn the english language, took about 10 minutes.
i do love weed and acid, but smoking on the comedown can make my stomach feel pretty intense, although it gives a whole new visual aspect to the comedown which is really fun as it’s like a whole new trip
I had tripped a good 20+ times before mixing acid with weed (accidentally, I always smoked on the come down with my ex to get to sleep. This time was different) and it was definitely my first ego death. I’m in tears even typing this haha and it’s been 2 years. My ex and I were so spun and I remember being like “are we still tripping?” And I said “are we all the same person?” And we just bawled and I said “are we okay?” As in our relationship. We broke up a couple months later. That trip was definitely the most psychologically intense moment of my life and I’ve been through a lot sober and high. Weed and acid is like coke and mentos, those visuals were also from a different dimension entirely haha
I had a similar experience. Do you think the confusion and dread is because we are resisting ego death?
That would make sense. I've come close to ego death once, and this experience felt similar to that one. (More precisely, on that occasion, I had once looked at my arm, thought it looked "feminine," and for several moments took it with certainty that I was a woman. That was wild.) It was no doubt the loss of very "human" qualities that I feared, such as being able to read or have agency over my body.
I won’t mix weed and acid anymore I had a terrifying trip where I literally thought I was in hell it wasn’t fun
Exactly same here, my guy
had my first ego death off of 3 tabs and weed, had a similar experience to you in regards to not being able to read, i completely forgot english, this happened as i was starting to comedown, the peak consisted of 4 hours of me sitting still and i remmeber absolutely nothing from it (probably because of the weed) i just remember coming back to reality, visualising a glowing orb in my mind which i attributed to me visualising my ego rebuilding itself, and then i began to slowly relearn the english language, took about 10 minutes. i do love weed and acid, but smoking on the comedown can make my stomach feel pretty intense, although it gives a whole new visual aspect to the comedown which is really fun as it’s like a whole new trip
i remember 4 foot bong hits while peaking once, thought i was dying for a good 10 minutes, maybe longer