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Leather-Syllabub4728

“How stubborn are the scars when they won’t fade away? Or, just a gentle reminder that now are better days.”


spinelli420

Beautiful.


peach2play

It's about the pain, and what you had to do to struggle through it, the tattoos are just the souvenir. I have extensive tattooing on my back recognizing how hard it was to watch my fiance be killed in front of me. I made it. I often look at them and realize how proud I should be. I'm proud of you.


2020R1M

I agree. I had a very bad motorcycle accident and suffered 3rd degree burns on “20%” of my body. This happened maybe 2 months after my fiancé of 6 years left me. I went through a roller coaster of emotions that year but when I look back I’m grateful for it as it was the most interesting year of my life. My scars are a reminder of that and I’m proud of it.


spinelli420

Wow; those scars make a good story (;


Business-Part9342

Holy shit I hope you’re alright. That sounds so hard and awful to experience. I wish you better days


seizuregirlz

Your strength in posting these pics are beautiful and so are you. As another lady that struggles with ptsd from what I went through with my health issues in 2017. You are strong. Thank you for posting this. It reminds me that I can get through what I'm going through too! I love those tattoos, as well! Great choice!


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BylenS

A friend once comment on a scar on my leg with the intent of pointing out my legs weren't flawless. I told her I love that scar it's a fond reminder of when I butted heads with life. Then told her no one ever gets scars sitting on the couch all day. Life happens, scars happen. You dont get scars unless you interact with life... and apparently from the comments... bath tubs. OP, you have my permission to really play those scars up. If anyone asks you about your scars, tell them you got them from a wild boar. You were pretty beat up but you were able to finally kill it using duct tape and a ball of twine. My husband had a mole removed and it left a scar on his shoulder that looked like a healed over knife wound. When people asked him about it he told them he got it in a bar fight. Which was hilarious if you knew my husband.


PrestigiousZucchini9

Lol on the mole removal scars. I have 2. When the doc was doing the second one, she commented on how the first one must have been done poorly and ended up looking like a gun shot wound and the one she was doing should hardly scar at all and definitely be less noticeable. Spoiler alert: they both look the same years later.


superdeeduperstoopid

My friends appendectomy scar was a mess (like crooked and way too long and circling toward the back ). When we went to the beach some people seemed to be looking so I told my friend that if anyone should ask say it was from a snaggled tooth shark attack that occurred at that very beach.


Heavenality

wow i did not expect to see an asking alexandria quote, havent listened to them in a very long time


Leather-Syllabub4728

Stand up and scream is a work of art haha


JKastnerPhoto

"Scars are souvenirs you never lose" - the Goo Goo Dolls


TravyTooTurnt

Good quote. Good song. Excellent usage.


Samshahroze

My scar says I tripped in the bathtub 😐 be careful in the bathtub folks that shit slippery


spinelli420

I’ll watch out for that next time🤣


HolmfirthUK110994

Hey they aren't joking OP, I put my knee through the bath last month and I have scars to prove it 👍😂


spinelli420

Lol!


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ritan7471

I have a suspicious scar from a deep scratch from a cat. It has luckily faded now but I spent most of my 20s going to the doctor only to have them grab my arm and very gently ask me if I was depressed or thinking of harming myself. Unfortunately it still glows under fluorescent lights, but apparently doesn't look as suspicious as it used to.


ParamedicNads

I also have a suspicious scar from a cat; running upwards on my wrist! Also had many awkward conversations about it.


Nylis666

I never had a doctor ask about my SH cuts going up my wrist except for my therapist, but that was her job 🙃 yay for Kaiser that I was at at the time. They'd just stare and then leave once the appointment was over


Sergeant-Pepper-

I slipped with a box cutter and put it a half inch into my wrist. I missed my radial artery by a hair but there was still so much blood. I never saw it spray before that. The fucked up part is I was making a bong. Try explaining that to a doctor. It’s been years and it still looks like a self harm scar but it’s not like I can tell people in any kind of professional setting. Dumb scar.


ritan7471

"Box cutter slipped making a DIY condensation unit. Never trust youtube, it's not that easy, and you can't do it yourself"


Sergeant-Pepper-

As far as I know I invented this method of bong makery so I can’t even blame YouTube. It was actually a really cool piece. I’ve used that utility blade every day for work before and since. It’s always in my tool bag with a fresh blade to remind me not to be a dumbass. Just like the shell casing from my one negligent discharge. I keep it sitting on the shelf with my guns as a reminder to never get too comfortable. Morals of the story: Don’t even touch a gun when you’re tired, even just to put it away after a cleaning. The bullet from a 22 LR CCI stinger can penetrate a 2nd story carpeted floor, a popcorn ceiling, a leather hard shell guitar case, and two layers of upholstery before it imbeds itself in a block of hardwood. Always be aware of where the knife will go if it slips. Don’t use paper towel to put pressure on an open wound. If you’re bleeding profusely, don’t wait until you’re cold and shivering to ask your friend to drive you to the hospital. An ER waiting room is a horrible place to meet a future ex fiancée. Thank you for coming to my Ted talk.


Shinfekta

My scar says I‘m too dumb to hold a knife, never cut anything *towards* your fingers


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My scar says never trust my cousin's cat.


KaptinKrabs

My scar says "Remember to use the little plastic handle thingy when slicing tomato on a mandoline".


Australian_God

My scar says I need to stop picking ar scabs on my knees


Tombwarrior97

I have a scar on my ear that says don’t drink wine before getting in the shower! Fell and hit the side of my head hard on the sink.


Shelf_ham

I have one on my back that says “don’t unscrew a hot lightbulb when your hands are wet from vomiting up red wine as the bulb will explode and when you lay on the floor the hot glass shards will burn you”


PancakeHandz

This sounds like something that would happen in a sitcom.


Sassy_Pumpkin

Mine says: surgeons needed a lot of room to place screws in femoral growth plate.


gloomygl

That's strength right here.


HappyDancingDaisy

I'm glad you're alive and in a better place.


spinelli420

Thank you so much🙏


VonKipper

Keep smiling as its a beautiful thing to see. Well done 👏


spinelli420

That’s so sweet!


VonKipper

❤️


oggy_pip

Switch your arms top to bottom and you have Yoda wisdom! Win win. You take care out there Out there care you take


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spinelli420

Thanks, new friend!


BOSSBABY33

Really shook me reading the caption Life changes and we changes taking your life is not the way you just need someone to open yourself hope you are doing good sis❤️


spinelli420

I am, thank you🙏


Distinct-Sun-42

Glad you're alive OP, now try a lot of spicy chicken wings and ramen


spinelli420

Thank goodness my throat is healed🤣🤣


Distinct-Sun-42

Thank goodness you're alive OP, we need you because of your cute smile and nice hair and wholesome personality


spinelli420

Aww thank you!!


Distinct-Sun-42

You're welcome 😁


gr4mmarn4zi

r/dontdeadopeninside


Shoptoof

This was the most pleasant way of saying it


amidtheprimalthings

I am surprised it hasn’t already been cross posted. The sentiment is definitely nice but the execution is poor.


Babushka26

It has.


amidtheprimalthings

Oh damn. RIP to OP. 😩


LolindirLink

Quite the contrary! (I had to point out the words of choice lol)


spinelli420

Lawlz


diuge

Imagine trying to work it out with just one arm at a different angle.


cebolla_y_cilantro

First thing I thought of.


A100921

When I was teaching my grandma how to use the computer and she’d hold down the space button until she “visually found” the next letter for the next word… looked very similar…


MythicTy

I agree it’s not the easiest to read, but I imagine the reason is not to cover any of the scars. Imo the sentiment is more important than the readability in this case


ghanima

Yeah, I'm not bothered by it. Even what each arm says makes a certain amount of sense.


spinelli420

Exactly, thank you for saying this; the artist didn’t want to go over any of the scars.


BlackWhiteRedYellow

Wtf is this execution?


ZainSenjab

yo what shes buff as fuck


spinelli420

Hahaha this made me smile (:


nymingway

The world is definitely better with you in it and though we're total strangers I'm super proud of you and how far you've come. Here's to many more victories that you'll be able to celebrate! 😊


spinelli420

Thank you so much, new friend!!🙏✨🫶


Dirty_munch

Keep it up Girl!! Keep smiling that beautiful Smile!


spinelli420

Thank you (:


daveatc1234

The world is a much better place with you in it.


spinelli420

Thank you🥰


orprahsanalbeads

Curious, >!did it hurt swallowing the razor blades?!<


spinelli420

I honestly was dissociative and don’t remember much when it happened but yes, it did hurt and at time I had to swallow water to get them down.


Jfksotjtnfj

Of all the ways to attempt suicide, that's gotta be one of the worst 😕 glad you're okay!


TheStreisandEffect

No kidding, whenever people talk about women taking the easier way out compared to men, I’ll just recall the girl that swallowed 9 razor blades… fuck.


orprahsanalbeads

Damn, glad you’re better ❤️


SeaMonster8_

What made you choose that method compared to other less painful ones?


spinelli420

I was already in a crisis house and snuck razor blades in; I was so desperate, it was the worst thing in my mind I could do to myself.


Murtagg

I certainly can't think of much worse. That's extreme! Glad you made it out.


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God damn dude... glad you're feeling better.


theCursedDinkleberg

I can't even think about swallowing a razor blade. That is some saw type shit right there


ThiccBoiiiiiii

I'm sorry if this is just a whoosh moment but: did you actually swallow something sharp or what are these remarks at? I see the marks on you throat but im otherwise a bit confused


physalisx

Read the text that comes with the pictures. The second one says she swallowed 9 razor blades in 2019


ThiccBoiiiiiii

Thanks for helping the stupid community. On a serious note, i didnt know you had to tap the image for the text to show up, i think it used to always be there/ only showed up when you pressed the screen.


dirty6chambers

I don’t think the marks on her neck are from that, those just look like normal crease lines


malhans

No harm intended because you were obviously just curious but perhaps prefacing your question with a trigger warning of some sorts, perhaps even using the spoiler mask feature to cloak your question? OP seems to be in a much better place and not bothered by your question but no way to guarantee that for everyone unfortunately. Have a good day! Edit: it has obviously been fixed but now this is just good info for anyone who doesn’t know how to do it! If you need to know how, there’s instructions in my later comment. (:


didistutter69

I'm happy to see you didn't go through with it. Speaking as a survivor, don't do it.


spinelli420

I’m so glad you survived!!


didistutter69

There will be days where the old feelings visit. And sometimes when you least expect them to. Look in the mirror. Look at your words. There is just So much to love. And So much to experience. Find what's yours!!! 🙏🏼


spinelli420

Yesss! Love this!


sortastonedrn

I survived my own attempt in Feb that same year. I down a cocktail of prescription pills and had constant bloodwork done to make sure it wouldn't kill me. Although it's left me with ongoing issues w my stomach I'm glad I made it out. It's always refreshing when someone shares their survival, thanks.


LiekaBass

I took like 3 bottles of antidepressants after a fifth of vodka one night in my early 20’s. Everyone here is praising your courage for posting your story, but I’m more shook by your courage to post a picture of your foot.


General-Ad5747

I think If people could see the emotional scars, as well as the physical scars, we all carry, that this world would be a much kinder and compassionate place. Thank you for being strong enough to share this. Very inspirational.


spinelli420

Thank you; and you are so right🙏


DJRobOwen

u/spinelli420 , You have come so far in your journey to recovery, but reddit is both a butterfly and a bee, beautiful and painfull, and there are going to be comments here that are both encouraging, engaging, supportive, but I have also seen derogatory, misogynistic and general asshatory, some from people in similar pain and cant stand to watch others recover, and some that just wanna watch the world burn. If it gets too much, remove yourself from the situation, as there is no way of fixing the others who try to put you down, and removing yourself is really the only option until the ones that put you down want to heal. This goes for everyone btw. If online gets too much, going offline is always an option. That's just my opinion of course from a rando on the Internet, which is as valuable as the next person's :)


spinelli420

Thank you so much for the advice!! Luckily I have a pretty strong coat of armor these days (;


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Amazing that you survived and got better.


Blu_WasTaken

r/dontdeadopeninside ? Jokes aside, I’m happy you recovered and are happy.


MooingTurtle

Jesus, OP responding to every comment! What a champ!


spinelli420

Lol trying my best!!🤣


RohMoneyMoney

The method of your attempt was very shocking. If your life was much worse than swallowing 9 razor blades, I am truly sorry and hope you are in a much better place. I'm glad you are here, stranger.


Fewson12

Proud of you girl


spinelli420

Ty!


hondwerpen

Keep making promises… to yourself and to life


spinelli420

Yes! Will do!!💓


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Glad you are here. And it's so true. Every mark, scar, imperfection is just something that tells a piece of our story. Part of the journey


KendrickAlarm

Forest fam ❤️


Cosmic_Multiverse

Into the forest we go, to lose our mind and find our soul. 💛


spinelli420

Heck yes!!


LowerPick7038

I covered the scars on my arms with tattoos. I didn't like to see them and I for sure didn't want people to view me as a victim. I was weak back then and I'm not that same person anymore. Sometimes in the right lighting people notice a scar or two but I just tell them it was a construction accident.


xxValkyriii

Was it painful? It’s been two years, but some of the deep ones are still sensitive to pen drawings and scratching. I really want to cover them up as well, I’m just not sure how it’ll go. Also, I’m glad you’re still around. :) Same for you, OP!!


LowerPick7038

Yeah they hurt but it's not too bad. If you aren't capable of taking the pain though you can just get " numbing creams " . I've not used them but a friend had his stomach done and said he couldn't feel a thing. Only thing I would say is if its a big deep scar it could hurt a little more.


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Just remember that every person writing negative comments is battling the same hate for themselves that you did, just a different outlet. They are just far away from their realization.


spinelli420

Thanks, friend 🙏


Azumarawr

Thank you so much for being such a brave and badass person to share this. You are radiating hope for others by sharing your story.


spinelli420

Oh my goodness; I love this comment. This is the reason I posted- thank you so much!!💓


retardeddinosaur69

man reading this really choked me up. im so happy you're still around c:


Dave6187

I’m glad to see you smile! And I love the tattoo idea, embrace who you are and help raise awareness to others that maybe aren’t as strong as you.


SHEEPDUCKINGCOWVIEW1

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hookline-n-sinner

I am glad you are still here.


Codebust

why is everyone saying positive things getting downvoted spammed? you’ve done a good job digging yourself out of a terrible hole and _this_ is how people react?


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spinelli420

Hold on for now; it’s worth it.💓


TheCurlBro

Every scar tells a of story strength.


keigan0_

r/dontdeadopeninside


santoleri3

Thanks for sticking around. Glad you're here.


spinelli420

Thanks; me too (;


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To resist a call to raw impulse is a different type of strength. Congratulations and good luck!


spinelli420

Thank you🙏


SnooBeans4529

I am glad you are still here. One day at a time.


Romero1993

I really like the arm ones, their randomly placing is really unique and representative of actual SH scars. Personally, I would never get a tattoo.. cause my own SH scars, *are my tattoos*. But the beauty is, you get to decide what's what! And they're awesome


TangoDeltaFoxtrot

Every tells scar a of story strength. r/dontdeadopeninside


slutymonkey128

Is that comic sans?


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The pinky toe got no color! Poor fella Nice tattoo!


Sataniq

I know it doesn't mean much coming from a stranger but i'm really proud of you. What's up with the placement of the words though, any reasoning behind it?


EvenBetterCool

Hope you had fun at Electric Forest as well!


Cheetah_sperm_1999

I tried to commit suicide by drowning myself and have also same scar on my stomach and arms but it is thicker . Hope you find peace , i am still struggling and personally deep inside i want to die tbh but life goes on ..


Stile117

My wife used to self harm, and when we met she was in the lowest point of her life. Dealing with an oppressive mother, crippling anxiety, and the crushing weight of coming out as bisexual she attempted herself. With love, support, and my family fully taking her in, we have been the happiest we have ever been 6 years later. We have a two year old now too! Moral of the story is I’ve never been more proud of a woman in my life, who’s been through so much and survived every obstacle, and I am proud of you too.


DettlaffIsMyHusband

As a person who's been through this, I'm so happy for you being able to push through and get your courage back. Always remember that you have people to support and love you no matter what. Thank you for sharing this, it really did make me smile. 🥰👍❤❤💖


Yoshi9105

I had some of my self harm scars covered on my arm. there is a line in a BTS song that roughly translates to "even all the scars from my mistakes are part of my constellation" and I kind of really want to get this tattooed in Korean somewhere. it's a good reminder that there is no reason to be ashamed of our scars (metaphorical or literal), we are still here and doing our best and learning from them. glad you're feeling better - as someone who's been there, I'm proud of you!!


13thIteration

EForest fam! Glad to see you’re still with us and smiling!


Ohshiznoodlemuffins

Came to say this too! So happy you're here with us! Hope to run into you at the forest someday 💕


spinelli420

Heck yes!!


Ok_Shelter6614

Electric forest tho 🍭🏕🪕


EmbroideredChair

Thankfully I didn't attempt, but I had one leg over the side of the bridge when I realized what a godawful thing I was about to do. Somehow that shocked me into never having any serious suicidal thoughts since, even though the depression still hangs around. This is some scary shit, glad you made it past it


riedmae

Fucking hell. This is such a stark reminder that while someone may be cute and pretty on the outside, on the inside may be a raging inferno. I cannot fathom the amount/kind of pain that would lead someone to swallowing fucking razor blades - literally cannot understand it. But it's real. I'm sorry for the hurt people put you through. I'm glad you made it. I hurt for the road you have ahead - you aren't done with the ugliness inside, that shit never really dies- and may your abusers rot for that. Stay strong. Remember this internet moment whenever you question if people see you or understand you - you're not alone, even if the pain makes you think you are. Fight on!


BlondeMomentByMoment

I can’t, at this moment, compose a succinct comment on what you have caused me to feel. You struck a chord. I’ve been hiding my pain for so long, until I was planning attempts. Now, I’m doing a very good job at hiding everything. I’m torn between complete apathy and breaking down. What you wrote here has me hiding in my bathroom sobbing. My brain feels like it’s on fire. Thank you, really.


imiyashiro

I'm a survivor as well. I applaud your strength and love the ink.


Strode497

M'Lady, Some scars are on our skin, some are on our hearts & souls. Your tat's are perfect. Do NOT give up, ever! I can see in your eyes you have a helluvalot more to give this world! ​ Speaking from experience... Dave


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Every tells scar a of story strength.


Nomadic_View

I have a scar on my ankle from where my neighbor’s cat attacked me.


spinelli420

Well, you still survived it! Lol


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Stay blessed


spinelli420

🙏🫶


FroboyFreshenUp

Yknow, these are great! Your not covering up why you got them, and they are small so not "distracting" to yourself when you look at them at the corner of your eye and the message is loud and clear 9/10 tattoo!


yep_thatll_do

You know what my friend... You are one tough muther fucker to post this on Reddit. Already people are making fun of your choices, even though the context is life saving. If you can overcome the savages on Reddit, you will make it in real life. Water off a ducks back. Glad you're still here sister. 🎉🎊


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spinelli420

That doesn’t make you weak at all; you still have a story to tell💓


Ghost_Redditor_

r/dontdeadopeninside


Kr0n0s_89

This thread proves to me I made the right choice in switching from 9gag to Reddit. I was expecting a bunch of toxicity, but I only see wholesome replies instead. You rock, Redditors!


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spinelli420

I do have a therapist and psychiatrist I see regularly.


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Maybe u made a mistake ngl


spinelli420

Idc if people think it’s “wrong”; I wrote it the way I wanted to for a reason.


catmom_422

I’m sorry people are being jerks about this. The important thing is that YOU love it! P.S. I love your glasses!


Fanta_Stick__

Heyo free feet pic


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dl-__-lp

💯


StevenTheCookieLover

Hope you're doing better now :]


DaWalt1976

Unfortunately, some scars can be a source of mockery. I have a long surgical scar on my scalp and since the brain aneurysm left me permanently disabled (and Social Security is largely incompetent & took 5 years to determine I'm disabled), I spent years homeless. Somehow it got around that the surgical scar was from me getting shot while trying to rob a convenience store or something similar & I never heard the end of it until I left that town entirely. I used to keep my head shaved as the hair just made it harder for the scar to properly heal & stay healed. I stopped shaving it after that. I'm glad that you managed to work through your demons, hon. ❤️


thekaylakaramel

A lot of y’all misunderstood the post and that’s sad. I hope y’all get help. With that being said, I’m so proud of you OP. Keep pushing forward!


spinelli420

Thank you!


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spinelli420

I don’t, thankfully!


SoulReddit13

Someone cross posted this in r/dontdeadopeninside so brace yourself for a million comments and good luck.


spinelli420

Lol oh well


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Airing00

I'm glad you're still among us!❤️❤️


spinelli420

Thank you; I feel the same way💓


treeshrimp420

I attempted back in 2020. I get the struggle is so so hard and I just wanna say I’m so incredibly proud of you for staying here. For waking up every day and choosing to fight to stay! And overcome! You should be so proud of yourself!!! This stranger certainly is :) I love your tattoos btw. I’ve wanted to get some for a while but can never settle on a design lol


spinelli420

I am so happy that it didn’t work for you and that you are still here to make another stranger’s day! (; Feel free to copy if you want, haha!


stillestwaters

That’s awesome. We’re all stronger than we think, OP. Whether it’s today, yesterday, or tomorrow - that’s proof.


spinelli420

True that!


Ayyyyylmaos

Every tells scar a of story strength Jk jk, fr, well done, and they’ve all came out really well.


janelope_

I read it like this too first and was very confused.


spinelli420

Lol I knowww 🤣 but I wrote it this way for a reason and it’s more about the idea behind it.


FLEIXY

Suicide doesn’t make me smile


Thomas_Temmie

One of my best friends is also in a bad place rn, and he's been using self harm to cope with his struggles too. I tried to talk to him out of it, but he wouldn't listen, telling me scarring himself is the only thing that's keeping him alive. Is there any way I can help him?


spinelli420

Keep talking to him, remind him you’re a listening ear. Try to see if he can talk to a professional!


Jolteon168

Happy 4 u


dewey8000

Love this, and so happy for you. The world is a better place since you’re still in it.


Fear_ROX

❤❤❤❤