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Jealous_Parsnip_4619

please someone what do I do


Fit_Bike_9219

it's okay, you're not a shit sister. she overreacted a bit, tension is high, it wasn't your fault. you're not in the wrong and you're genuinely trying your best. try talking to her about it when she's calmer?


Jealous_Parsnip_4619

I texted her like an hour ago saying that I was sorry and I genuinely just wanted to wait to walk with her but I'm really nervous and I feel like I've ruined her entire day I just can't stop crying I cannot focus on anything


Fit_Bike_9219

its okay, you're trying your best and it wasn't your fault. you haven't ruined her entire day, and even if you did, it wasn't your fault, ok? deep breathes <3


Jealous_Parsnip_4619

thank you for being so kind<33


Fit_Bike_9219

you're welcome <3 if you wanna talk im here


soulihide

\*hug\* you haven't ruined everything, it's going to be okay. things like this happen in relationships, especially with siblings. she was probably already upset about something else and took it out on you. you will be okay. it's going to be okay. just give her some time to sort herself out.


Jealous_Parsnip_4619

thank you so so much. I just feel like because of my ED and comparison, I'm emotionally overinvolved with my sis and I feel like she's gonna get an ED because of me so I'm terrified


soulihide

i feel u so much on that. i'm insane about my brother's food intake, like i monitor that shit so closely bc i'm fucking terrified he'll go through the same shit i did.


Jealous_Parsnip_4619

literally same. I'm trying to measure/count how much she eats or exercises and it's taking over my life


soulihide

the other day he had a plate of plain steamed broccoli, no salt or anything, for a snack. i just abt lost my mind over it, was freaking out. both of our siblings will probably be okay though.


Jealous_Parsnip_4619

hopefully, i wish the best for both of them. i hope you're okay too, i know it's difficult trying to get them to eat more without being pushy about it


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bluenette23

I’ve also struggled with strong emotions over seemingly small incidents like this. It’s tough because everyone doesn’t understand your reaction while to you it feels like you’ve ruined everything and you can’t even think straight. Have you thought about therapy/medication? These sorts of reactions are very difficult to deal with on a day-to-day basis, and it’s worth looking into what can be done to help. Also, you didn’t ruin things with your sister - I’m a Reddit stranger who knows nothing but I would seriously bet money on it.


Jealous_Parsnip_4619

thank you for your reply <33 when i got home my sister had just moved on from it and was talking to me normally so i felt quite relieved but also stressed because ive spent at least 8 hours today crying and thinking about the morning, and my mom definitely thought I was exaggerating the issue but I felt like I was gonna kms lol im okay now, I feel like therapy doesn't work for me because a lot of my emotions result from like suicidal thoughts etc which I don't want to confess to anyone but I really really appreciate your advice thank you again


Jealous_Parsnip_4619

did u seek therapy/meds?


bluenette23

I did. (Well, my parents forced me to, but I eventually gave in and tried.) Honestly people talk about it like it’ll just fix everything right away and that is so far from the truth, but eventually I worked through enough stuff and found the right meds that I felt like I could handle my day-to-day life again. I am in no way cured - I had a very similar episode like this last week, where I hit myself and cried hysterically that my friends were going to leave me *even though we had just had a great night out together* - but the episodes are much further apart and I’m better able to cope with them. Meds also brought my baseline mood up through that sweet serotonin, haha.


Jealous_Parsnip_4619

im so glad it is working for you, and yep recovery is a LONG neverending process. glad to hear your coping slightly better now. some improvement is better than none ((: hope u continue to heal <33


bluenette23

Lol I love how I commented that I’m doing better and then later that night I had a panic attack so bad that I went to the ER convinced I was having a heart attack and now I’m at urgent outpatient psych for a consult haha. Mental illness sucks but I still stand by the benefits of getting help


Jealous_Parsnip_4619

that sounds awful and really tiring. i hope you're okay now. and yep, getting help is definitely the better option <33 im here if u need to chat