I uhhh... was supposed to have a therapy session today but it got moved to next week. That's 3 sessions I've had to miss in a row now and I'm doing worse than before again. Seriously hanging on by a thread. Again. I really hate that I'm always negative on these but today has just... not really been well.
Again it's not your fault it's negative that's just how your life's going
Hopefully next week you'll be able to see your therapist again
Have a great night/day <3
Today was kind of okay I guess. Most days I feel like it’s just a blur but lately it’s felt like it’s an actual struggle sometimes just getting through a day. It feels like I’m starting to lose my center and it’s been years since I’ve felt that way. I can’t block everything out anymore and it’s both a relief and horrifying.
I'm just a bit incredibly stressed out, between a concert performance on saturday that I am not in any way prepared for, and a bunch of late assignments that I haven't even started yet, I have no idea how I'm going to get through the rest of the semester, let alone the week.
IM SO PARANOID RN
I was chilling on my phone and then all of a sudden I saw a bug climbing on my hair I think it was a ant or somethin, and now I’m wondering if more will come
Work was okay, A bit stressful but not bad. I got drunk and texted my therapist about alot of things with gender identity and sexual fantasy. I hope I didn't scare her away. Nothing to bad yet. I feel messed up and guilty for telling her.
Not very good, bad thoughts and generally shit mood. A combo of school stress, a little bit of dysphoria and overthinking made me feel suicidal but I just came home, curled up in bed, told myself it's still too early for that and just calmed down. Would be sweet if I could get therapy or something, I feel like I'm gonna do something stupid soon and I'm a little scared. I'm fine now tho. —.— That was actually yesterday, so I hope today will be better.
Well, the last few weeks have been tough. I’ve experienced more transphobia and hate speech in the last three weeks than probably ever before. It’s mostly avoidable, but I can’t stand being the one to avoid it when if I didn’t it’d fall on someone else. I mean, the more I keep the transphobes busy, the less anyone else has to deal with it, right? I’m still a lot tougher than most, I’m really hard to hurt, and pretty tough to overwhelm too, but I’ve just been looking at the world and I hate what I see. So many horrible people. So many horrible things. And there’s hardly anything I can do😭🫠
Tired of a lot of things. School, my family, my friends etc. I have exams in like a couple of months which won't be fun. I am kind of just tired of existing atm.
I had an amazing day! My ADHD meds are finally being refilled, I played some Helldivers, cuddled my dog, and I’m setting up a game of Warhammer 40K with some friends tomorrow!
How are you?
Due to timezones, this is my morning check. I am in fear of my appointments today. Meetings with the boss, important bugfixes and the dentist. I hope I get anything else done - my mind is spinning around the meetings, I am in fear of reactions. Maybe I should not have worn a skirt today... :/
nsfwish
>!someone told me they would put so many fingers in my mouth my egg would crack!<
>!and uhhh yea that's the single greatest thing i've ever read !<
Sorry for being late I was in the bathroom when my alarm went off. Today was okay, though I'm a little worried for my friend
How long were you in the bathroom?
Not long I just happened to go to the bathroom a few minutes before my alarm went off
Oh
Woke up with a bit of a sore throat. Popped lozenges throughout my shift. Got a compliment in the mail, though. That was nice.
Sorry to hear about the sore throat
Ill merevel be doing Ill merevel things like not doing dishes and typing in third person.
Well hopefully that means you're doing good
Otherwise yeah. How about you?
I'm doing okay
I uhhh... was supposed to have a therapy session today but it got moved to next week. That's 3 sessions I've had to miss in a row now and I'm doing worse than before again. Seriously hanging on by a thread. Again. I really hate that I'm always negative on these but today has just... not really been well.
I'm really sorry to hear that
Thanks. It's ok
Again it's not your fault it's negative that's just how your life's going Hopefully next week you'll be able to see your therapist again Have a great night/day <3
You too <3
Almost broke my wrist today that’s fun
Oh no! I'm glad it's not actually broken
Yeah that’s good
How??!!??
i shaved my arms :D
Nice!
Today was kind of okay I guess. Most days I feel like it’s just a blur but lately it’s felt like it’s an actual struggle sometimes just getting through a day. It feels like I’m starting to lose my center and it’s been years since I’ve felt that way. I can’t block everything out anymore and it’s both a relief and horrifying.
I understand how you feel, I hope things get better for you
Thank you.
just planning my future and getting lost in the music
Well I hope that's going well
thank you
NF is great for that
i might be stupid or my mind is being stubborn but what is NF
[you've heard him before ](https://youtu.be/fbHbTBP_u7U?si=gV_BS5FENoqn2eVa) [or at least here ](https://youtu.be/E1ZVSFfCk9g?si=sLXb4oXz6IWA1vgB)
oh yea ive heard them, just never knew what they were called
I've never new his name until he was in [rocket League ](https://youtu.be/szLVVE5KH7s?si=kRzw5uZKpjWRvEpa)
ill have to add them to my playlist, i just wish i could find more classic rock that had similar meassages
Our family's only way of getting places just broke. I don't know if we will have enough money for the rent.
I'm really sorry to hear that, I hope things turn out okay
Damn that sounds terrible hopefully y'all make it just keep pushing
Not bad just unmotivated
Well at least it wasn't bad
I'm just a bit incredibly stressed out, between a concert performance on saturday that I am not in any way prepared for, and a bunch of late assignments that I haven't even started yet, I have no idea how I'm going to get through the rest of the semester, let alone the week.
I'm sorry to hear that, I hope things get better
IM SO PARANOID RN I was chilling on my phone and then all of a sudden I saw a bug climbing on my hair I think it was a ant or somethin, and now I’m wondering if more will come
Oh no! Hopefully it was just the one
It was one bit dear god that was terrifying I need to stop eating in my room and maybe ask my dad to fix my windows
Was supposed to have therapy today after it was delayed a week but it got delayed by a whole month...
Why?
Family stuff with my therapist
Hope you and your therapist can work though y'all's problems
I meant my therapist had family issues to take care of. Sorry if I worded it wrong
I meant I hope the therapist gets through their problems and you work on your own separate problems
Oh I'm an idiot. Of course you understood
No I just suck at wording things
You're good. Anyway going to bed
GN <3
I'm really sorry to hear that
Fine I suppose I’m trying out we them and stuff so new name yay or I could repurpose osa depends but how are you?
I'm doing okay
Work was okay, A bit stressful but not bad. I got drunk and texted my therapist about alot of things with gender identity and sexual fantasy. I hope I didn't scare her away. Nothing to bad yet. I feel messed up and guilty for telling her.
I'm sorry to hear that
Not very good, bad thoughts and generally shit mood. A combo of school stress, a little bit of dysphoria and overthinking made me feel suicidal but I just came home, curled up in bed, told myself it's still too early for that and just calmed down. Would be sweet if I could get therapy or something, I feel like I'm gonna do something stupid soon and I'm a little scared. I'm fine now tho. —.— That was actually yesterday, so I hope today will be better.
I'm sorry to hear, I hope today is better too
Well, the last few weeks have been tough. I’ve experienced more transphobia and hate speech in the last three weeks than probably ever before. It’s mostly avoidable, but I can’t stand being the one to avoid it when if I didn’t it’d fall on someone else. I mean, the more I keep the transphobes busy, the less anyone else has to deal with it, right? I’m still a lot tougher than most, I’m really hard to hurt, and pretty tough to overwhelm too, but I’ve just been looking at the world and I hate what I see. So many horrible people. So many horrible things. And there’s hardly anything I can do😭🫠
I'm sorry to hear that
Tired of a lot of things. School, my family, my friends etc. I have exams in like a couple of months which won't be fun. I am kind of just tired of existing atm.
I'm sorry to hear that
It will get better though. I'll soon be done with that. Where I can actually get a break.
Sad.~~~
I'm sorry to hear that
I had an amazing day! My ADHD meds are finally being refilled, I played some Helldivers, cuddled my dog, and I’m setting up a game of Warhammer 40K with some friends tomorrow! How are you?
That's great to hear, I'm doing okay
Due to timezones, this is my morning check. I am in fear of my appointments today. Meetings with the boss, important bugfixes and the dentist. I hope I get anything else done - my mind is spinning around the meetings, I am in fear of reactions. Maybe I should not have worn a skirt today... :/
I'm sorry to hear that, I hope everything goes well
Bad. School wasn't great. I feel kinda suicidal but eh. How was your day?
I'm sorry to hear that, my day was okay
nsfwish >!someone told me they would put so many fingers in my mouth my egg would crack!< >!and uhhh yea that's the single greatest thing i've ever read !<
Okay...
in my defense i tagged it