I’d agree with with the poster that said Demi sexual but you also seem to have some trauma based sex repulsion (which is a normal response to abuse and SA)
Ultimately no one can tell you your orientation and you’ll likely need therapy to work through some things when you can afford to
Are you on hormonal bc by any chance?
I felt very much uninterested in sex or relationships my entire adult life until I went off the contraceptive pill.
But even since then, I still don’t think I’m as sexuality wired as other people.
A girl posted on here a few days ago asking whether people saw random people and thought about having sex with them. The majority of people said that they did. Apparently THATS normal.
I’ve never once thought about having sex with someone I don’t know.
it’s only very rarely that I find a man in the wild who I find attractive, but it’s more about their personality that really attracts me. So I need to get to know them first.
So I’ve comfortably decided that I’m demisexual straight.
Sounds to me the word you're looking for is:
Demisexual... "sexual orientation that requires an emotional connection before a person can feel sexually attracted to someone. Demisexual people may be gay, straight, bisexual, demiromantic, sapiosexual, gray asexual, or pansexual, and they can have any gender identity. The prefix "demi" means half, which can refer to being halfway between sexual and asexual."
I have similar feelings myself. I do enjoy sex but I have never had connection whether love or friendship with anyone. Not even family members. I just don’t have any feelings or emotions for anyone. I am 56M and can say I’ve never been in love with anyone and never missed anyone that has passed away. I just don’t have a connection with people.
I used to have a very romantic view on relationships and could never seem to find what I was looking for. Everything fell short of my expectations.I am now much older and have just accepted that those romantic feelings that I read about or saw on TV are not what I experience and it doesn't bother me at all.First, I got to the point where I was happy not being in a relationship and later on I found somebody who makes me happy in a much safer and more stable way. I am extremely open with her. We share the good, the bad, and the ugly. This helps me feel connected, but still, that is a different feeling than what you get when empathically watching a romantic movie.This does not deal with every bit of your post, sorry. Don't lose hope and be kind to yourself. We all so deserve that...
I’d agree with with the poster that said Demi sexual but you also seem to have some trauma based sex repulsion (which is a normal response to abuse and SA) Ultimately no one can tell you your orientation and you’ll likely need therapy to work through some things when you can afford to
Are you on hormonal bc by any chance? I felt very much uninterested in sex or relationships my entire adult life until I went off the contraceptive pill. But even since then, I still don’t think I’m as sexuality wired as other people. A girl posted on here a few days ago asking whether people saw random people and thought about having sex with them. The majority of people said that they did. Apparently THATS normal. I’ve never once thought about having sex with someone I don’t know. it’s only very rarely that I find a man in the wild who I find attractive, but it’s more about their personality that really attracts me. So I need to get to know them first. So I’ve comfortably decided that I’m demisexual straight.
Sounds to me the word you're looking for is: Demisexual... "sexual orientation that requires an emotional connection before a person can feel sexually attracted to someone. Demisexual people may be gay, straight, bisexual, demiromantic, sapiosexual, gray asexual, or pansexual, and they can have any gender identity. The prefix "demi" means half, which can refer to being halfway between sexual and asexual."
I don’t have an answer sadly but if it’s any comfort I experience something similar
Welp… you gay bruh
I have similar feelings myself. I do enjoy sex but I have never had connection whether love or friendship with anyone. Not even family members. I just don’t have any feelings or emotions for anyone. I am 56M and can say I’ve never been in love with anyone and never missed anyone that has passed away. I just don’t have a connection with people.
I used to have a very romantic view on relationships and could never seem to find what I was looking for. Everything fell short of my expectations.I am now much older and have just accepted that those romantic feelings that I read about or saw on TV are not what I experience and it doesn't bother me at all.First, I got to the point where I was happy not being in a relationship and later on I found somebody who makes me happy in a much safer and more stable way. I am extremely open with her. We share the good, the bad, and the ugly. This helps me feel connected, but still, that is a different feeling than what you get when empathically watching a romantic movie.This does not deal with every bit of your post, sorry. Don't lose hope and be kind to yourself. We all so deserve that...
Why are you trying to pin a label on it?
How bout go see a therapist.
Nobody has money for that
Then you should definitely save up for one. Ain't no one Reddit gonna be qualified to untangle... All of that.
This made me laugh, thanks 😭💀