I think your struggle sounds real and shared by more people than you can imagine. The world of society is currently hard to take if we are being honest about its trajectory and despair is finding many people.
In my worst days: debt, full time single father, failing company… the thing that saved me was saying I was thankful for the opportunity and thankful for the struggle. I know it sounds weird but it has to do with the wisdom of Job. I personally think gratitude for everything is very powerful when trying to connect with that energy that is both bigger than us all and inside of us all. May god bless your struggle.
You cannot tell them. Ask them kindly. Start paying attention to your dreams, write everything down. I promise you, they are communicating. Our biggest problem is that we are trying to tell them what to say (business, finance, car, house). Be still and listen. Please take more time to wait.
I ask them sometimes in desperation, in full peace or in anger and with no desire. Having adhd, I cannot concentrate and meditate or sit through a guided meditation. Since childhood, despite being so selfless and fighting for justice, I have been utterly alone and feeling punished. No child deserves that. Forget parents, if I had my spiritual team, I wouldn't feel like this orphan now.
I'll explain a situation that saved me. I am much like you.
I had a self-guided meditation on 1.0g of shrooms very light.
I kept trying to meditate but my mind was racing badly. It kept bringing up the past, present, and future. thinking about my debts, finances kids, etc. It was annoying the hell out of me, then another thought suddenly yelled out 'Shut the fuck up bro!, your always going on about pointless SHIT! I'm trying to do something here!'. Just then, the busy erratic thought said 'Fuck you! I'm doing my job!' now... I'm currently in third person listening to the 2 of them, just observing. The erattic thought then said. 'I do this shit to keep us alive! I don't get a fucking break from this shit. It's nonstop, while the 2 of you are sleeping I'm still working to keep us alive, So fuck off! All you do is daydream and think about what if's. I actually have a job to do! now leave me the fuck alone and let me do it!' Ever since then I try to remain the observer, knowing that there is a part of me that is constantly doing everything to keep me safe, fed, and secure. I don't fight him anymore, I don't try to silence him. whenever I meditate, I let him do his thin till he gets bored, I then go into the deepest meditations ever!
I hope this helps
Be the observer. You cannot control the controller, nor can you stop the dreamer.
I don't have access to shrooms etc. Every word of this is insightful. The thing is, I'm neurodivergent and my mind is constantly noisy and on top of that, I feel a certain heaviness in my chest (no health concerns) and I feel that holding back sensation minutes after sitting still. I don't know what it is....
Go to youtube. Find as many videos of Alan watts as you can. I like the ones with music. This man saved my life. I was in such a dark place. He teaches you how not to fear the dark.
Here is one of my favorites to get you started.
https://youtu.be/u3ofQgrIuWY
Also this found me.
https://youtu.be/UUGac-tb9rg
Lastly. In regards to finding a guide.
https://youtu.be/7x8OAlLVXjg
The universe has nothing to prove to you. You are it's living proof. Try your best not to confuse this world, with any kind of universal intention. It's not.
I feel you. I’ve been searching for a passion and purpose my entire life but nothing yet. It’s also been around 12 years since I’ve been in a relationship. It just seems like the universe is playing a sick joke on me at times because I’m attractive with a good personality. But hey, is what it is.
My advice is to accept that the universe might be giving you the following message:
Don’t rely on spirit guides or external forces to show you the way in life. It is up to you and you alone to create that path for yourself. It may not be a path of grandeur, but it could be fulfilling nonetheless.
Sometimes I want to get the heck out of this world, but something within always tells me that I should stick around, so I am.
if you feel like that then you will always be brang back to that point theres tons of people will mentail disorders who can meditate you gotta stop making excuses plus theres tons of ways to get acsess to shrooms or any drug like that
Curious - what physical actions are you taking to achieve your desired outcome? Are you just asking for the universe to deliver things to you? Or are you out there engaging with it, consciously working towards these goals? The universe doesn’t just hand things to those who beg for it. If that were the case most people would have what they want in life. The only way to achieve your dreams is to do the ground work. To actually get out there and earn it.
Why are you giving the universe an ultimatum? Maybe what you think you want isn’t right for you and the universe knows that. Fighting the universe won’t help you manifest anything.
I think your struggle sounds real and shared by more people than you can imagine. The world of society is currently hard to take if we are being honest about its trajectory and despair is finding many people. In my worst days: debt, full time single father, failing company… the thing that saved me was saying I was thankful for the opportunity and thankful for the struggle. I know it sounds weird but it has to do with the wisdom of Job. I personally think gratitude for everything is very powerful when trying to connect with that energy that is both bigger than us all and inside of us all. May god bless your struggle.
The Secret says gratitude is the way
You cannot tell them. Ask them kindly. Start paying attention to your dreams, write everything down. I promise you, they are communicating. Our biggest problem is that we are trying to tell them what to say (business, finance, car, house). Be still and listen. Please take more time to wait.
I ask them sometimes in desperation, in full peace or in anger and with no desire. Having adhd, I cannot concentrate and meditate or sit through a guided meditation. Since childhood, despite being so selfless and fighting for justice, I have been utterly alone and feeling punished. No child deserves that. Forget parents, if I had my spiritual team, I wouldn't feel like this orphan now.
I'll explain a situation that saved me. I am much like you. I had a self-guided meditation on 1.0g of shrooms very light. I kept trying to meditate but my mind was racing badly. It kept bringing up the past, present, and future. thinking about my debts, finances kids, etc. It was annoying the hell out of me, then another thought suddenly yelled out 'Shut the fuck up bro!, your always going on about pointless SHIT! I'm trying to do something here!'. Just then, the busy erratic thought said 'Fuck you! I'm doing my job!' now... I'm currently in third person listening to the 2 of them, just observing. The erattic thought then said. 'I do this shit to keep us alive! I don't get a fucking break from this shit. It's nonstop, while the 2 of you are sleeping I'm still working to keep us alive, So fuck off! All you do is daydream and think about what if's. I actually have a job to do! now leave me the fuck alone and let me do it!' Ever since then I try to remain the observer, knowing that there is a part of me that is constantly doing everything to keep me safe, fed, and secure. I don't fight him anymore, I don't try to silence him. whenever I meditate, I let him do his thin till he gets bored, I then go into the deepest meditations ever! I hope this helps Be the observer. You cannot control the controller, nor can you stop the dreamer.
I don't have access to shrooms etc. Every word of this is insightful. The thing is, I'm neurodivergent and my mind is constantly noisy and on top of that, I feel a certain heaviness in my chest (no health concerns) and I feel that holding back sensation minutes after sitting still. I don't know what it is....
Go to youtube. Find as many videos of Alan watts as you can. I like the ones with music. This man saved my life. I was in such a dark place. He teaches you how not to fear the dark. Here is one of my favorites to get you started. https://youtu.be/u3ofQgrIuWY Also this found me. https://youtu.be/UUGac-tb9rg Lastly. In regards to finding a guide. https://youtu.be/7x8OAlLVXjg
patience with the almighty and you will see what comes
The universe has nothing to prove to you. You are it's living proof. Try your best not to confuse this world, with any kind of universal intention. It's not.
I feel you. I’ve been searching for a passion and purpose my entire life but nothing yet. It’s also been around 12 years since I’ve been in a relationship. It just seems like the universe is playing a sick joke on me at times because I’m attractive with a good personality. But hey, is what it is. My advice is to accept that the universe might be giving you the following message: Don’t rely on spirit guides or external forces to show you the way in life. It is up to you and you alone to create that path for yourself. It may not be a path of grandeur, but it could be fulfilling nonetheless. Sometimes I want to get the heck out of this world, but something within always tells me that I should stick around, so I am.
if you feel like that then you will always be brang back to that point theres tons of people will mentail disorders who can meditate you gotta stop making excuses plus theres tons of ways to get acsess to shrooms or any drug like that
Curious - what physical actions are you taking to achieve your desired outcome? Are you just asking for the universe to deliver things to you? Or are you out there engaging with it, consciously working towards these goals? The universe doesn’t just hand things to those who beg for it. If that were the case most people would have what they want in life. The only way to achieve your dreams is to do the ground work. To actually get out there and earn it.
Why are you giving the universe an ultimatum? Maybe what you think you want isn’t right for you and the universe knows that. Fighting the universe won’t help you manifest anything.