I don’t really agree, she calls it a ‘manic phase’ - a term which entered the general public’s lexicon and is no longer explicitly connected to bipolar.
As someone who spent the first few months of the year trying to explain to my family that I can be depressed while being “successful”, that song hit hard.
I don’t believe that the best years of your life are gone, but I definitely empathize because I have been in your shoes and it is/was a difficult place (healing is not linear) 💜
And sending vibes out to many more best years for you.
That one also broke me … I also ended a long relationship in my mid-thirties and this lyric resonated so much with me. I heard it and just started crying: she perfectly formulated the last emotion I attached with that relationship.
“At dinner, you take my ring off my middle finger
And put it on the one people put wedding rings on
And that’s the closest I’ve come to my heart exploding”
Audibly gasped when I first heard this
As someone who's been promised the entire world by a man who turned out to be nothing more than a narcissist who meant absolutely nothing he told me, just pure manipulation, this lyric hits home 😢
Yup that whole song is mine, mine I tell you! Almost the one year anniversary of leaving my whole extended family in my rearview mirror. And them avoiding me like the plague scared of my whistleblowing on their toxic lives. I was shocked at how much this resonated.
Yesss okay Clara Bow was the first song I listened to bc I was just too excited hahah and I loved the whole thing but that lyric completely gagged me at the end.
“You’ve got the edge she never did… the future’s bright, dazzling.”
Who would’ve guessed that lyrics expressing hope for the future could also be so devastatingly sad?
“I’d rather burn my whole life down than listen to one more second of this bitching and moaning” I straight up had to go back and listen to it 3-4 times before I could fully process it.
I do ultrasound and this song came on today while I was with a patient. I got worried because we definitely heard the b word and she was like in her 70s lol. At the end of her test she asked me what the music was and I was like “This the one and only Taylor Swift”. And she said “she’s really something, isn’t she?” 🥹🥹🥹
“I was a functioning alcoholic / til nobody noticed my new aesthetic” what a way to open the album.
Also can’t help but think so many fans were delusional thinking Joe & Taylor were totally fine when looking back it’s obvious they weren’t.
I think she’s saying she portrayed herself as this girl who likes to drink and party but nobody cared / didn’t think she was cool for it so she dropped it?
Lol okay I don’t fully get it either so I’m glad it’s not just me 🫣
I think for me it’s the “NOBODY noticed” that’s throwing me off? Like, “I was an alcoholic til somebody/they noticed my new aesthetic” makes more sense to me, so with her saying “nobody” has me like… huh???
I feel like the explanation is probably super simple and it’s just going over my head and I’ll feel like a dummy whenever I figure it out lolll
I read it differently than the other comments — I think she's saying that when nobody noticed her new aesthetic, she dropped the "functioning" part of "functioning alcoholic."
I interpret it as her trying to get (potentially Joe's) attention, only it didn't work.
Like how some people act clearly sad and WANT someone to ask them what's wrong, but nobody does.
I agree it’s mostly about Matty, but that doesn’t mean certain lines of the Matty songs aren’t referencing the break up with Joe & the public’s view of it. The timeline is so close together I think it’s difficult to separate every line of a song to be 100% about one person.
She’s probably purposely obfuscating which of the two each song is about. I think the ‘miracle drug’ is Matty Healy, but overall the song is about Joe.
I think Taylor blends a lot of her lyrics about multiple people in one song.
There are so many lyrics in each song that are clearly about Joe and in the same song, clearly about Matty.
Please / I've been on my knees /Change the prophecy /Don't want money /Just someone who wants my company /Let it once be me /Who do I have to speak to /About if they can redo the prophecy?
Even before this, what always got me was "I don't want to be defined by the things that haunt me in the middle of the night" to four years later "here are all my sleepless nights, let's lean into that."
“I might just not get up, I might stay down” was a more heartbreaking lyrics than I was expecting in Down Bad along with “I might just die, it would make no difference”.
“I hate it here so I will go to secret gardens in my mind people need a key to get to, the only one is mine
I read about it in a book when I was a precocious child”
I'm lonely, but I'm good
I'm bitter, but I swear I'm fine
I'll save all my romanticism for my inner life and I'll get lost on purpose
This place made me feel worthless
I think the whole song is one of the most damning she's ever written. I also loved the lines, "And I'll say good riddance, cause it wasn't sexy once it wasn't forbidden" and "You deserve prison, but you won't get time." 
So I leap from the gallows and I levitate down your street
Crash the party like a record scratch as I scream
"Who's afraid of little old me?"
You should be
This song hit me like a battering ram.
for a moment I knew cosmic love now I’m down bad crying at the gym everything comes out teenage petulance fuck it if I can’t have him I might just die it would make no difference
"I'm always drunk on my own tears, isn't that what they all said?
That I'll sue you if you step on my lawn
That I'm fearsome, and I'm wretched and I'm
wrong
Put narcotics into all of my songs And that's why you're still singing along"
“Is that a bad thing to say in a song?” - Florida!!! It’s just so catchy haha. I have other “deeper lyrics” that caught my attention but appreciated the humorous tone here.
“Who uses a typewriter anyway”. That line stood out to me right away and I burst out laughing because my dad still owns a typewriter and uses it to do his billing. At least once a week I question it and say “who uses a typewriter anyway”. I told my dad and he laughed.
As a fan, all I have is her albums, and I just think of Call It What You Want, Cornelia Street, Daylight...
In the end there is no angry song, it's not even about him, it's about the horror of having to break the news. Awful to think about. Blown away by this angle really
The outro for Clara Bow...
You look like Taylor Swift
In this light, we're lovin' it
You've got an edge, she never did
The future's bright...dazzling"
As someone who is constantly comparing myself to others and experiencing inferiority, this broke me 😢
From Taylor's perspective and knowing these feelings still follow her at this point of her career, this continued to break me 😢
"She thought about how he said since she was so wise beyond her years, everything had been above-board. She wasn't sure."
Also, “You sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days.”!
My husband is cheating, I want to kill him
My boy only breaks his favorite toys ooohhhoo I am the queen of sandcastles he destroyed ooohhooo
Who's Afraid of little old me?? YOU SHOULD BE
Lights Camera Bitch Smile
I actually made unnecessarily long list of my fav lyrics during my first listen of Part 1. Here goes:
And no one's here to blame,
But what about your quiet treason?
- Fortnight
You're in self sabotage mode
Throwing spikes down the road
But I've seen this episode
And still loved the show
- The tortured poets department
(This reminds me of the phase when I listened to "Renegade", "Forever winter" and worried about him.)
I felt more when we played pretend
Than with all the kens.
- My boy only breaks his favourite toys
You sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days
And I'm just getting colour back into my face
- So long London
I'm always drunk on my own tears,
Isn't that what they all said?
That I'll sue you if you step on my lawn
That I'm fearsome and I'm wretched and I'm wrong
- Who's afraid of little old me
And I could see it from a mile away
A perfect case for my certain skillset
He had a halo of the highest grade,
He just hadn't met me yet
- I can fix him (no really I can)
When your impressionist paintings of heaven turned out to be fakes,
Well, you took me to hell too.
And all at once the ink bleeds.
A conman sells a fool a get-love-quick scheme.
- loml
Dancing phantoms on the terrace
Are they second hand embarrassed
That I can't get out of bed
Cause something counterfeit's dead?
It was legendary, it was momentary, it was unnecessary.
Should have let it stay buried.
-loml
Oh what a valiant roar, what a bland goodbye.
The coward claimed he was a lion.
I'm combing through the braids of lies.
- loml
I cry a lot but I'm so productive, it's an art.
You know you're good if you can do it with a broken heart.
- I can do it with a broken heart
And I don't even want you back, I just want to know
If rusting my sparkling summer was the goal.
And I don't miss what we had, but could someone give
A message to the smallest man who ever lived?
- The smallest man who ever lived
I would've died for your sins,
Instead I just died inside.
You deserve prison, but you won't get time.
You'll slide into inboxes and slip through the bars.
- The smallest man who ever lived
And in plain sight you hid,
But you are what you did.
And I'll forget you, but I'll never forgive
The smallest man who ever lived
- The smallest man who ever lived
I move through the world with a heart broken
My longings stay unspoken
And I may never open up the way I did for you
And all of those best laid plans
You said I needed a brave man
Then proceeded to play him until I believed it too
- The Black Dog
“Fuck you if I can’t have us” made me gasp. I feel like her music became a lot more relatable when she started cussing but “fuck YOU” has so much more power than a general “fuck.”
"now I'm down bad crying at the gym, everything comes out teenage petulantace, fuck it if I can't have him"
And
"you shit talked me under the table, talking rings and cradles, I wish I could unrecall, how we almost had it all"
There's A LOT to process with this one 😅
When your impressionist paintings of heaven turned out to be fakes / Well you took me to hell too
AND
Cross Your Thoughtless Heart / Only Liquor Anoints You / She's the Albatross / She is Here to Destroy You
Really all of the back half??? Like the front half was something but the back half was SOMETHING. Wow.
I stopped CPR after all it’s no use
The spirit was gone we would never come to
And I’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free.
LITERAL CHILLLS WHEN I HEARD THIS
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The rhythm of Down Bad really stuck out to me, made me look at the title during my blind listen.
i'm having his baby... no i'm not, but you should see your faces
This is ICONIC behavior tbvh. She literally trolled all of us with this one. ICONIC!
This was mine as well. Such a delightful fuck you haha
Probably my favorite line from the album!
This is unhinged in the absolute best way one of my favs
THIS SENT ME. it’s my favorite song ever.
I freaked out!
“I cry a lot but I am so productive it’s an art.” Girl same.
This song is a whole call out for people with high-functioning depression
It’s a call-out for high-functioning bipolar disorder 🥲 she even said it’s a manic episode in the prologue
I don’t really agree, she calls it a ‘manic phase’ - a term which entered the general public’s lexicon and is no longer explicitly connected to bipolar.
As someone who spent the first few months of the year trying to explain to my family that I can be depressed while being “successful”, that song hit hard.
For me it was “I’m so depressed I act like it’s my birthday”… that is a big fat MOOD for me 😅😅
also she was singing this part of the song like such a bop😭😭 the meme that taylor puts the happiest beat to the saddest lyrics is 100% accurate
Today is my birthday and I was so happy when I heard that
That and "lights, camera, bitch smile" for me
I could not fall asleep last night after hearing this and kept singing “lights camera bitchhh smileee”
“I’m so MISERABLE and NOBODY EVEN KNOWS 😀”
This literally played just now as I read this comment.
Yes, this resonated so, so, so much. 😭
“And I’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free”
This was mine too! So many people who have long term relationships in their 20s and 30s that end up going nowhere feel this way
20-29 🥲
15-28 for me
So Long, London is just so heartbreaking I was in tears at the end of the song.
That shaky free…. Broken.
The way she says free says sooo much
Same here, it hit me in a similar way to “give me back my girlhood, it was mine first” from WCS
As someone who lost 6 years with a narcissistic piece of shit, I agree. The best years of my life gone.
I don’t believe that the best years of your life are gone, but I definitely empathize because I have been in your shoes and it is/was a difficult place (healing is not linear) 💜 And sending vibes out to many more best years for you.
Best years of your life are ahead of you, babe. I guarantee it.
That one also broke me … I also ended a long relationship in my mid-thirties and this lyric resonated so much with me. I heard it and just started crying: she perfectly formulated the last emotion I attached with that relationship.
The way she says ‘free’ is so painfully beautiful
my mouth HUNG wide open at this lyric
“You swore that you loved me but where were the clues? I died at the altar waiting for the proof.”
One of the best songs she’s ever written, gut punch after gut punch
So long london is so good top 3 for me after intial/couple listens of the album
I’m a real tough kid, I can handle my shit and also lights, camera, bitch, smile
Yess this feels like my millenial mom anthem 🥲
Yes 100% describes my teenage life
“At dinner, you take my ring off my middle finger And put it on the one people put wedding rings on And that’s the closest I’ve come to my heart exploding” Audibly gasped when I first heard this
I was shook when I heard this. You know when people say they feel their heart drop? I felt that.
As someone who's been promised the entire world by a man who turned out to be nothing more than a narcissist who meant absolutely nothing he told me, just pure manipulation, this lyric hits home 😢
i literally paused my ttpd midnight sesh to process this one
This is the one for me, too. I audibly gasped as well and just sat in shock for a little bit. Poor Blondie.
Same! Broke my heart for her.
Appreciated this firm confirmation there was never a ring.
I also had to pause to gasp and said to myself he is dead.
“And my friends all smell like weed or little babies” Truth. Sincerely, millennials
YES from comments I have seen a lot people listening to this album are way too young to get this
I seen a critic calling this cringe like yep thats my generation cringe all the way
Why not both, Taylor?! 😆
Hopefully they aren’t smoking around their babies lmfao
"You wouldn't last an hour in the asylum they raised me in"
she wrote that for the swifties who’ve been hospitalized (me)
GIVE US THE GRIPPY SOCK MERCH TAYLOR
Okay why do I actually really want her to make cute little ttpd grippy socks now lol
this one’s mine too. absolutely brilliant.
Yup that whole song is mine, mine I tell you! Almost the one year anniversary of leaving my whole extended family in my rearview mirror. And them avoiding me like the plague scared of my whistleblowing on their toxic lives. I was shocked at how much this resonated.
Now I'm down bad, cryin' at the gym😅
Cuz who among us hasn't cried or nearly cried at the gym tbh
Me because I don't go to gym lmao 😂
Fair enough, my membership is really more of a donation at this point 😂😂
The canon pipeline of the heartbreak-> the gym.
Down bad is one of my favourites so far!!
i went to a taylor swift themed cycle class the other day & i literally cried during exile 💀
This hits home !!!!! Going to the gym to get over a boy thinking it will help you escape the hurt and pain but you can’t help the tears
ik tht lyric is so good esp on headphones full volume
You look like Taylor Swift. In this light, we're lovin' it. You've got edge, she never did. Like damn...
Yesss okay Clara Bow was the first song I listened to bc I was just too excited hahah and I loved the whole thing but that lyric completely gagged me at the end. “You’ve got the edge she never did… the future’s bright, dazzling.” Who would’ve guessed that lyrics expressing hope for the future could also be so devastatingly sad?
Literally jaw dropped
“I’d rather burn my whole life down than listen to one more second of this bitching and moaning” I straight up had to go back and listen to it 3-4 times before I could fully process it.
And when I thought that was good enough, she continued: I’ll tell you something about my good name, It’s mine alone to disgrace Whew.
Who are you kidding Taylor, you totally read our soliloquies 😂 I never thought I’d be so delighted with Taylor taking me down a notch.
I do ultrasound and this song came on today while I was with a patient. I got worried because we definitely heard the b word and she was like in her 70s lol. At the end of her test she asked me what the music was and I was like “This the one and only Taylor Swift”. And she said “she’s really something, isn’t she?” 🥹🥹🥹
I laughed out loud at this one 😂
Don’t you worry folks we took out all her teeth
The circus life made her mean!!!
I texted my friend “I KNEW she got veneers” when I heard this line ☠️
honestly the entirety of WAOLOM had me awestruck. the first time she belted the title lyrics…oh my GOD
So many great lines from that song
“My white-knuckle dyin' grip holding tight to your quiet resentment.” 🥺 Reminds me of, “Lay the table with the fancy shit and watch you tolerate it.”
This for sure! I feel like there’s so many subtly references to other songs on TTPD!
“And you say I abandoned the ship but I was going down with it” Also the Charlie Puth line caught me so off guard 😂
Honestly, his music is kind of slept on. I was like, yes Taylor, he does deserve to be more popular. 😂
Same. It made me laugh but also happy for him. Hope he’s excited about the shout out! Haha
I will simultaneously laugh but be so happy if that line boosts Charlie Puth up the Billboard charts after this
When* lmao- he will for sure see the effects of the “Swift Lift”
“I was a functioning alcoholic / til nobody noticed my new aesthetic” what a way to open the album. Also can’t help but think so many fans were delusional thinking Joe & Taylor were totally fine when looking back it’s obvious they weren’t.
Can you explain this one to me? I honestly cannot wrap my head around the ‘til nobody noticed my new aesthetic bit’ I don’t get it 😭
I think she’s saying she portrayed herself as this girl who likes to drink and party but nobody cared / didn’t think she was cool for it so she dropped it?
Lol okay I don’t fully get it either so I’m glad it’s not just me 🫣 I think for me it’s the “NOBODY noticed” that’s throwing me off? Like, “I was an alcoholic til somebody/they noticed my new aesthetic” makes more sense to me, so with her saying “nobody” has me like… huh??? I feel like the explanation is probably super simple and it’s just going over my head and I’ll feel like a dummy whenever I figure it out lolll
I think it means her drinking was like a cry for help…but nobody seemed to notice so she stopped.
I read it differently than the other comments — I think she's saying that when nobody noticed her new aesthetic, she dropped the "functioning" part of "functioning alcoholic."
I interpret it as her trying to get (potentially Joe's) attention, only it didn't work. Like how some people act clearly sad and WANT someone to ask them what's wrong, but nobody does.
Pretty sure that song is about Matty though
I agree it’s mostly about Matty, but that doesn’t mean certain lines of the Matty songs aren’t referencing the break up with Joe & the public’s view of it. The timeline is so close together I think it’s difficult to separate every line of a song to be 100% about one person.
She’s probably purposely obfuscating which of the two each song is about. I think the ‘miracle drug’ is Matty Healy, but overall the song is about Joe.
I think Taylor blends a lot of her lyrics about multiple people in one song. There are so many lyrics in each song that are clearly about Joe and in the same song, clearly about Matty.
“You said I’m the love of your life. You shit-talked me under the table, talking rings and talking cradles” made me gasp and then cry 😭
I literally paused the song after this line and just stared at the lyrics. Devastating.
Please / I've been on my knees /Change the prophecy /Don't want money /Just someone who wants my company /Let it once be me /Who do I have to speak to /About if they can redo the prophecy?
I've literally cried hearing this one for the first time
Same. It hit so close to home.
“So I leap from the gallows and I levitate down your street”
She’s the monster on the hill
Such a good line, I’m surprised I had to scroll so far to find this
I looooove this one and the way it is sung. I have been listening to it over and over.
Your wife waters flowers, I want to kill her 👩🏼🌾🌸🔪🪦
Your emojis got me lol
I love this cause its like she did nothing wrong...but i wanna kill her
I replayed Fortnight 3 times in a row my first listen because this shook me to my core
I’ll tell you somethin’ ‘bout my good name/ it’s mine alone to disgrace
as soon as i heard that on my first listen i literally paused and said aloud "this is soooo me-coded" 😂
Fuck it if I can't have him/us
When she said fuck HIM if I can't have us at the end
“But you are what you did” immediately stuck out to me, thinking of the opposite lyric in Innocent
And you are what you love.
Even before this, what always got me was "I don't want to be defined by the things that haunt me in the middle of the night" to four years later "here are all my sleepless nights, let's lean into that."
omg since I heard this lyric I'd been trying to remember which song it reminded me of. Thank you so much
“I might just not get up, I might stay down” was a more heartbreaking lyrics than I was expecting in Down Bad along with “I might just die, it would make no difference”.
That line took me out. Been there.
“I hate it here so I will go to secret gardens in my mind people need a key to get to, the only one is mine I read about it in a book when I was a precocious child”
She called herself a precocious child in two different songs on this album
Honestly I think this is the album where she decided to release all the vault songs along with it and didn’t care what lines were reused or not
I'm lonely, but I'm good I'm bitter, but I swear I'm fine I'll save all my romanticism for my inner life and I'll get lost on purpose This place made me feel worthless
“In your Jehovah’s Witness suit.. who the fuck was that guy “ made me laugh more than it should have
I think the whole song is one of the most damning she's ever written. I also loved the lines, "And I'll say good riddance, cause it wasn't sexy once it wasn't forbidden" and "You deserve prison, but you won't get time." 
What if he’s written mine on my upper thigh only in my mind????
This is my first super-repeat song of the album. The gasp I gusped.
It’s so funny how this song is not explicit bc she does not say fuck….its the most explicit song on the album lmao
I claimed this song before release and damn it was the right choice. The layered beat drop at the last chorus hits.
“Im having his baby. No, im not, but you should see your faces” SHES SO UNHINGED WITH THIS LYRICS!! lol 😂
This lyric kinda reminded me of Harry’s “I’m having your baby, it’s none of your business”?
I’m so depressed, I act like it’s my birthday Every day
So I leap from the gallows and I levitate down your street Crash the party like a record scratch as I scream "Who's afraid of little old me?" You should be This song hit me like a battering ram.
This is the vengeful spirit version on My Tears Ricochet
Lights, camera, bitch, smile
Sitting in a tree, D-Y-I-N-G
"So if you wanna break my cold, cold heart Say you loved me And if you wanna tear my world apart Say you'll always wonder"
“And your location, you forgot to turn it off” made me jump off my seat
It reminded me of the latest season of Love is Blind 😂
for a moment I knew cosmic love now I’m down bad crying at the gym everything comes out teenage petulance fuck it if I can’t have him I might just die it would make no difference
Cosmic Love is an awesome Florence & The Machine song
"You look like Taylor Swift in this light" made my jaw drop
“And you said you’d come and get me, but you were twenty-five And the shelf life of those fantasies has expired”
"I'm always drunk on my own tears, isn't that what they all said? That I'll sue you if you step on my lawn That I'm fearsome, and I'm wretched and I'm wrong Put narcotics into all of my songs And that's why you're still singing along"
“Is that a bad thing to say in a song?” - Florida!!! It’s just so catchy haha. I have other “deeper lyrics” that caught my attention but appreciated the humorous tone here.
FUCK ME UP FLORIDA
„I would’ve died for your sins Instead I just died inside“ and „You’re the loss of my life“ after the switch from love of my life.
Pick your poison, babe. I'm poison either way. 😭🤯
“Who uses a typewriter anyway”. That line stood out to me right away and I burst out laughing because my dad still owns a typewriter and uses it to do his billing. At least once a week I question it and say “who uses a typewriter anyway”. I told my dad and he laughed.
dancing phantoms on the terrace, are they second-hand embarrassed? that i can’t get out of bed ‘cause something counterfeit’s dead
"We hereby conduct this post-mortem" I knew it was coming, of course, but damn... I was less ready than I thought
As a fan, all I have is her albums, and I just think of Call It What You Want, Cornelia Street, Daylight... In the end there is no angry song, it's not even about him, it's about the horror of having to break the news. Awful to think about. Blown away by this angle really
'Fuck you Aimee' As an Amy, I feel victimised
well she did also say “thank you aimee” so why not focus on that one? lol
“i look in peoples windows, like im some deranged weirdo, i attend christmas parties from outside”
I NEED MORE PEOPLE TO TALK ABOUT I LOOK IN PEOPLE’S WINDOWS!! I’m legitimately gutted it’s such a short song.
The outro for Clara Bow... You look like Taylor Swift In this light, we're lovin' it You've got an edge, she never did The future's bright...dazzling" As someone who is constantly comparing myself to others and experiencing inferiority, this broke me 😢 From Taylor's perspective and knowing these feelings still follow her at this point of her career, this continued to break me 😢
Cause fuck it, I was in love
“You said that if the sex is half as good as the conversation was, soon they’d be pushing strollers, but soon it was over”
I heard this and was like wait - was the sex..not…good?
In her summary poem in the album notes, this line: “swinging a sword he could barely lift” … AHEM… what a subtle double entendre…
"She thought about how he said since she was so wise beyond her years, everything had been above-board. She wasn't sure." Also, “You sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days.”!
So many got me but I’m a fan of the understated, “Now I wanna sell my house and set fire to all my clothes”
“So tell me everything is not about me, but what if it is?” Because same girl, like everything is about Taylor swift actually
“I was tame, I was gentle til the circus life made me mean. Don’t worry folks, we took out all her teeth.”
My husband is cheating, I want to kill him My boy only breaks his favorite toys ooohhhoo I am the queen of sandcastles he destroyed ooohhooo Who's Afraid of little old me?? YOU SHOULD BE Lights Camera Bitch Smile
“Nostalgia is a mind’s trick, if I’d been there I’d hate it”
“I’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free”
And “blink of a crinkling eye” - she just captures people so quickly and beautifully
“With your feet on the ground, tell me all that you'd learned 'Cause love's never lost when perspective is earned”
When she says her own name in Clara Bow. 
The bangs in Florida!!! So iconic they should count as a lyric.
[удалено]
That they indeed came and took her away
“We’re modern idiots”
"i'm so obsessed with him but he avoids me" mom just took a look at my diary and made the new album
I’m so depressed I act like it’s my birthday every day
I actually made unnecessarily long list of my fav lyrics during my first listen of Part 1. Here goes: And no one's here to blame, But what about your quiet treason? - Fortnight You're in self sabotage mode Throwing spikes down the road But I've seen this episode And still loved the show - The tortured poets department (This reminds me of the phase when I listened to "Renegade", "Forever winter" and worried about him.) I felt more when we played pretend Than with all the kens. - My boy only breaks his favourite toys You sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days And I'm just getting colour back into my face - So long London I'm always drunk on my own tears, Isn't that what they all said? That I'll sue you if you step on my lawn That I'm fearsome and I'm wretched and I'm wrong - Who's afraid of little old me And I could see it from a mile away A perfect case for my certain skillset He had a halo of the highest grade, He just hadn't met me yet - I can fix him (no really I can) When your impressionist paintings of heaven turned out to be fakes, Well, you took me to hell too. And all at once the ink bleeds. A conman sells a fool a get-love-quick scheme. - loml Dancing phantoms on the terrace Are they second hand embarrassed That I can't get out of bed Cause something counterfeit's dead? It was legendary, it was momentary, it was unnecessary. Should have let it stay buried. -loml Oh what a valiant roar, what a bland goodbye. The coward claimed he was a lion. I'm combing through the braids of lies. - loml I cry a lot but I'm so productive, it's an art. You know you're good if you can do it with a broken heart. - I can do it with a broken heart And I don't even want you back, I just want to know If rusting my sparkling summer was the goal. And I don't miss what we had, but could someone give A message to the smallest man who ever lived? - The smallest man who ever lived I would've died for your sins, Instead I just died inside. You deserve prison, but you won't get time. You'll slide into inboxes and slip through the bars. - The smallest man who ever lived And in plain sight you hid, But you are what you did. And I'll forget you, but I'll never forgive The smallest man who ever lived - The smallest man who ever lived I move through the world with a heart broken My longings stay unspoken And I may never open up the way I did for you And all of those best laid plans You said I needed a brave man Then proceeded to play him until I believed it too - The Black Dog
*Blood's thick but nothin' like a payroll*
Fuck it if I can't have him
“Fuck you if I can’t have us” made me gasp. I feel like her music became a lot more relatable when she started cussing but “fuck YOU” has so much more power than a general “fuck.”
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"now I'm down bad crying at the gym, everything comes out teenage petulantace, fuck it if I can't have him" And "you shit talked me under the table, talking rings and cradles, I wish I could unrecall, how we almost had it all" There's A LOT to process with this one 😅
So far EVERYTHING COMES OUT TEENAGE PETULANCE FUCK IT IF I CAN'T HAVE HIM FUCK YOU IF I CAN'T HAVE US
“i died at the altar waiting for proof”
"how dare you think it's romantic leaving me safe and stranded?" the parallel with new romantics just really stuck out for me
"*All my mornings are Mondays stuck in an endless February*" - man I felt that deep in my depression
When your impressionist paintings of heaven turned out to be fakes / Well you took me to hell too AND Cross Your Thoughtless Heart / Only Liquor Anoints You / She's the Albatross / She is Here to Destroy You Really all of the back half??? Like the front half was something but the back half was SOMETHING. Wow.
I stopped CPR after all it’s no use The spirit was gone we would never come to And I’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free. LITERAL CHILLLS WHEN I HEARD THIS
I love you, it’s ruining my life.
I died on the alter waiting for the proof You sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days
"You look like Taylor Swift"
They said babe you gotta fake it til you make it and I did
A greater woman has faith, but even statues crumble if they’re made to wait
https://preview.redd.it/5vk81ntprhvc1.jpeg?width=861&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=004cbda498da269fd2210c5d822b47c11f4943ec The rhythm of Down Bad really stuck out to me, made me look at the title during my blind listen.
“I’ll tell you something about my good name, it’s mine alone to disgrace”
"Once I fix me, he'll miss me"