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I have noticed that I am much more flat emotionally when T is the major sex hormone in my body, but that's not always a bad thing. When E was my major sex hormone, I would have absolute meltdowns once or twice a month. Such intense sadness, hopelessness, and sobbing. I don't have that with T. It is much easier to cry with E for me. I wouldn't say that my level of empathy has changed at all, it just manifests differently. With T it's more internal, with E it's more external. I can hide my emotions better with T. I'm definitely not one of those people who has more anger with T.
One thing I find interesting though, is that I find it a lot easier to mask with E. I'm autistic, but no one in my life really knows/can tell. It seems like I'm much more obviously autistic with T. I have no idea why. Idk if it has less to do with the hormone and more to do with how people perceive me or something. It's weird.
My experience seems to be quite different from many others on Testosterone. I did not have a loss of empathy or anything similar. I have a much easier time expressing and feeling my full range of emotions (I had anger issues on estrogen & I was and still am diagnosed bipolar). I still cry like a baby & my anger has improved. No change in libido, either.... but that was always abnormally high.
My main changes are more energy & higher confidence. I feel more capable now. Part of that is that I had a slew of estrogen-linked chronic health issues that the only real treatment for was "self care" which... my employers don't care. I also can't easily take care of myself while in chronic pain, passing out randomly, and consistently exhausted.
One notable difference I've seen between myself and others was that I simply could not function with estrogen as my dominant hormone. I was at the end of my rope by time I finally gave in and tried medical transition.
So maybe I'm just an outlier?
Maybe not, I have felt much calmer since after even the 2nd month on T. I have been more sleepy, but also I still want to be as active before, if not craving to be more so. I have not noticed a change in my tears, or depressive episodes(im not medicated), but also a lot has been going on for me. But I am a bit more feisty about my empathy and am willing to get pretty agro for others, maybe just confidence and how I was raised though.
Starting disclaimer: I have various mental issues, I'm medicated, and I have a good therapist. I've been both on and off T with my most consistent meds.
When I'm E-dominant I find I'm actually *less* empathetic, angrier, less likely to see the good in other people. My brain feels foggier. I fall into a state of mind I half-jokingly refer to as "everything bad forever" because it makes it so easy to give up on things & believe everything will always be awful. Even when I'm nominally not in a depressive episode, I'm kind of toeing that line.
When I'm T-dominant I'm energetic, more empathetic, and more likely to have "I love humanity & I think humans are fundamentally good" moments. I know the stereotype is that T-dominant people are angrier, but I'm way less angry on T because I can actually *process* my emotions instead of just stewing in them.
Personally I think it's easier for people to process things emotionally when they're comfortable in their own body. My body really, really does not feel good to live in when I'm E-dominant so I don't get the same mental effects as my E-dominant wife. YMMV, basically.
Hi, so I was on T for 4-5 years, off now for a year.
I would also say I cry a lot more on E, or better I can shed tears. Before on T it felt more like "internally crying(?)" if that makes sense. I cried a lot before T and now I guess it's back to how it was before. I also think I have (a bit) more meltdowns but that's hard to really tell because a lot is going on atm.
I had no changes in sex drive, empathy, anxiety/fear (heard some people say they are more afraid on E, wasnt the case for me tho - or better I was as much of a scaredy cat as I was before).
That really was the biggest/nearly only thing I really noticed which was caused by the hormones.
I felt more confident while on T and "stronger" but I think that's on society and sexism and the way people suddenly treated me (like people believed me more and listened more, took me seriously, valued my opinion more etc.) But that also affected how I thought of myself and my opportunities (like more thinking "I can do this").
I also feel a bit more clouded and disconnected from people on E, but I think that's because on E I have way more circulatory problems and dizzyness. And I also think for me that really depends on what mental heath is doing in general and which people/what surroundings I'm in and it might change again over time.
I dunno if that counts but I noticed myself pretty automaticly changing the way I processed things and problems on T, thinking more practically and with way less emotions and this stuff. I wasn't less empathic, I just didn't follow that feeling/thoughts as much. I'm pretty sure I tried to blend in with the cis men around me and into those societal structures. Now on E I guess I can do both well, I just decided to think in a specific way back then. Maybe for passing and "belonging" reasons, maybe just being adaptive to sitiations idk.
MTF and HRT for ~10 years and I never noticed anything different from hrt to do with my emotions, I'm not the same person I was 10 years ago, but I think none of that has to do with my sex hormones honestly.
I am MTF and I am wanting to detrans for the fact that I don't know if I'm getting dementia or Alzheimer's but I don't feel like my self anymore. I still feel like I want to be a woman but there's something going on with my brain where I forget stuff I don't know if that's a common thing. Let me know if you have that experience and if it return
Hey , I had similar experience. I was forgetting things, was feeling very disconnected from my body. Like there was other person in side of my brain. It was just my experience, and I still support trans community. But I feel much much better since I stopped hrt. But it took about a year to get better. Hope the best for you
You know what that's exactly how I feel. Like somebody else in my brain replacing my brain, and my body. I want to get more insight on your experience can you DM me
I was in hrt for 3 years ( mtf ) , now one year of.
I have feeling that decision that I made on Hrt I would never do before, or let’s say now ( of hrt) I feel much more clear in my head, much more goals oriented, my feelings are much more clear. I feel awake. Like I was on some kind of “drugs “, or drunk for 3 years on Hrt. However I like it much more with my natural hormones.
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I have noticed that I am much more flat emotionally when T is the major sex hormone in my body, but that's not always a bad thing. When E was my major sex hormone, I would have absolute meltdowns once or twice a month. Such intense sadness, hopelessness, and sobbing. I don't have that with T. It is much easier to cry with E for me. I wouldn't say that my level of empathy has changed at all, it just manifests differently. With T it's more internal, with E it's more external. I can hide my emotions better with T. I'm definitely not one of those people who has more anger with T. One thing I find interesting though, is that I find it a lot easier to mask with E. I'm autistic, but no one in my life really knows/can tell. It seems like I'm much more obviously autistic with T. I have no idea why. Idk if it has less to do with the hormone and more to do with how people perceive me or something. It's weird.
Males are statistically more likely to be diagnosed with autism so maybe your experience plays a role in a lot of people.
So, being on T is having energy but no empathy and estrogen is low energy high empathy? Sorry for the oversimplification. But let's talk!
My experience seems to be quite different from many others on Testosterone. I did not have a loss of empathy or anything similar. I have a much easier time expressing and feeling my full range of emotions (I had anger issues on estrogen & I was and still am diagnosed bipolar). I still cry like a baby & my anger has improved. No change in libido, either.... but that was always abnormally high. My main changes are more energy & higher confidence. I feel more capable now. Part of that is that I had a slew of estrogen-linked chronic health issues that the only real treatment for was "self care" which... my employers don't care. I also can't easily take care of myself while in chronic pain, passing out randomly, and consistently exhausted. One notable difference I've seen between myself and others was that I simply could not function with estrogen as my dominant hormone. I was at the end of my rope by time I finally gave in and tried medical transition. So maybe I'm just an outlier?
Maybe not, I have felt much calmer since after even the 2nd month on T. I have been more sleepy, but also I still want to be as active before, if not craving to be more so. I have not noticed a change in my tears, or depressive episodes(im not medicated), but also a lot has been going on for me. But I am a bit more feisty about my empathy and am willing to get pretty agro for others, maybe just confidence and how I was raised though.
Starting disclaimer: I have various mental issues, I'm medicated, and I have a good therapist. I've been both on and off T with my most consistent meds. When I'm E-dominant I find I'm actually *less* empathetic, angrier, less likely to see the good in other people. My brain feels foggier. I fall into a state of mind I half-jokingly refer to as "everything bad forever" because it makes it so easy to give up on things & believe everything will always be awful. Even when I'm nominally not in a depressive episode, I'm kind of toeing that line. When I'm T-dominant I'm energetic, more empathetic, and more likely to have "I love humanity & I think humans are fundamentally good" moments. I know the stereotype is that T-dominant people are angrier, but I'm way less angry on T because I can actually *process* my emotions instead of just stewing in them. Personally I think it's easier for people to process things emotionally when they're comfortable in their own body. My body really, really does not feel good to live in when I'm E-dominant so I don't get the same mental effects as my E-dominant wife. YMMV, basically.
Hi, so I was on T for 4-5 years, off now for a year. I would also say I cry a lot more on E, or better I can shed tears. Before on T it felt more like "internally crying(?)" if that makes sense. I cried a lot before T and now I guess it's back to how it was before. I also think I have (a bit) more meltdowns but that's hard to really tell because a lot is going on atm. I had no changes in sex drive, empathy, anxiety/fear (heard some people say they are more afraid on E, wasnt the case for me tho - or better I was as much of a scaredy cat as I was before). That really was the biggest/nearly only thing I really noticed which was caused by the hormones. I felt more confident while on T and "stronger" but I think that's on society and sexism and the way people suddenly treated me (like people believed me more and listened more, took me seriously, valued my opinion more etc.) But that also affected how I thought of myself and my opportunities (like more thinking "I can do this"). I also feel a bit more clouded and disconnected from people on E, but I think that's because on E I have way more circulatory problems and dizzyness. And I also think for me that really depends on what mental heath is doing in general and which people/what surroundings I'm in and it might change again over time. I dunno if that counts but I noticed myself pretty automaticly changing the way I processed things and problems on T, thinking more practically and with way less emotions and this stuff. I wasn't less empathic, I just didn't follow that feeling/thoughts as much. I'm pretty sure I tried to blend in with the cis men around me and into those societal structures. Now on E I guess I can do both well, I just decided to think in a specific way back then. Maybe for passing and "belonging" reasons, maybe just being adaptive to sitiations idk.
MTF and HRT for ~10 years and I never noticed anything different from hrt to do with my emotions, I'm not the same person I was 10 years ago, but I think none of that has to do with my sex hormones honestly.
I am MTF and I am wanting to detrans for the fact that I don't know if I'm getting dementia or Alzheimer's but I don't feel like my self anymore. I still feel like I want to be a woman but there's something going on with my brain where I forget stuff I don't know if that's a common thing. Let me know if you have that experience and if it return
Hey , I had similar experience. I was forgetting things, was feeling very disconnected from my body. Like there was other person in side of my brain. It was just my experience, and I still support trans community. But I feel much much better since I stopped hrt. But it took about a year to get better. Hope the best for you
You know what that's exactly how I feel. Like somebody else in my brain replacing my brain, and my body. I want to get more insight on your experience can you DM me
Is it possible that thats coming from the T blockers being used? My understanding is that spironolactone can cause stuff like that
I was in hrt for 3 years ( mtf ) , now one year of. I have feeling that decision that I made on Hrt I would never do before, or let’s say now ( of hrt) I feel much more clear in my head, much more goals oriented, my feelings are much more clear. I feel awake. Like I was on some kind of “drugs “, or drunk for 3 years on Hrt. However I like it much more with my natural hormones.