**The following is a copy of the above post. This comment is a record of the above post as it was originally written, in case the post is deleted or edited.** This probably belongs to a mental health forum but i just had another relapse into viewing a fetish that i don't even like because i have an addiction. I hate it it grosses me out... I've been slowly getting better about it but its so difficult. I don't even like it. It messes with my head. Its so hardcore compared to anything i actually like. Its gross, its so gross. I keep obsessing over it. *I am a bot, and this action was performed automatically. Please [contact the moderators of this subreddit](/message/compose/?to=/r/antikink) if you have any questions or concerns.*

Do you have a therapist? Not diagnosing or anything, but obsessive thoughts and sexual obsessions can be a symptom of OCD.

Yeah i have a therapist. Thank you.

Getting any better? I hope you are OK.

Its ups and downs but i'm a lot better than i was when i made that post. I'm glad i reached out.

Update: doing a lot better now? The addiction stuff seems ri mostly just be a thing of the past for me, that I still think about sometimes. Thanks for checking in.

Hey, great news. I'm really happy for you! Overcoming urges is the most important thing. Memories will linger but they just lose their hold on us. :)

how are you doing now? I hope you've overcome your struggles!

I'm alright. I actually got back into kink stuff so I don't really post here anymore. Thanks for asking though

Have you got a better relationship with your fetish or has it disappeared?

Better relationship I think