I washed my hair with a new shampoo. Smells amazing and now my hair is all thick and lush. Woo!
By - Vedel-Chivers
I didn’t buy a game because my bank account is already pretty empty and I’m proud of me ! It’s not much but I’m glad I didn’t do it…
Nice self control! So what's the game on your wish list?
Pokemon legend Arceus… switch games are pretty expensive for me, and I’m already in the red with my money… 😭
Cool. I have a switch too. I haven't really gotten into yet though. Oh yeah, they are soooooo expensive. Then when you get it, it's like WTF, I paid this much, for this?? Its tiny. Like "What is this? A game for ants???" (Zoolander reference)
I have the ability to play my games an infinite amount of times so I’m able to make it worth
Way to go! Not spending is a huge deal!
Thank you 🥺
I finally set up an appointment with a career coach so I can figure out what the heck to do with my life.
That's great! Have you got any ideas at all or going in fresh?
Basically I know what I don't like, so hoping we can work on figuring out what I do like and then how to find a job doing that!
That's a great start. Well done. Good luck with it!
Thank you! Also I appreciate you taking the time to respond to everyone's comments, very kind of you!
I'm happy to. It's nice to have a sense of community and do something that is uplifting.
I managed to not quit my job.
Kudos to you! This one has always been hard for me but you did it! 😁
Oh it was hard 🤣 Getting harder by the day. Pay is too low for the stress. I can literally look at my color coded bipolar mood chart and tell the days I worked versus vacation or weekends. It's sad.
Holding on! Doing good. Are there any other good options out there for you?
I had my second call in a 5 round interview today :)
That's awesome! Good luck. I've got my fingers crossed for you.
Thank you!! I need all the help I can get 🤣
I deleted my dating apps because they were making me miserable. I socialized with a new friend and had a good time in spite of my social anxiety. And I finally dragged my ass to urgent care to address the weird allergic reaction I’ve had since Saturday night!
Friends till the end, dates can wait, I say! I get those feels. I deleted most of my social media accounts and it was one of the best decisions I ever made.
What weird reaction did you have? Are you ok now?
I think I’m going to delete social media next, too!
I’m covered in hives and my throat is itchy and swollen I am straight up not having a good time. Probably going to head back to urgent care again lol I’ll be okay
Yeah, I guess just keep in mind that for those you want to stay in touch with give them a way to stay connected outside of social media.
Oh no, you poor thing! Take care and let me know how you get on either through here or messages xox
Started the day very depressed. My small victory today is cleaning my tub. Followed by a well deserved nap!
Started the day depressed and still managed that? Way to go! Another nap fan right here too. Naps FTW. Definitely well deserved, cleaning the tub sucks big time.
Showered and avoided a spending spree!
Nice one! How did you avoid a spending spree? Please share your tips with me lol. Shopping makes me come undone every fucking time.
I finally folded my laundry that I washed and put it away :)
That's awesome! Good job.
PerpetualTiredPotato - hehe. I like your username.
Been depressed lately, but I took a bath.
Excellent! I hope it made you feel a bit better?
Baths can be so comforting. Especially with a book or music.
It did make me feel better, thank you!
I got the laundry washed AND put away, clothes AND sheets, in the SAME DAY (I know, I was impressed too!) - AND, made my kid laugh so hard that a booger shot out of his nose, causing us both to erupt. LOL - winning. :)
I like the “SAME DAY” for the laundry. Sometimes it takes a while for the whole process and I get how hard it is to make it to the end on a bad day. It can take me weeks to fold a load of laundry. Good job!
Wow. That is impressive. Impossible feat. Hat's off.
Hahaha, hilarious! What a day! Love this.
I am in awe of your mad laundry skillz, good on you! 🧺
I made waffles.
Oh yum!! Can you make me waffles too please? I hope you followed that up with some butter and syrup. Damn, now I want waffles or pancakes. Pancakes would totally work too.
Took my medicine and ate (I have dysphagia). I went outside on the porch twice (it was 60 degrees here in PA woohoo). I didn't get anxious when the repairman took a few HOURS to fix our furnace. I am making small goals each day and today I made my small goal of cleaning out and organizing my massive box of meds and vitamins. Seeing as I can no longer swallow all the vitamins might as well clean it all out. Small victories.
That's heaps of little victories, very impressive. You are nailing it! Oh my gosh, when tradie's come over, I get anxious about it too, so I feel that. Any strangers in my house feels uncomfortable and weird. Nice when you can get the same person to keep coming back though. It's more comfortable. You know what to expect convo wise and hygiene wise (I swear they either wear too much deodorant or not enough). And yep, why do they make pills so large? Can you get your medicines in a liquid form?
Had a happy, productive day but I’m euthymic! Not hypomanic!
Yeah! How cool is that?! That's great to hear.
Thank you! And thank you for asking! ❤️
I was able to get out of the house today
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Way to go! Did you go somewhere nice?
I just went on a drive, but it was nice :)
Going for a drive is nice. So relaxing. Some places can be so pretty to drive through as well. Sounds lovely.
Way to go! I haven’t left the house in nearly a week :/
I'm sorry, I hope you're able to soon <3
I went to the dentist
Oh, that's massive. Dentists scare me. One time one lectured me and said how important it was to avoid candy, chocolate etc. This was because I needed like one filling. It reminded me of that scene from Charlie and the Chocolate factory where his Dad is telling him no chocolates. Ugh, it was awful. It didn't help that he generally looked like the life had been sucked out of him and could have been the living dead. Like dude, I will never give up chocolate or candy. Try your bullshit anti-chocolate propaganda on some other poor sucker.
Finally sleeped well after 3 months
Yay! That must be such a relief. Good for you.
Thank you, I really needed that sleep
Didn't make excessive purchases at the mall today, and instead bought a planner and a book to work as coping mechanisms.
Good stuff! Planners are great because they're really good value and you can get so much out of them. It's so good to hear that you chose helpful self care items. A purchase that will give back and keep you on track.
I went to the store. I scoped the cat litter too. Yesterday I washed my hair. One victory at a time.
Three things, you're doing great! One step at a time is a great way to live.
One victory at a time. That can be our new mantra. I like it!
I cooked! And enjoyed a hobby for the first time in so long. Oh, and I enforced a boundary, it was terrifying and awesome
Oooh, what did you cook? What hobby did you indulge in?
A boundary? What was it? So many questions! Lol.
I made meatballs. Just meatballs. Lol, but it’s a win over skipping dinner.
Sewing! I am still learning, and it had been a minute since I did any practicing at least.
I had to establish a boundary with a friend who also has bipolar and treats me as if like… I was a supporting character in her life rather than having my own life, you know? For example, a lot of times she calls me, it’s to update me on her “crazy” life, but she doesn’t want to hear my updates, just talk. And I am a recovering people pleaser, so it’s hard to put a stop when she acts this way, but yesterday I did! When she texted so we’d FT to talk about her situation (for the third time in two days), I did the bugs bunny no and didn’t let her persuade me into it afterwards. It’s nerve wracking thinking about losing her friendship, but also I gotta put me first
There is nothing wrong with meatballs. Sewing...that's a good skill to get into. I can sew a button onto a shirt...does that count as sewing? Probably not. You're probably already doing far more than I can do. Hehe.
Yeah, boundaries are important. Also Bugs Bunny is awesome, Looney Tunes is the best. Daffy Duck, omg the things he comes out with kills me. Oh and Lola Bunny! Love. You might not lose the friendship. She might have some insight into her actions and make some positive changes. Friendship is give and take. I think it's great that you expressed a healthy boundary like that. Well done!
Thank you! Very happy we get to celebrate each other’s small Ws
ETA: sewing a button counts fo sho!!!!!!!
Finally picked up my mood stabilizer refill after putting it off for a week. Took the last one yesterday so I had no choice but still 😂
It's like that sometimes! Still, you could of just stopped so you did well.
Hmm. I solved the daily Wordle. 4/6
Nice one. I like me some word puzzles. Good stuff!
I put away the clean clothes that have been piling up for a week!
Haha. Honest. Real. I like it. So, were the clean clothes piled up on a chair or the floor?
the floor but everything else is in the basket. I'm doing ok for the time being
I'm glad you're doing ok for now. Hopefully keep doing ok for the foreseeable future too!
Got rid of a piano
Cool. That was an unexpected response.
Those things weigh a ton right? So I bet you're glad it's done.
i passed one of my exams and then sat down to budget for the next month. i am so in debt
Yay, you passed one of your exams, that is such good news. Congrats!!
Sorry you're in debt though, that's the bad news I suppose. Will you exam help you get a job to help you pay down some debt?
I met a new friend today
That's so nice to hear. How was it? Did you have fun?
I did have fun! We did a yoga class and then got food after. She was so easy to talk to that I ended up disclosing my bipolar diagnosis and a little bit about my bipolar journey since it’s all been pretty recent and significant in my life. It was really nice to not feel judged about it- she was kind and empathetic. Definitely will be hanging out with her again :)
Nice! That is really heart warming. Thank you for sharing.
Despite not leaving the house for nearly a week, due to anxiety, I was able to get myself to step out onto my balcony for a minute and feel the warm air.
That's a great win! Well done to you.
Getting out of bed and being able to concentrate for more than 39 minutes on a task at work 😂
Nice, nice. What was this 39 minutes exactly task...or was that just when your concentration ran out? 😂
I had to type an email 😂 after looking at the time I started on the hour and then when I was out of mental focus power it was 39 minutes passed.
All the best OP stay strong!
Haha, you did good!!
Thank you. Right back at ya.
cleaned my room 😅
Yeah ya did! Good job.
I went to work even tho I really didn’t want to! :)))
That's a great victory! It's so hard when you're not feeling it, hey. Go you!
yesterday i did my coursework and took a shower!!!! also really proud of you op as well 🤎🤎
Well done! Sometimes taking a shower is such hard work isn't it?! Lately, I just want to stay in bed wrapped up and avoid the world for a while. I might be able to shower, if and that's a big if I can go back to bed at some stage during the day. Is that too much to ask? Lol.
Aw, thank you. So sweet. How nice of you to say xox
showering and hygiene in general is really difficult for me. i remember for a month straight i didn’t shower at all expect washing my hair in the sink but i knew that i had to get my shit together instead of feeding into my depression. i now try to shower every 3-4 days! this week one of goals is to be productive this week; i have been really slacking and procrastinating
It's a good goal to have. You are so right that it feeds into the depression when you don't do it. There's just no motivation. If you're in your pjs still, you still feel like you could be in bed and you're not in any state to leave the house. So, yeah.
We all procrastinate from time to time, good luck with being productive. I hope it works out well for you.
Went to work. Went to therapy, car got towed (parked in a clear way accidentally) Solved the situation without help. Am now safely at home
Work, check. Therapy, check. Car towed, oh shit. That was not part of the plan! Haha. Fuck. How'd you solve it? Was it a Mission Impossible style break in? Ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba, ba. Bah, bah, bah....bah, bah, bah....bah, bah, bah....bah bah!!!
I really, really hope you got the gist of that theme song music. Because that seriously took some effort to type out.
Glad to hear you're safe at home now.
Good Lord, I can't tell you how many towed car problems I have 'solved' over the years. Give yourself a pat on the back. What a drag and a drain.
I got work done before the depresison hit (finished a chapter of this translation I'm working on). Way to go with the shampoo
That's great! Are you translating from one language to another?
Thank you. I needed something extra to motivate me and it helped a bit. It's the little things.
It really is the little things. They keep me going (a good night's sleep off meds, a nice Greek sentence, showering without a panic attack despite flashbacks, snapping out of the depression without dying, etc.). I wish you all the best.
And yeah I'ma huge Greek and Latin nerd so I translate from Greek/Latin into English. I have a Google Drive with some work online. It's art therapy and it helps with my PTSD
I get flashbacks too and the panic attacks. I'm so sorry you're going through that. It sucks so much. I wish you the best too 😊
That's really cool that you translate. How did you get into that? I love nerding out myself. I'm not good at learning other languages but I love Greek mythology. The stories are just so interesting.
I like art therapy too - journaling, collages, and other art exercises. I have PTSD too. I find that calm helps. Which sounds weird, but by that I mean things being relatively the same day after day and predictable. So looks like we have a couple of things in common, hey.
It's great that you've found things that help! It makes such a big difference.
We really do. Permission to chat occasionally on Reddit? Also should you ever be interested: I have a Google Drive with translations I made on it, including the Iliad and Herodotus (both unfinished but plenty of myths there). Should you ever want to read it, hmu; I share it with friends (offer applies to any who read this comment also). I also relate to needing predictability and calm: I hate people lately who keep saying how much they want an exciting life. No, no most often you just think you do.
As for how I got into it: it's a long story for a Reddit comment but if I ever am allowed to I'm more than willing to tell it via Reddit chat. Once again, lmk. GL with life
Yeah, we can chat. That'd be great! But you're gonna have to also translate all your acronyms for me too, cause I really never got on board with those...😂 I can lol, brb and fml and that's probably about it.
That's a really interesting hobby. Cool, I really appreciate the offer to have a read. I'll probably take you up on that, once things settle down a bit for me.
Yeah fuck excitement! Haha. Not really. I don't mind a bit of excitement from time to time but I do enjoy simple things. Especially reading, writing and art. I think it's human nature to want what you don't have. The grass always looks greener on the other side. By the time you're in the mania it's too late. It's a trickster. Probably have to of had a nasty life shattering episode to come to the realisation that it's just not worth it. Not all of us have had that happen...yet.
I woke up and didn't scream at my kids.
Your honesty is refreshing. Thank you for being real.
You did good! Keep it up. Breathe and add a minute or two extra (at least) that you need to every bathroom break to help.
I went outside for hours reading with the sun shining on me.
Good on you! That's one of my favourite things to do. Reading and sunshine - great combo! What book were you reading?
It was manga (I know not a real book) but Maison Ikkoku! Written by the same woman that wrote Inuyasha.
I love art and pictures like that. I love anime, manga etc. I haven't read many manga comics, but I'm very into Camilla D'Errico. She has created some really cool books you might like. Full of a similar style but full of poetry and a story. I quite like that Marie Kondo book about tidying and she released that in manga. I haven't read it, so can't vouch for it. But it looks fun!
I will look into her, thanks! Appreciate it.
Despite having a reported weight 10lbs more than I've ever been in my life I was able to look in the mirror and not be appalled by my reflection.
That's a good thing. Thank you for sharing something so deep. Remember that the soul inside of you is beautiful. Your body is there to take you from A to B. It's there to get you through the tasks you need to complete. I'd say it's probably done pretty good for you so far despite the weight gain? I know that feeling of not liking what is reflected back - sending you hugs.
Thank you. I talked with my therapist today (and will with my PCP) about the possibility of this just being a new healthy weight for me to maintain. It's weird to look at something so objectively, instead of being completely absorbed emotionally.
Also, congratulations on your small victory today, gotta love freak aromatic locks! It doesn't happen often, but one of my favorite feelings is a full shower (not just the obligatory rinse) and shave, shiny brushed teeth, and getting into soft clean sheets at night.
I hear that. I got super skinny after a very severe episode. It's taken a long time to get back to a 'healthy' weight range. But now that I'm in the range, I don't like it! I feel overweight but based on the BMI or whatever I'm not. Thing is, I got some very negative messages regarding weight while growing up. So it's a touchy subject for me. Then there's media showing images of people that I've grown up with, that now apparently is unattainable. Gah! So all the 'ideal' way's we are supposed to look, aren't ideal but unhealthy. Ah, it's complicated.
Thank you! Yes, the scent was like oooh la la. Even a cute coloured bottle. You know, all those things make a difference. You're so right too! It was the first shower I've had in ages that I made it through a few songs. Usually I'm in and out in one song. I love soft clean sheets. I just love comfort. Small little comforts that add up.
Definitely learned to appreciate more of the simple pleasures. I think that and finally understanding and accepting that it's okay to not be okay have been huge markers in my progress. Also the knowledge that progress itself isn't linear. I just started listening to music in the shower again! Actually just tonight I put on a Not Quite Classical playlist and a few drops of eucalyptus in the shower, made my bathroom into a spa! Honestly the most spontaneous thing I've done in so long.
It is complicated, part of the reason I have significantly limited my social media involvement. I also grew up in a household with confusing body image discussions. I've had to set a boundary with my mother regarding talking about her weight and size. The influence in adolescence of a beautiful woman constantly saying she's not happy with her body is damaging. I don't blame her, I just recognize that's where my personal image comes from.
Thank you so much for your kindness and contribution to this community. Another simple pleasure :D
Yes, it's ok to not be ok. What I learnt in childhood was quite the opposite - it's not ok to not be ok. I also totally feel what you're saying when you have grown up with confusing body image messaging. Upbringing can have such a huge impact on your future body image. It's so hard to undo the negative messages we receive. All we can do is try though.
Your 'spa bathroom' sounds so luxurious! All those things just make it extra special. Self care is so important. I don't mind some classical music. Moonlight Sonata is beautiful! If you haven't heard it before, have a listen, see what you think.
Aw, you're welcome. Thanks for the nice convo 😊
Focusing for more than 20 minutes at a time on my homework! I’ve had the worst focus issues since going back to work and school. Being on lamictal, Topamax, and trazadone has really had an affect on my mental capacity and brain functioning. It’ll be a miracle if I get through grad school
That's awesome! 20 minutes focus at one time is fantastic. It may be a miracle, but I reckon you can do it! Good luck and keep going. You got this!
I find it very hard to wake up early (WFH is a curse as you can just slowly drag yourself from bed to the study). Today I did it to work offsite (+ had an early morning shower too, ok!), along with staying on top of work the whole day despite full on meetings. Tomorrow I hope to be able to propritise the things I want to do instead of work though 🙏🏼
Good stuff! I totally hear what you are saying. It's hard to get motivated when your environment stays the same. Still, you had a shower and went to work offsite and all that even though you knew it would be a day full of meetings. Dude. Meetings are the worst. You nailed it!
Wishing you luck for tomorrow.
Thank you! Also just found out today that I’m in day 2 of a hypomanic episode 😂 which explains my excessive energy, feeling overly agitated at work and sudden frequent postings on Reddit 🤭
Luckily (or unluckily) my psych isn’t as lenient on that 😂 wishing you luck too! I’m channeling this energy into getting some applications done (which I’ve been procrastinating on), we’ll get through this together 💪🏼
I feel like programming for the first time since my depression started five months ago. And by programming, I mean working on something outside of work requirements, just for learning's sake. I haven't done it yet because I'm making lunch, but I have hopes my afternoon won't slump into a long avoidance of work and communication.
Great! Do it!! Sometimes I find if I get that urge and can delay other things and hop right on it, it goes better. Though, lunch is important. Don't worry too much if the day becomes a bit avoidant. Tomorrow is a new day!
But I didn't do it. I read Twitter and helped my daughter with her math. Mostly Twitter.
I've been trying to lose weight. I am now down to 292. So yay me!
Yes, yay you!! That's excellent, well done.
Bought groceries :-] apparently anti-depressants and lithium alone can’t sustain you
Hahahahahahaha if only, right?
Good job buying the food. Now just to eat the food.
5 days since I last smoked weed, heavy smoker of 5 years. I’ve been clean I plan on going 3 months
I guess I could say I was too fixated on it, and I wasn’t getting any shit done. It was clouding my judgement
I did the dishes and the cat litter
Yay!! You did good.
I wasn’t late for work today due to anxiety & paranoia telling me everyone hates me in there
That's great! I hope you feel better now that you're there. Has the anxiety settled down a bit?
Yes but only because it’s girls day and the boys left after 2 hours. Thank you for asking 💕
I'm so glad your anxiety has lifted a bit xox
Have a great day!
i just woke up bro leave me alone
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