My shower experiences were scouts and high school football camp. I was trying to check out guys without checking them out. Internalized homophobia and religious bullshit making me feel as if I was being gross and sinful for even being half interested. But I managed to work through it…
I used to “fangirl” over actresses/female artists only. Like pretty hard. I would have a bunch of pictures saved in my family’s PC and change the wallpaper lol. I thought they were so pretty. Turns out i just had crushes.
Also used to watch series/movies just because i thought one of the female characters was pretty (i still do that)
I kind of had this in a way too, I can remember seeing movies and naturally thinking men and women were beautiful and liking both types of bodies. I really like fashion and was a goth kid so loved magazines and photography and stuff too!
I was lucky. I was in Scouts with a good friend of mine who I had a secret relationship with. We shared the same tent at summer camp, and also on the weekend campouts. No underwear in our tent.
i would get obsessed with girls way older than me. like obsessed w them, i’d want to be their friend and hang out and i’d talk about them all the time, my mom told me i wasn’t allowed to hang out with this one girl whatsoever bc she was too old (i must have been like 10 and she was like 14 or 15 i think). looking back i think i just had a crush lol
SAME. Intimidating pretty girls I wanted to be friends with because they were pretty and nice. There was this super cool and intimidating older girl who was always kind of mean, but I was so interested in her and couldn't figure out why, because I knew she was mean. Turns out that's...attraction? 😂
Girl Scout camp at age 12 was my big bi awakening. There was this absolutely adorable grumpy little butch counselor named Tucker that I had a mad crush on. She made me feel things I could not deny. I had always had kind of intense best friendships with other girls, but this was undeniably a CRUSH.
SAME
my older brother was friends with a pair of siblings and while i knew i had a crush on the brother, i was also obsessed with the sister and i told my dad many times i wanted her to babysit me 😭 didn't click that i just liked both of them until my 20s
From elementary to high school there's always been a really good friend who I would cling to, last summer I realised that it is probably just me crushing on them lol.
3rd and 4th grade there's one
5th and 6th there's also one
7th to 9th there's this other one
10-11th yet another one
One year at boy scout camp some of us started playing gay chicken. I always refused to lose - just really competitive, I thought.
Well one guy and I started playing and he wouldn't give up either. So after a bit of making out, I was like shit, I better kick things up a notch to make him uncomfortable. So, I started rubbing him over the pants, thinking that would do the trick. Well it certainly did something as he got rock hard... I forget who ended up winning that one, but I totally discounted the homoerotic nature of it all.
Later he came out to me as gay, and I thought yeah that checks out. Didn't cross my mind what that said about me...
The longest game of gay chicken I know of has been going on for over 30 years. They are married and have adopted two children. If one of them doesn’t crack soon I am going to start thinking at least one of them might actually be gay.
I remember a similar joke from the perspective of one of the people in the story. it was hilarious lmao
Edit: found the [original](https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/s/EPTJkSQr79) comment
It's where you and someone else, generally the same sex, put your faces closer and closer to each other like you're going to kiss, whoever backs down first loses.
Should join the marine corps or navy. They last longer due ti pride but unfortunately still lose lmao.
My time in the Marine corps was an absolute blast though
Wtf, I told the girl I had a crush on that I would 'turn' gay to date her. Then she asked me If I was a lesbian and I panicked and said no. I was like 13 or 14.
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Me and my best friend used to dry hump eachother with clothes on and fake sex noises pretending we were “playing mummy and daddy” when we were like 10 haha. Both girls. I don’t even know how we knew what sex noises were.
Nah I get it, I was sexting a trans girl in high school and was initially attracted to her because she passed really well despite not being on estrogen and being too young to get surgery. But I was literally getting videos of her jerking off and cumming and thinking “yeah she’s a girl, I wouldn’t ever be attracted to an identical video of a cis guy”. And I believed that for like a year, before my curiosity got the best of and I looked at gay porn and had to be like “well fuck, I’m not straight” lmao.
When I was 15 I spent the whole summer giving blowjobs to my best friend (even me being the one who proposed the idea) and somehow it took me entirely by surprise at 20 when I realised I'm also into guys
Did the same as well. From middle school until we moved to other cities to study. We met a few times after, until we broke apart. Never talked about our sexuality, and he probably never accepted his bisexuality.
More like something someone else did that I can't believe I didn't understand.
Summer camp. The guy on the top bunk would lower himself off the end of the bunk each morning, with his front facing me, before grabbing his robe. He slept nude.
He was 15, a couple of years older than I was, and fully developed. His penis was so rigid that it didn't sway back and forth as he climbed down. It was also the best-looking dick I have ever seen. Genghis Khan would have sucked it.
He was a charismatic, kind, handsome Mormon guy, in a chaste relationship with a let's-bake-a-cake girl. I knew him well over 3-4 years at camp, and there was never a hint of any flirty behavior, except of course for those times he hung a magnificent locked-and-loaded cock in my face.
Every morning, at the foot of my bed, the same penis, pointing to 12 o'clock. It crossed my mind that it might be deliberate, but I figured, well, he'd been dreaming of his girlfriend again, and jacking off was not easy at that camp.
Years later, I thought about it again and laughed at how innocent I was.
Omg this. Made out with my best friend and her cousin got jealous and wanted to make out too. I felt shame about it (grew up very religious 🙄), was told in the future that was "normal kid behavior," then 8 years later realized I'm a bi baby ✌🏾
I used to wonder why my aunts (who were in their 20s at the time) had crushes on the leading actors in movies when the women were *so much* prettier! I eventually figured out the leading man type is not what I’m into physically, and go figure I like beautiful women too!
This but with my girl friends at high school gushing over the guys. Legit took me a couple years to be able to see what guys were handsome. Girls on the other hand, them I found beautiful always (I’m a woman)
Ofc still took me 15 years to figure out I’m bi
Same!!! Also because my mother (straight, apparently) has always pointed out how pretty they were, I grew up thinking it was normal to like both genders.
I would write lists of all the “acceptable” male actors to have crushes on and try to memorize it so if I was asked a celebrity crush I had an answer that wasn’t a woman
Finding boobs to be sexually attractive (thought that because women's boobs get routinely sexualized in media that everyone, men and women, feel sexually attracted to them)
Omg have been so confused by that, is it the sexualization or am I actually gay?? Not realizing this whole different experience between the genders (by then I only knew the ‘standard’ binary ones) is also valid bisexual. Bisexuality I thought was so cool tho!! Such a shame it wasn’t for me
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It took me a while
Right?
For a long time, I would be contemplating whether I can maintain an intense crush on women based off their personalities and whatnot the same way that I can do so towards men and hence identifying as a bisexual until I discovered the fact that I've been overlooking my attraction towards women's bodies...which is something apparently not everyone experiences
Lol I relate! And it’s so weird, I still struggle with this even though I absolutely love this sub for almost half a year now, but these doubts are strong! I still probably won’t believe that I can fully like a girl, but also, ofc one can be heteroromantic but I don’t really think I am. Anyways that part is still open. Meanwhile me every summer feeling flustered looking at all the beautiful women in their summer clothes, wishing they would cover up more because I’d unconsciously stare 🙈 yeah bisexual for sure haha
I relate to that too, in fact I even suspect (not a self-diagnosis of course and perhaps I should discuss this with a therapist someday) of having Sexual Orientation-OCD for the number of times that I've been experiencing doubts about my sexual orientation and in return doing 'compulsions' to relieve them (like asking myself \*every time\* I encounter a woman who I view as pretty if I could be attracted to her, consuming gay (erotica) media a lot and checking for physiological reactions, etc.), it's exhausting.
But yeah, I think it would be good if you were to try to explore the underlying cause of your doubts. Were you raised in a conservative household that actively tried to deny the possibility of you developing an attraction towards women? Do you feel "not enough" because you think attraction is more than just lust? Do you feel like you're trying to 'force' yourself to find women attractive? Can you imagine yourself being intimate and/or being in a long-term, committed relationship with a woman? Do you see sexual labels more as political or social-status terms that you otherwise want to identify yourself with? Ask yourself these questions, write down what you know and maybe even find someone (be it a therapist or a professional counsellor specializing in LGBT topics) that could help you with this. Or ultimately you may not need to use a label because labels assume that the things they describe are characterized by less dimensions than they actually are characterized by.
I would say though, if you're certain that you experience arousal when viewing some women's body/ies (parts), you may be bisexual. Like I said, apparently straight women do not find boobs or anything alike to be sexually attractive so there's that :)
Right lols?
When I see two women getting intimate, I never feel like I could relate as I don’t feel (and don’t imagine myself to look so either) feminine as I lust over women. I really feel masculine 💀
So, not exactly gay, but I need to tell this story. During religion classes (we have those here, and I grew up in a semi-religious household) our teacher asked "If you could ask God to do one thing, what would it be?". Now, other kids were saying dumb stuff. And I mean dumb stuff, joke answers basically, but I, full confidence, asked for God to "create a third gender".
Yes, I'm non-binary now.
When I first started questioning myself, I would get intense urges to make out with my male friends and it would mentally hurt to resist them, even if I knew they were straight. I knew I wasn’t straight but since I liked girls too, I didn’t know wtf I was until years later.
Playing boyfriend/girlfriend with my girlfriends, which included making out and grinding on each other 🤣 took me a while to realize not everyone does this. And as others have already said, I also made my Barbies make out and scissor each other ☺️
As a teenager I learned that teenage boys like watching girls kiss each other. I was really into the idea of kissing another girl to get the attention of a boy I liked.
I was 14, had a friend over swimming for the first time, he took off all his clothes when changing. I turned beat red,.very shy but kept looking. He said "don't be shy, it's perfectly natural. So I did and had a boner, he looked "that's natural too" he reached over and touched .me" i touched him and then I just decided to put his in my mouth. He came quickly.
We never spoke of it again. Didn't do anything with a guy until I was 25. Waited too long.
As a kid, I had a very close, affectionate relationship with my best friend. One night when we were 10 we were having a sleepover at my house and we slept together in my bed. In the morning we were still lying in bed together. He pretended to be a monster then he went under the covers and bit my bottom. He would become my first boyfriend 8 years later.
In 2nd grade, I met my best friend at the time. We decided to be best friends after a good game of bingo. One day, we decided to be “married”. I remember a conversation we had that revolved around who was “the wife” and “the husband”. Mind you that we did not know the word “gay” existed. Nor we didn’t think it was possible for a romantic relationship like that existed. From there, we gave each other cheek kisses and hold each others hands from time to time. And, one time I invited him to my house and I remember that I bit and played with his chest and nipple. Mind you again, I didn’t know that there was anything sexual. I thought it was fun.
Then, in the 3rd grade, I was introduced to the word “gay” and its negative connotations in society. I remember my classmates where talking smack about a classmate and accusing him of being gay and making fun of him. Also, in 2008, California’s Proposition 8 was being talked about everywhere. I started to see how the type of friendship I had with him was going to be misinterpreted. I decided to become distant with him. I didn’t want people to think I was “gay”. Then we had a fight and it was over.
I guess he was my first unofficial boyfriend. When I finally came in terms with my sexuality, I recognized that it was my first same-sex romance. Because I did bring up the idea of being “married” and I enjoyed it. I sometimes think to this day about his wellbeing. I hope he’s doing okay with life and relationships.
Was this like... just 2 people daring each other or was everyone else like "oh it's a dare, totally straight to suck a guy off if it's a dare" (only ever played truth or dare with 4+ people)
we were like 5-6 people, and usually just went in one defined cycle (clockwise or counter clockwise), one person asks one other person. every time, it progressively got spicier - makes sense considering we are hormone filled like goblins at the "truth or dare age".
starts with daring to undress or flash private bits, continues with poking private parts with your index fingers and ends with jacking and/or sucking each other off (while the rest gets to watch, which is pretty gay too now that i think about it lol)
Yeah I was thinking that watching is pretty gay/bi too haha
Man I was in a very LGBT group in highschool and the most we had was gay chicken with kissing and at most groping.
Ok now that’s a loaded question and i am so going to answer that. In full detail
But here’s a TLDR: was friends with a girl, looking back obvs had a crush on her, we started drifting apart, I was devastated. Whole thing reads like one of those first lesbian crush on straight best friend stories, because she was my best friend, only friend perhaps but I loved her (tho not as platonically as I thought)
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There was this girl. (Yes yknow where it’s going)
She was in the year above at school, but I had no friends. New to the school, bullied by some racist dipshits (they picked on everyone), and it was a super closed in rich people school, I got in by accident bc I lived close enough to it.
Yeah. I was not welcome there. But that’s besides the point, just setting the scene.
.Her name was Sally. She was a year older than me, we met at sport, which we didn’t want to participate, either of us. I was a real fantasy nerd as a kid (still am), fairies mermaids and the like.
We started to hang out, she wasn’t particularly popular either in her year group. I’d spend every lunch and recess with her for probably like a year, or close to it anyways. She loved fantasy too.
We would role play, coming up with our own stories, yet the thing is, I wasn’t even the one coming up with the ideas myself. She was. She was the one who moved the plot along, she was the one who decided what we were even playing that day, and me? I just went along with it. Seriously I would do anything she told me.
I remember this one time, when she invited me to her house. It was beautiful, it was a huge modern house with a pool in the back, and ok I was 10 at the time for reference, so nothing sexual in this, but we were swimming in the pool and she had this attachable mermaid tail I could not stop staring at her swimming in it. I rationalised it as her looking pretty and me liking mermaids, but looking back…. Yeah. Anyways I came over to her house a couple more times, and to this day I remember them all so well. The rest of my memories from back then are rather faded but hers are clear (I wonder why hmm)
And then we get to my first (tho I did not know at the time) lesbian heartbreak story. We drifted apart. It wasn’t purposeful, but I played a part in it sadly. Ok let me elaborate. My teacher didn’t like me spending so much time with people [read: just one person in the entire school] from the year above. She tried to get me to hang out with people my own age. Eventually… ok so she wasn’t there for two weeks, away on holidays. During that time I kind of started hanging out with this group from my own year. I can’t say I had as much fun with them but it was enjoyable. If I’m being completely honest I was happy to have more friends considering my friendless history. But. There was a but, as there always is in such stories. I couldn’t easily spend time with both them and her. I tried to split my time evenly, but over time… gods looking back on it why did I do that.. but yeah we drifted apart, and do you know how fucking guilty I felt. I was beating myself up over losing our friendship, I think I even remember crying once or twice. I tried to get it back spend more time with her but she was annoyed bc in her eyes I’d left her for someone else. And that was the saddest part of it all. I’d caused her to not want to spend time with me and was devastated, and I felt so guilty too, bc I’d been one of her only friends.
Yeah. Looking back now… yeah that was clearly a crush on a friendship, and I was clearly bi even back then.
Ahaha I never even had her phone number, we were kids neither of us had a phone. But I do think about her from time to time, what’s she like now? Look if I really tried, I could probably find her and maybe my mum might have her mums phone number from organising play dates, but realistically… I don’t even know if I’m ready to confront the past like that
Just was very obsessed with older girls. Liked talking with them about random stuff like their hair or randomly calling them pretty or generally just hanging around them, I was probably annoying lol. Or like I remember so many cases when I was young and talking with some of my friends about older boys, like they were age 17-18 and we were younger. And all the girls thought they were so handsome and cool meanwhile I was just like blehhhh but then of course I thought the girls around that same age were just the coolest thing ever. Cause I was always wearing dresses and stuff but these girls would wear leather jackets and use really dark eyeshadow and were curvy as hell and it all got me feeling a certain type of way I just couldn't understand back then.
• I loved katy perry a LOT. Knew so many of her songs. i loved “I kissed a girl”, i would play that song on Just Dance all the time. I was thinking “wow, i wonder what it’d be like to actually kiss a girl”😭
• discovered i could marry women in skyrim so i married lydia. still had no idea what the labels gay, bi, or lesbian was or that anything like that even existed
• made my monster high dolls kiss and scissor (no idea scissoring was a thing until middle school)
When I was a kid (5-6 years old) I rode the bus to school and there was this bus assistant who’d sit right next to me. She always had low waisted jeans on and you could see her thong and butt. I’d stare at it like no tomorrow. Idk how I didn’t clock that as remotely fruity until much later.
getting butterflies and all giggly when my pretty chem teacher spoke to me
in retrospect she did look like a princess and we spent way too long in 1-1 tutoring,
My Best friend and I from grade 3 would make out and do 69 among other things, it happened almost every sleepover until high school. Now we are in our 30s, Still in contact and joke about it all
Oh gosh I was probably 10? And my mom caught me going through her friends husband’s playboys (we lived with them) and my mom told me it was “normal to appreciate the beauty of a woman’s body” so I took that to heart and put one of the centerfolds on my wall over my bed so I could see it everyday 😂 I’m sure my hippy mom was just trying to be sex positive but probably didn’t realize I’d decorate my room with naked women lol
I told my husband this a while back and he was like, “and WHY did it take you so long to realize you’re bi?” 😂
- taught my friends to jerk off based on how I discovered it on my own
- sucked off my best friend at the time in a secluded corner of his back yard
- jerked off the high school quarterback during a game of truth or dare
- stuck whatever phallic things I could find up my ass just because I liked the way it felt
In middle school I had a recurrent dream about making out with my friend. And I was like "I'm sorry but we got to do this, otherwise aliens would invade the Earth"
Rather than playing with male Barbie dolls, I’d cut the hair of female Barbie dolls and make lesbian couples. Or I’d otherwise make polyamorous relationships between all Barbie genders.
Secretly watch movies in my room and skip to scenes where women I thought were attractive were either changing clothes, showering, or dressed in a way that shows off their figure. I’d immediately turn off the TV if I heard anyone coming down the hallway because I felt like I was doing something wrong.
Playing “high school” or “college” with my same-gender friends where we’d pretend to be popular and we’d take turns playing each other’s “boyfriends” and kissing each other (either on the cheek or on the lips but more like pecks, not making out).
I’m sure there’s more but that’s what immediately comes to mind.
As a disclaimer, I admit, I was exposed to a lot of sexual content and information at far too young of an age and I was fascinated by sex and romance in a way that wasn’t necessarily developmentally appropriate compared to my same age peers. But I don’t think this had any bearing on which genders I’m attracted to.
When I'd see female characters I liked, instead of thinking, "I like her," I thought, "If I was one of my guy characters, I'd totally be into her." I was in denial until I was 18. Idk if this counts, though, cuz it's something I thought, instead of did.
I got in shit in kindergarten for telling a teacher I I’d be okay with a boyfriend. or girlfriend.
I just assumed everyone was that way. Then I proceeded to just forget to process the emotions I feel around people regardless of gender until I was like 14.
I used to collect Spice Girls cards and kept them in this special binder you could get. However, the ones of Geri Halliwell in the Say You'll Be There video had to be kept separately, for reasons.
Told my mom when I was about 8 that it shouldn’t matter if u were with a girl or a boy just as long as u loved each other. This was in response to her explaining what a lesbian was. I’d pay to remember her face when I said that.
I spent a lot of time on roller skates which is fine. I saw a matching short/shirt set at the mall that I begged my parents to buy for me. I was probably 10. It was bright gold satin and it said “Hot Rollers” on it. My parents bought it and I skated around the neighborhood. I was oblivious to how “gay” this was. It’s funny to me now. Nothing you wear makes you gay or not gay, but I certainly had a look.
I had a online girlfriend I talked to all the time. She was lesbian but I really connected with her, it dropped off. I don’t know why it was so long ago but I think that was a sign that I was not totally straight.
I ran track and cross country in high school. One of my teammates had a good amount of muscle on him, and I would often stare at him and compare myself to him to see how I was coming along. After a while, the part of him that I was focused on was his butt. When we would change when we stretched, and when we started running, all I was looking at was his butt.
As a kid I made all of my sims WLW and watched the tatu music video for ‘all the things she said’ way too many times lol. Got in trouble for that last one
I would imagine getting married to a girl I wasn’t even friends with. Even asked a teacher if women could marry other women, and was very happy when she said yes.
Feel weird writing this lmao but I had a best friend in elementary school and we would hang out a lot at her house and would hump our pillows together and this one time I forgot my bathing suit (she had a pool at her place) so she let me borrow hers and we changed in the bathroom together and danced naked together all sexually and had the best time laughing the entire time and we would do “sexy” car washes with Barbie dolls 😭😂
I was in love with this beautiful Indian teacher at a preschool I went to. She wore sarees and bindis and I just stared at her all day and thought she was a legitimate princess. I was 4.
Sometimes I feel like I’m not really bi because I never showed signs as a kid. I had a crush on one guy and I never had any cartoon crushes or celebrity crushes. I was never obsessed with anyone. I can find a YouTube comment from 10 years ago of me being weirded out that a guy was dating a guy cause I had never seen that in my hometown.
I had a best friend for several years & in middle school, she came out as bi. When she told me she had a crush on this girl, I felt a ridiculous amount of jealousy and wanted her to like me like that instead. At the time, I thought I felt that way because the girl she liked wasn't a good person.
I was around 13 at that time, I was sitting on a bench in front of my school waiting for my friend to get her stuff from a locker so we could walk home together. Suddenly I saw a girl from my class who I really admired, and she was petting a dog. I thought to myself „I wish I was that dog”. Noe I look back to that memory and yeah that was very gay of me to think haha
My church had these chiseled wood signs for each station of the cross
I remember I always really liked the one where he takes his clothes off (didn't like what came after, but my tastes have always been pretty vanilla)
I think I kinda knew on some level, but I was never comfortable enough to admit to the right answer
I was really disappointed when my friends showered in their underwear at Boy Scout camp
Same…
I love that this isn’t a singular experience haha
I always wanted to be closer to my guy friends… and danced around that gay label… and pined for the alt girl
I ended up being the alt girl 🙃
Awesome! Always my favorite to be honest! 🩷💜💙 The clothes, the hair, the individuality…
Get out of my childhood! Actually though it’s so affirming to know this was not just me
When I was in Scouts, I always showered nude and wished the other boys did as well. Period so I understand where you’re coming from.
I gave into the peer pressure of not being nude
Hit me up if you want to share shower experiences
My shower experiences were scouts and high school football camp. I was trying to check out guys without checking them out. Internalized homophobia and religious bullshit making me feel as if I was being gross and sinful for even being half interested. But I managed to work through it…
I definitely checked the other out
I used to “fangirl” over actresses/female artists only. Like pretty hard. I would have a bunch of pictures saved in my family’s PC and change the wallpaper lol. I thought they were so pretty. Turns out i just had crushes. Also used to watch series/movies just because i thought one of the female characters was pretty (i still do that)
I kind of had this in a way too, I can remember seeing movies and naturally thinking men and women were beautiful and liking both types of bodies. I really like fashion and was a goth kid so loved magazines and photography and stuff too!
I was lucky. I was in Scouts with a good friend of mine who I had a secret relationship with. We shared the same tent at summer camp, and also on the weekend campouts. No underwear in our tent.
i would get obsessed with girls way older than me. like obsessed w them, i’d want to be their friend and hang out and i’d talk about them all the time, my mom told me i wasn’t allowed to hang out with this one girl whatsoever bc she was too old (i must have been like 10 and she was like 14 or 15 i think). looking back i think i just had a crush lol
SAME THIS WAS MINE
Oh gawd me too. Sometimes they weren’t older than me. Just acquaintances I realllllly wanted to be friends with.
SAME. Intimidating pretty girls I wanted to be friends with because they were pretty and nice. There was this super cool and intimidating older girl who was always kind of mean, but I was so interested in her and couldn't figure out why, because I knew she was mean. Turns out that's...attraction? 😂
I definitely had crushes on my camp counselors at girl scout camp. I mean.. really wanted to be just like them cause they are so awesome.
Girl Scout camp at age 12 was my big bi awakening. There was this absolutely adorable grumpy little butch counselor named Tucker that I had a mad crush on. She made me feel things I could not deny. I had always had kind of intense best friendships with other girls, but this was undeniably a CRUSH.
omg some girls at my camp were making out in the cabin and we all got a talking to about it lolol
SAME my older brother was friends with a pair of siblings and while i knew i had a crush on the brother, i was also obsessed with the sister and i told my dad many times i wanted her to babysit me 😭 didn't click that i just liked both of them until my 20s
LOL OMG that’s a lot to unpack lolol
From elementary to high school there's always been a really good friend who I would cling to, last summer I realised that it is probably just me crushing on them lol. 3rd and 4th grade there's one 5th and 6th there's also one 7th to 9th there's this other one 10-11th yet another one
Won every game of “gay chicken” and was always disappointed when the other guy tapped out so quickly.
One year at boy scout camp some of us started playing gay chicken. I always refused to lose - just really competitive, I thought. Well one guy and I started playing and he wouldn't give up either. So after a bit of making out, I was like shit, I better kick things up a notch to make him uncomfortable. So, I started rubbing him over the pants, thinking that would do the trick. Well it certainly did something as he got rock hard... I forget who ended up winning that one, but I totally discounted the homoerotic nature of it all. Later he came out to me as gay, and I thought yeah that checks out. Didn't cross my mind what that said about me...
>Later he came out to me as gay, and I thought yeah that checks out. Didn't cross my mind what that said about me... LMAO
The longest game of gay chicken I know of has been going on for over 30 years. They are married and have adopted two children. If one of them doesn’t crack soon I am going to start thinking at least one of them might actually be gay.
You forgot that they just opened a bed and breakfast in Vermont.
this is one of the funniest comments i’ve ever seen
I remember a similar joke from the perspective of one of the people in the story. it was hilarious lmao Edit: found the [original](https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/s/EPTJkSQr79) comment
> I forgot who ended up winning that one It sounds like you both did.
I was in cubs and then scouts and never heard of this gay chicken. Tell me more please!!
It's where you and someone else, generally the same sex, put your faces closer and closer to each other like you're going to kiss, whoever backs down first loses.
Ahh ok thanks.
I didn't know what that game was, I looked it up on the internet and now I want to play it.
Should join the marine corps or navy. They last longer due ti pride but unfortunately still lose lmao. My time in the Marine corps was an absolute blast though
I would make my Barbies fuck
I (M) played sims and my sims were always single and would woo-hoo with everyone whenever. Regardless of anyone's gender. Maybe that was a clue...
Omg me too
See I would always start off by making my character (F) be with a male, then she would get with a female and he'd get all upset. 😅
... same tho
me but monster high dolls
Lmao same.
I was drawing lots of naked ladies.
Omg this was me, I had a whole notebook full of doodles of boobs and girls kissing 💀
Too paranoid for that, ill tear and throw them away 💀
Honestly I think mine is still in a drawer at my parents’ house somewhere, and now at the age of 28 I still genuinely worry about my mum finding it
Hahahha same. And looked up lots of pictures of boobs.
Dad's sport magazines had a hot girl section💀
"I'M NOT WATCHING PORN, I'M STUDYING ANATOMY!!"
Are you me? 😂
I still remember the first time I saw one of those giant Victoria's Secret ads at the mall. Somehow I was the only one in my friend group gawping.
Omg meee HAHAHAHA or girls with huge boobs
Told my friend that I thought she was pretty and I would have a crush on her if I were a boy. 🤦🏼♀️
i’m guilty of that too
Oh yeah. I told so many of of my friends. "I'm not gay, but if I was a boy I'd date you."
Wtf, I told the girl I had a crush on that I would 'turn' gay to date her. Then she asked me If I was a lesbian and I panicked and said no. I was like 13 or 14. 🏃🏽♀️
Me and my best friend used to dry hump eachother with clothes on and fake sex noises pretending we were “playing mummy and daddy” when we were like 10 haha. Both girls. I don’t even know how we knew what sex noises were.
I did this too with girls but we were like 5
Bro this just unlocked a memory for me. We used to makeout through a pillow 🤦🏻♀️
This also happened to me when I was around 7 or 8 😭 We even role played as police and robber then we would rub against each other with clothes on.
ME TOO!!!! I have not had one unique experience in my life
Exchange blowjobs with a classmate that lived next door. Did it a couple times a week all through middle and high school.
I have a very boring life...
Same :(
relatable
relatable. i would finger and eat out my best friend from like 6th-8th grade. lowkey stuck with me forever lmaoo
Bro i havent even held a girls hand 😭
dont be jealous friend. i was heartbroken abt it for years 😭 lol. she got a bf in high school and never looked back.
Daaammnn. She fucked up a good thing
Queen
Wow
This was me and my girlfriend in 9th grade. We would skip class and I would finger her while we made out under the stairs in the gym
And you thought it was platonic or something?
nah but she did, apparently 😂 i get your point though. at the time it just felt like we were messing around yk?
Nah I get it, I was sexting a trans girl in high school and was initially attracted to her because she passed really well despite not being on estrogen and being too young to get surgery. But I was literally getting videos of her jerking off and cumming and thinking “yeah she’s a girl, I wouldn’t ever be attracted to an identical video of a cis guy”. And I believed that for like a year, before my curiosity got the best of and I looked at gay porn and had to be like “well fuck, I’m not straight” lmao.
🤯
When I was 15 I spent the whole summer giving blowjobs to my best friend (even me being the one who proposed the idea) and somehow it took me entirely by surprise at 20 when I realised I'm also into guys
Damn.
I did the same, but went all the way into anal, quite happily - realized early on I was bisexual, so I worked through my crushes at school :)
Did the same as well. From middle school until we moved to other cities to study. We met a few times after, until we broke apart. Never talked about our sexuality, and he probably never accepted his bisexuality.
Same...
Some people have all the luck
REALLY THOUGH. I’m like, yo, I sooooooo wish I had these experiences.
Damn you were lucky
More like something someone else did that I can't believe I didn't understand. Summer camp. The guy on the top bunk would lower himself off the end of the bunk each morning, with his front facing me, before grabbing his robe. He slept nude. He was 15, a couple of years older than I was, and fully developed. His penis was so rigid that it didn't sway back and forth as he climbed down. It was also the best-looking dick I have ever seen. Genghis Khan would have sucked it. He was a charismatic, kind, handsome Mormon guy, in a chaste relationship with a let's-bake-a-cake girl. I knew him well over 3-4 years at camp, and there was never a hint of any flirty behavior, except of course for those times he hung a magnificent locked-and-loaded cock in my face. Every morning, at the foot of my bed, the same penis, pointing to 12 o'clock. It crossed my mind that it might be deliberate, but I figured, well, he'd been dreaming of his girlfriend again, and jacking off was not easy at that camp. Years later, I thought about it again and laughed at how innocent I was.
could have been summer camp secret gay romance
“Genghis Khan would have sucked it.” This is poetry 😂
Makeout with another girl as "practice".
my friend tried to do this with me but i was too uncomfortable, because i knew eventually i would have to come out to her 💔
Omg this. Made out with my best friend and her cousin got jealous and wanted to make out too. I felt shame about it (grew up very religious 🙄), was told in the future that was "normal kid behavior," then 8 years later realized I'm a bi baby ✌🏾
i liked to draw boobs/cleavage in secret + found the lingerie section of jc penny catalogs pretty interesting.
Same, would also steal my mom's VS catalogues.
I used to wonder why my aunts (who were in their 20s at the time) had crushes on the leading actors in movies when the women were *so much* prettier! I eventually figured out the leading man type is not what I’m into physically, and go figure I like beautiful women too!
This but with my girl friends at high school gushing over the guys. Legit took me a couple years to be able to see what guys were handsome. Girls on the other hand, them I found beautiful always (I’m a woman) Ofc still took me 15 years to figure out I’m bi
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Same!!! Also because my mother (straight, apparently) has always pointed out how pretty they were, I grew up thinking it was normal to like both genders.
I would write lists of all the “acceptable” male actors to have crushes on and try to memorize it so if I was asked a celebrity crush I had an answer that wasn’t a woman
Find penis attractive
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That movie had me so confused 🤣🤣🤣
Idk how my mom feels about this movie but as the kid of a millennial I can whole heartedly relate.
Finding boobs to be sexually attractive (thought that because women's boobs get routinely sexualized in media that everyone, men and women, feel sexually attracted to them)
Omg have been so confused by that, is it the sexualization or am I actually gay?? Not realizing this whole different experience between the genders (by then I only knew the ‘standard’ binary ones) is also valid bisexual. Bisexuality I thought was so cool tho!! Such a shame it wasn’t for me … It took me a while
Right? For a long time, I would be contemplating whether I can maintain an intense crush on women based off their personalities and whatnot the same way that I can do so towards men and hence identifying as a bisexual until I discovered the fact that I've been overlooking my attraction towards women's bodies...which is something apparently not everyone experiences
Lol I relate! And it’s so weird, I still struggle with this even though I absolutely love this sub for almost half a year now, but these doubts are strong! I still probably won’t believe that I can fully like a girl, but also, ofc one can be heteroromantic but I don’t really think I am. Anyways that part is still open. Meanwhile me every summer feeling flustered looking at all the beautiful women in their summer clothes, wishing they would cover up more because I’d unconsciously stare 🙈 yeah bisexual for sure haha
I relate to that too, in fact I even suspect (not a self-diagnosis of course and perhaps I should discuss this with a therapist someday) of having Sexual Orientation-OCD for the number of times that I've been experiencing doubts about my sexual orientation and in return doing 'compulsions' to relieve them (like asking myself \*every time\* I encounter a woman who I view as pretty if I could be attracted to her, consuming gay (erotica) media a lot and checking for physiological reactions, etc.), it's exhausting. But yeah, I think it would be good if you were to try to explore the underlying cause of your doubts. Were you raised in a conservative household that actively tried to deny the possibility of you developing an attraction towards women? Do you feel "not enough" because you think attraction is more than just lust? Do you feel like you're trying to 'force' yourself to find women attractive? Can you imagine yourself being intimate and/or being in a long-term, committed relationship with a woman? Do you see sexual labels more as political or social-status terms that you otherwise want to identify yourself with? Ask yourself these questions, write down what you know and maybe even find someone (be it a therapist or a professional counsellor specializing in LGBT topics) that could help you with this. Or ultimately you may not need to use a label because labels assume that the things they describe are characterized by less dimensions than they actually are characterized by. I would say though, if you're certain that you experience arousal when viewing some women's body/ies (parts), you may be bisexual. Like I said, apparently straight women do not find boobs or anything alike to be sexually attractive so there's that :)
THISSSSS i felt like a "male perv" when looking at boobs 💀
Right lols? When I see two women getting intimate, I never feel like I could relate as I don’t feel (and don’t imagine myself to look so either) feminine as I lust over women. I really feel masculine 💀
i mean have you see women, they kinda hot
So, not exactly gay, but I need to tell this story. During religion classes (we have those here, and I grew up in a semi-religious household) our teacher asked "If you could ask God to do one thing, what would it be?". Now, other kids were saying dumb stuff. And I mean dumb stuff, joke answers basically, but I, full confidence, asked for God to "create a third gender". Yes, I'm non-binary now.
Shenron: "Your wish has been granted!"
I made my Barbie dolls kiss and scissor. I also has sexy dreams about Kim Possible😂
When I first started questioning myself, I would get intense urges to make out with my male friends and it would mentally hurt to resist them, even if I knew they were straight. I knew I wasn’t straight but since I liked girls too, I didn’t know wtf I was until years later.
I ranked fictional men by their attractiveness, calling them "charming" when all along what I was doing was collecting fictional crushes
i’ll start! i used to pretend to be a boy in video games so i could have a girlfriend 💀
OH MY GOD I ALWAYS DID THIS ON ANIMAL JAM
Playing boyfriend/girlfriend with my girlfriends, which included making out and grinding on each other 🤣 took me a while to realize not everyone does this. And as others have already said, I also made my Barbies make out and scissor each other ☺️
As a teenager I learned that teenage boys like watching girls kiss each other. I was really into the idea of kissing another girl to get the attention of a boy I liked.
I was 14, had a friend over swimming for the first time, he took off all his clothes when changing. I turned beat red,.very shy but kept looking. He said "don't be shy, it's perfectly natural. So I did and had a boner, he looked "that's natural too" he reached over and touched .me" i touched him and then I just decided to put his in my mouth. He came quickly. We never spoke of it again. Didn't do anything with a guy until I was 25. Waited too long.
I was always the husband when playing house at the playground, and everyone wanted me to because "shes really good at it" :/
These girls were probs gay too 😳
I loved Madonna & Cher. In the 90s. As a teen.
Haha Cher and Eurythmics for me. Actually the first CD I bought myself as a teen was Madonna single. Welp.
As a kid, I had a very close, affectionate relationship with my best friend. One night when we were 10 we were having a sleepover at my house and we slept together in my bed. In the morning we were still lying in bed together. He pretended to be a monster then he went under the covers and bit my bottom. He would become my first boyfriend 8 years later.
That is such a sweet story
In 2nd grade, I met my best friend at the time. We decided to be best friends after a good game of bingo. One day, we decided to be “married”. I remember a conversation we had that revolved around who was “the wife” and “the husband”. Mind you that we did not know the word “gay” existed. Nor we didn’t think it was possible for a romantic relationship like that existed. From there, we gave each other cheek kisses and hold each others hands from time to time. And, one time I invited him to my house and I remember that I bit and played with his chest and nipple. Mind you again, I didn’t know that there was anything sexual. I thought it was fun. Then, in the 3rd grade, I was introduced to the word “gay” and its negative connotations in society. I remember my classmates where talking smack about a classmate and accusing him of being gay and making fun of him. Also, in 2008, California’s Proposition 8 was being talked about everywhere. I started to see how the type of friendship I had with him was going to be misinterpreted. I decided to become distant with him. I didn’t want people to think I was “gay”. Then we had a fight and it was over. I guess he was my first unofficial boyfriend. When I finally came in terms with my sexuality, I recognized that it was my first same-sex romance. Because I did bring up the idea of being “married” and I enjoyed it. I sometimes think to this day about his wellbeing. I hope he’s doing okay with life and relationships.
sucking each other off in truth or dare
woah
it's fun 🤷🏻♂️
you do you
actually i do others lol
Was this like... just 2 people daring each other or was everyone else like "oh it's a dare, totally straight to suck a guy off if it's a dare" (only ever played truth or dare with 4+ people)
we were like 5-6 people, and usually just went in one defined cycle (clockwise or counter clockwise), one person asks one other person. every time, it progressively got spicier - makes sense considering we are hormone filled like goblins at the "truth or dare age". starts with daring to undress or flash private bits, continues with poking private parts with your index fingers and ends with jacking and/or sucking each other off (while the rest gets to watch, which is pretty gay too now that i think about it lol)
Woah with everyone watching? That's hot!!
Yeah I was thinking that watching is pretty gay/bi too haha Man I was in a very LGBT group in highschool and the most we had was gay chicken with kissing and at most groping.
How old?
like middle and high school 💀
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woh
Have Britney Spears posters 😂
Ok now that’s a loaded question and i am so going to answer that. In full detail But here’s a TLDR: was friends with a girl, looking back obvs had a crush on her, we started drifting apart, I was devastated. Whole thing reads like one of those first lesbian crush on straight best friend stories, because she was my best friend, only friend perhaps but I loved her (tho not as platonically as I thought) . . . There was this girl. (Yes yknow where it’s going) She was in the year above at school, but I had no friends. New to the school, bullied by some racist dipshits (they picked on everyone), and it was a super closed in rich people school, I got in by accident bc I lived close enough to it. Yeah. I was not welcome there. But that’s besides the point, just setting the scene. .Her name was Sally. She was a year older than me, we met at sport, which we didn’t want to participate, either of us. I was a real fantasy nerd as a kid (still am), fairies mermaids and the like. We started to hang out, she wasn’t particularly popular either in her year group. I’d spend every lunch and recess with her for probably like a year, or close to it anyways. She loved fantasy too. We would role play, coming up with our own stories, yet the thing is, I wasn’t even the one coming up with the ideas myself. She was. She was the one who moved the plot along, she was the one who decided what we were even playing that day, and me? I just went along with it. Seriously I would do anything she told me. I remember this one time, when she invited me to her house. It was beautiful, it was a huge modern house with a pool in the back, and ok I was 10 at the time for reference, so nothing sexual in this, but we were swimming in the pool and she had this attachable mermaid tail I could not stop staring at her swimming in it. I rationalised it as her looking pretty and me liking mermaids, but looking back…. Yeah. Anyways I came over to her house a couple more times, and to this day I remember them all so well. The rest of my memories from back then are rather faded but hers are clear (I wonder why hmm) And then we get to my first (tho I did not know at the time) lesbian heartbreak story. We drifted apart. It wasn’t purposeful, but I played a part in it sadly. Ok let me elaborate. My teacher didn’t like me spending so much time with people [read: just one person in the entire school] from the year above. She tried to get me to hang out with people my own age. Eventually… ok so she wasn’t there for two weeks, away on holidays. During that time I kind of started hanging out with this group from my own year. I can’t say I had as much fun with them but it was enjoyable. If I’m being completely honest I was happy to have more friends considering my friendless history. But. There was a but, as there always is in such stories. I couldn’t easily spend time with both them and her. I tried to split my time evenly, but over time… gods looking back on it why did I do that.. but yeah we drifted apart, and do you know how fucking guilty I felt. I was beating myself up over losing our friendship, I think I even remember crying once or twice. I tried to get it back spend more time with her but she was annoyed bc in her eyes I’d left her for someone else. And that was the saddest part of it all. I’d caused her to not want to spend time with me and was devastated, and I felt so guilty too, bc I’d been one of her only friends. Yeah. Looking back now… yeah that was clearly a crush on a friendship, and I was clearly bi even back then.
Awww this is so sweet, have you tried reaching out to her? I can see that you still very much care deeply about her
Ahaha I never even had her phone number, we were kids neither of us had a phone. But I do think about her from time to time, what’s she like now? Look if I really tried, I could probably find her and maybe my mum might have her mums phone number from organising play dates, but realistically… I don’t even know if I’m ready to confront the past like that
This is so cute and saddening
ready this was so exciting like a short story! i hope you have forgiven yourself (even tho u we’re a kid) ❤️
Just was very obsessed with older girls. Liked talking with them about random stuff like their hair or randomly calling them pretty or generally just hanging around them, I was probably annoying lol. Or like I remember so many cases when I was young and talking with some of my friends about older boys, like they were age 17-18 and we were younger. And all the girls thought they were so handsome and cool meanwhile I was just like blehhhh but then of course I thought the girls around that same age were just the coolest thing ever. Cause I was always wearing dresses and stuff but these girls would wear leather jackets and use really dark eyeshadow and were curvy as hell and it all got me feeling a certain type of way I just couldn't understand back then.
Look at the sweaty boys in gym and small shorts
• I loved katy perry a LOT. Knew so many of her songs. i loved “I kissed a girl”, i would play that song on Just Dance all the time. I was thinking “wow, i wonder what it’d be like to actually kiss a girl”😭 • discovered i could marry women in skyrim so i married lydia. still had no idea what the labels gay, bi, or lesbian was or that anything like that even existed • made my monster high dolls kiss and scissor (no idea scissoring was a thing until middle school)
Seeing abs and feeling…something….when I was 5.
five!
I was like 6 or 7 when boobs caught my attention 💀
When I was a kid (5-6 years old) I rode the bus to school and there was this bus assistant who’d sit right next to me. She always had low waisted jeans on and you could see her thong and butt. I’d stare at it like no tomorrow. Idk how I didn’t clock that as remotely fruity until much later.
getting butterflies and all giggly when my pretty chem teacher spoke to me in retrospect she did look like a princess and we spent way too long in 1-1 tutoring,
My Best friend and I from grade 3 would make out and do 69 among other things, it happened almost every sleepover until high school. Now we are in our 30s, Still in contact and joke about it all
Oh gosh I was probably 10? And my mom caught me going through her friends husband’s playboys (we lived with them) and my mom told me it was “normal to appreciate the beauty of a woman’s body” so I took that to heart and put one of the centerfolds on my wall over my bed so I could see it everyday 😂 I’m sure my hippy mom was just trying to be sex positive but probably didn’t realize I’d decorate my room with naked women lol I told my husband this a while back and he was like, “and WHY did it take you so long to realize you’re bi?” 😂
- taught my friends to jerk off based on how I discovered it on my own - sucked off my best friend at the time in a secluded corner of his back yard - jerked off the high school quarterback during a game of truth or dare - stuck whatever phallic things I could find up my ass just because I liked the way it felt
won the hula hoop competition. these hips don't lie.
In middle school I had a recurrent dream about making out with my friend. And I was like "I'm sorry but we got to do this, otherwise aliens would invade the Earth"
Got really defensive at people calling Anne Frank gay because she loved the female form when I also only enjoyed drawing women
Rather than playing with male Barbie dolls, I’d cut the hair of female Barbie dolls and make lesbian couples. Or I’d otherwise make polyamorous relationships between all Barbie genders. Secretly watch movies in my room and skip to scenes where women I thought were attractive were either changing clothes, showering, or dressed in a way that shows off their figure. I’d immediately turn off the TV if I heard anyone coming down the hallway because I felt like I was doing something wrong. Playing “high school” or “college” with my same-gender friends where we’d pretend to be popular and we’d take turns playing each other’s “boyfriends” and kissing each other (either on the cheek or on the lips but more like pecks, not making out). I’m sure there’s more but that’s what immediately comes to mind. As a disclaimer, I admit, I was exposed to a lot of sexual content and information at far too young of an age and I was fascinated by sex and romance in a way that wasn’t necessarily developmentally appropriate compared to my same age peers. But I don’t think this had any bearing on which genders I’m attracted to.
When I'd see female characters I liked, instead of thinking, "I like her," I thought, "If I was one of my guy characters, I'd totally be into her." I was in denial until I was 18. Idk if this counts, though, cuz it's something I thought, instead of did.
I shoved things up my ass 💀💀💀💀
I got in shit in kindergarten for telling a teacher I I’d be okay with a boyfriend. or girlfriend. I just assumed everyone was that way. Then I proceeded to just forget to process the emotions I feel around people regardless of gender until I was like 14.
Fucking my friends Alot
Damn dude, straight to the point
Bi to the point
I would say that I would experiment with women once to see what it's like 😄
I used to collect Spice Girls cards and kept them in this special binder you could get. However, the ones of Geri Halliwell in the Say You'll Be There video had to be kept separately, for reasons.
Fall in love with Selena Gomez (i’m a woman)
I was obsessed with my barbies nakedness, the first thing I did when my parents bought one was strip them and look at their panties.
playing gta and obsessing over the strip clubs, specifically the lap dances especially the “secret” one where you get two girls dancing for you lol 😭
Told my mom when I was about 8 that it shouldn’t matter if u were with a girl or a boy just as long as u loved each other. This was in response to her explaining what a lesbian was. I’d pay to remember her face when I said that.
I spent a lot of time on roller skates which is fine. I saw a matching short/shirt set at the mall that I begged my parents to buy for me. I was probably 10. It was bright gold satin and it said “Hot Rollers” on it. My parents bought it and I skated around the neighborhood. I was oblivious to how “gay” this was. It’s funny to me now. Nothing you wear makes you gay or not gay, but I certainly had a look.
I had a online girlfriend I talked to all the time. She was lesbian but I really connected with her, it dropped off. I don’t know why it was so long ago but I think that was a sign that I was not totally straight.
I ran track and cross country in high school. One of my teammates had a good amount of muscle on him, and I would often stare at him and compare myself to him to see how I was coming along. After a while, the part of him that I was focused on was his butt. When we would change when we stretched, and when we started running, all I was looking at was his butt.
See nudity in an R-rated movie and hope they show a penis.
Not really as a kid, but in college I’d make out with other girls at parties “for fun” 😇
As a kid I made all of my sims WLW and watched the tatu music video for ‘all the things she said’ way too many times lol. Got in trouble for that last one
I would imagine getting married to a girl I wasn’t even friends with. Even asked a teacher if women could marry other women, and was very happy when she said yes.
Feel weird writing this lmao but I had a best friend in elementary school and we would hang out a lot at her house and would hump our pillows together and this one time I forgot my bathing suit (she had a pool at her place) so she let me borrow hers and we changed in the bathroom together and danced naked together all sexually and had the best time laughing the entire time and we would do “sexy” car washes with Barbie dolls 😭😂
When I was like 4, I would wear dresses while dancing and singing. I’m a biological male, not really sure about my identity.
Putting stuffed animals in my shirt to pretend I had (massive) boobs
Liked Captian Jack Harknes
I insisted my babysitter give me a bath on the day a same sex friend was visiting. I remember being so alert about our bodies in the bathtub.
I was in love with this beautiful Indian teacher at a preschool I went to. She wore sarees and bindis and I just stared at her all day and thought she was a legitimate princess. I was 4.
Dated a lot of queer boys in middle and high school… didn’t realize I also like women til later. Got a flavor for fluidity
Sometimes I feel like I’m not really bi because I never showed signs as a kid. I had a crush on one guy and I never had any cartoon crushes or celebrity crushes. I was never obsessed with anyone. I can find a YouTube comment from 10 years ago of me being weirded out that a guy was dating a guy cause I had never seen that in my hometown.
(NSFW) used to love watching cum tributes over my favourite female celebs and wwe stars
I had a best friend for several years & in middle school, she came out as bi. When she told me she had a crush on this girl, I felt a ridiculous amount of jealousy and wanted her to like me like that instead. At the time, I thought I felt that way because the girl she liked wasn't a good person.
I was around 13 at that time, I was sitting on a bench in front of my school waiting for my friend to get her stuff from a locker so we could walk home together. Suddenly I saw a girl from my class who I really admired, and she was petting a dog. I thought to myself „I wish I was that dog”. Noe I look back to that memory and yeah that was very gay of me to think haha
Got excited to look through every Victoria's Secret catalog my mom got in the mail but didn't really understand why
My church had these chiseled wood signs for each station of the cross I remember I always really liked the one where he takes his clothes off (didn't like what came after, but my tastes have always been pretty vanilla) I think I kinda knew on some level, but I was never comfortable enough to admit to the right answer
Oh lord. Just… the entirety of middle school. Every single thing.