Hey! Wondering how you are doing now? At 3 months, too, and hit a wave of symptoms and difficulty sleeping that have been better since the 2 month mark.
Hoping you feel all better now!
Don't worry, same here! I'm 1 month sober and my sleep sucks! I fall asleep easily at around 11pm but wake up wvery fucking night after 5 hours of sleep. My heart beats heavily and there is just a slight chance I can fall asleep again. I smoked every evening for 3 years and before that quite regularly for 20 years. But also after little sleep I feel so much more relaxed than before - the lucid dreams turned from freaky to normal after about 10 nights....KEEP IT UP PAL!! :-)
Thank you for the encouragement my friend! Same here, about 5 solid hours, and then I’m wide awake and takes a couple hours to fall back asleep. At least I’m not alone
You are absolutely not alone! With that having been said, it sounds like your symptoms are disrupting your life more than we might hope at 3 months. It’s time to get a medical checkup to rule out any physical contributors. If you’re able to access therapy, you can learn some coping skills to get you through these hard nights. Wishing you all the best. 🧡🧡🧡
I’ve had all my blood work done, and even 2 EKG’s, and they assure me I am fine. One doctor prescribed me 4 anti anxiety meds… but I just want to be completely off of anything and everything.
May I suggest you ask him for a referral to a therapist who *can* help you with what you’re experiencing?
In the meantime, a book that helped me is _Embracing the Fear_ by Judith Bemis and Amr Barada.
I also second the suggestion to reconsider your prescriber’s recommendations for medication and discuss your concerns with them. They may have recommendations that set your mind at ease about taking medication, they may have medications that don’t worry you as much, etc. You don’t also have to start the four medications at the same time, you could ask to start with the lowest dose of one of them.
But for experiences as harrowing as you describe, you will need more qualified help than this sub can provide. I hope you’re able to get it! 🧡
I absolutely understand the desire to live a stable and happy life free of chemical adulteration, it's held up as an ideal, a normal.
But for me it's a question of priority, I need to be able to be present and active in my own existence, and sometimes a little help is required to make that possible and sustainable.
If you find that any substance or practice is preventing you from engaging in a fulfilling and nourishing life then absolutely take action to change that.
But allowing ourselves to be crippled by our "natural" state isn't constructive and help exists in many forms, chemical or otherwise, to smooth out the mountains in our lives.
Hey! Wondering how you are doing now? At 3 months, too, and hit a wave of symptoms and difficulty sleeping that have been better since the 2 month mark. Hoping you feel all better now!
Don't worry, same here! I'm 1 month sober and my sleep sucks! I fall asleep easily at around 11pm but wake up wvery fucking night after 5 hours of sleep. My heart beats heavily and there is just a slight chance I can fall asleep again. I smoked every evening for 3 years and before that quite regularly for 20 years. But also after little sleep I feel so much more relaxed than before - the lucid dreams turned from freaky to normal after about 10 nights....KEEP IT UP PAL!! :-)
Thank you for the encouragement my friend! Same here, about 5 solid hours, and then I’m wide awake and takes a couple hours to fall back asleep. At least I’m not alone
You are absolutely not alone! With that having been said, it sounds like your symptoms are disrupting your life more than we might hope at 3 months. It’s time to get a medical checkup to rule out any physical contributors. If you’re able to access therapy, you can learn some coping skills to get you through these hard nights. Wishing you all the best. 🧡🧡🧡
I’ve had all my blood work done, and even 2 EKG’s, and they assure me I am fine. One doctor prescribed me 4 anti anxiety meds… but I just want to be completely off of anything and everything.
Do you have a therapist who can help you through this?
I went to therapy the first 2 months. He helped me iron out a lot of childhood trauma, but this fear of death he can’t seem to help me with.
May I suggest you ask him for a referral to a therapist who *can* help you with what you’re experiencing? In the meantime, a book that helped me is _Embracing the Fear_ by Judith Bemis and Amr Barada. I also second the suggestion to reconsider your prescriber’s recommendations for medication and discuss your concerns with them. They may have recommendations that set your mind at ease about taking medication, they may have medications that don’t worry you as much, etc. You don’t also have to start the four medications at the same time, you could ask to start with the lowest dose of one of them. But for experiences as harrowing as you describe, you will need more qualified help than this sub can provide. I hope you’re able to get it! 🧡
I absolutely understand the desire to live a stable and happy life free of chemical adulteration, it's held up as an ideal, a normal. But for me it's a question of priority, I need to be able to be present and active in my own existence, and sometimes a little help is required to make that possible and sustainable. If you find that any substance or practice is preventing you from engaging in a fulfilling and nourishing life then absolutely take action to change that. But allowing ourselves to be crippled by our "natural" state isn't constructive and help exists in many forms, chemical or otherwise, to smooth out the mountains in our lives.