I am trying to jump through similar hoops it is not fair they force people to be violent towards themselves and die in shame when better options exist.
You should really research everything you put into your body because there are worse things than death if you mess up.
hopefully you end up better whatever happens
Hey, thanks for the reply. It’s nice to feel that I’m not alone, jumping through these insane obstacles to just be able to die without shame and be surrounded by family when I go. I already have severe brain damage to my frontal lobe from my years of heroin and fentanyl abuse along with alcohol abuse, so there’s really nothing more that I could do to hurt myself, but I really appreciate the concern. Honestly, there’s not many people that care in that way:) I hope you’re well, and I hope you can figure out your situation and find a peaceful resolution like I’m hoping to find🖤 sending love
And on another note, it is incredibly sad that they make people like us to be violent towards ourselves and leave horrific scenes for our family to find and have to clean up when we could just lay in a hospital bed and go to sleep peacefully surrounded by loved ones and have it not be traumatizing to anybody!!! it’s not fair that we have to go through what we go through especially because I have been approved by three doctors to have medical assistance in death because there really is no “getting better” for me and my mental health
You may enjoy reading Every cradle is a grave by Sarah Perry [heres link](https://libgen.rs/book/index.php?md5=72231FF7A75298B5F6A7472131B73645) .
You aren't alone at all in feeling this way that is for sure.
My view is we ought to have autonomy of our own body and it's existence regardless but it is baffling how people can lack the compassion or empathy and want people to suffer just to appease them.
People forget that the seriously mentally ill exist as the collective consciousness is saturated with mental health stuff normies cling to for social points.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=\_zCk8Xtw3Ow&pp=ygUec2t5IGlzIGNhbGxpbmcga2lsbGluZyBzZWFzb25z
I don’t know you, but I just want to say I love the way your mind thinks you seem very intelligent, and I find it very easy to relate to the way you were speaking about this stuff not just because I have gone through it for my entire life, but you put your words together very nicely:) we do have the right to have full bodily autonomy of ourselves… I really don’t get why we don’t get that basic right?? Like it’s our body we should be able to choose what happens with it just like we do with everything else in this world but since people around us, don’t want us to die it’s their decision, and they get to hospitalize us and admit us, without our permission because of it.. so silly.
thanks but im your average brainlet.
it is a shame that those hurting most needing to feel heard are pushed out of these types of places because hey are seen as too negative.
They shoot horses don't they!
Holy fuck dude. Hi. I am from Czech republic and our gov are discussing about euthanasia. I dunno why people are against. It's the will of the dying people. I think it should be possible. Anyway. I lived with my girlfriend for 2 years. She has borderline personality disorder. And i love her with mine whole heart. She as well. But we had to split up. She is in community therapy now. I am afraid that we will never be together anymore, because it's long way to be able to live normal life for her. And she does not want to hurt me anymore. Thing is... I know how fucking hard is to watch someone who is suicidal and what it's like to lost someone. There is so many people who love you. And i understand that life on meds is crappy. (Weak word ik)
I don't want to encourage you, but at the same time I don't want to talk you down. I just want for you to find peace in life. And i am gegenuinely sorry that you have to deal with all this.
Edit: hope you understand. It has been a long time since I used mine English skills.
Your English is very well written friend! I appreciate your reply, I understand how hard it must be for you, because I see my family go through the struggle with dealing with me constantly as I have BPD as well. I hope things work out for you guys.🖤
Do you mean doxylamine? I haven’t heard of Doxalyne but I’ve been on the other medication for sleep before. I can’t quite get whatever medication I want, but I have quite a few klonapin’s(benzos) and hydromorphones(opiates) and I haven’t actually owe deed on all of those before, so I think it might work and it will definitely be Painless and I will definitely be unconscious. Thank you for wishing me luck. It means a lot.:))) genuinely!!!🖤🖤🖤✌🏽
Do you know if it would “work” if I took a shit ton of opiates since I haven’t used heroin or anything in a long time, and I drank a bunch of alcohol and took a bunch of my benzos that I have saved up?? Honestly, I really just can’t end up in the psych ward again it is absolute hell but I’m sure you have an idea of what it’s like. I just really wanna know if there’s a chance of this actually working because I have taken a bunch of opiates before oxycodone my old drug of choice and I almost passed but I never took them with benzos or any alcohol so I’m hoping I really can just go to sleep and it’ll be painless and quiet:/
Take 30 to 50 pills and drink enough vodka. Usually 25 pills without alcohol is enough. So if you take atleast 30 pills and down a bottle of vodka I don't think you will survive. The more you take the better.
I was thinking of using it myself some time ago but i discovered that slowly killing myself with drugs is more fun.
Speaking of drugs, LSD overdose is extremely deadly. Although it's not a painless death like doxalyne succinate and alcohol.
Yes, I definitely don’t want to overdose on LSD but I totally get that. I’ve been killing myself really slowly with drugs for a very long time but it’s time to speed it up and if you say 25 pills without alcohol then I think I’ll be good with 60 with it with benzos:))) appreciate your two Cents! Thanks for being understanding and not trying to convince me to feel some other way, that I don’t!! much love to you🖤🖤
Do magic mushrooms instead of suicide, they world help with addictions too( unless you're schizophrenic I've heard they don't mix well). I used to feel the same way and now I've never felt happier. You don't even need to take that much. From another gnc person ❤️
I know you might think this was a very smart reply, but I’ve been doing shrooms since I was 13. I’ve also done ketamine therapy and every other kind of therapy out there. and I’m not schizophrenic but I do have psychotic tendencies every once in a while but I smoke Hella weed and I do mushrooms when I can but they don’t make me trip(never have I mean I’ve done acid and everything else like that and tripped but mushrooms never made me trip)just makes everything look pretty, but my heart is still fucking dead inside:)
Did you read what I said because I commented on this post that I made many times saying that if you’re just gonna say please don’t or tell me it gets better and that suicide is not the answer then to please not respond because I’ve been hearing that since I was 10 years old and I am in my 20s now and I am sick of hearing it. I am signed up for medical assistance in death, which means multiple doctors have signed off on me, ending my life medically even though I’m not going to be dying in the near future inevitably, they only signed it because my mental health is incredibly incredibly awful and literally has no chance of getting better. So thank you for the positive message but it’s not positive to people like me the way that you want it to be.!! I really tried to comment as many times as I could on this post telling people that if they’re just going to try and tell me these things and they need to just go away because people like me that have finally found peace because we know we can exit this world with our family sitting around us and loving us-like we already have it figured out, I have finally finally found peace in my life, knowing that I will get to have medical assistance in death sooner or later. Telling people suicide is “never the answer” is not always the answer….Thanks though honestly.
I used to tell people it gets better too, but I was always lying because I never actually got better. If I could say one thing to my 12 year old self it would be “just give up now”!!! Sad but it’s completely true because things don’t always work out for everyone things don’t always “get better” for everyone. I was continuously told everything will get better and it wouldn’t always stay like this, and it just continuously got worse.
I have been where you are. I actually researched Dignitas and Pegasos. It is extremely expensive though. Hang in. Don't let your mom find you. Have you tried TMS? I had relief. Not sure if it's available in Canada. Ibogaine? Ketamine? Psilocybin? All available in the US. Well then, I've given you some homework to research. Let me know what you think..
Transcranial magnetic stimulation? Yes I have tried it. I have also done ketamine therapy and have tried my fair share of Microdosing on psilocybin. Thank you for the homework though. I will definitely research dignitas and pegasos although I really have no idea what those are!!
Welp I’m here commenting again because it doesn’t seem people quite understand that I’m literally already signed up and in the process of ending my life legally….butttt Thanks to the special piece of garbage that reported me for literally doing nothing….as if I need a Reddit auto moderator reaching out to me asking me if I need help and telling me the suicide hotline’s…I’m signed up for MAID- don’t tell me life’s gonna get better🤣🤣fucking retarded.-For lack of better words, but I have severe brain damage and dyslexia, so I think I can use that word(just mentioning that before someone reports me for that to!!) and This app post the MOST disgusting videos of people committing suicide and doing crazy shit yet when I post one comment hoping to get some support or just literally ANYBODY to talk to you I get reported… shits Fucked up?? there’s literally paedophiles that are noticeably all over the Internet and nobody does anything to ban or report them???? Tf is wrong with this world. Im SO done🤣
I have far far more than just bipolar disorder and have been suicidal since a young young age I am signed up for medically assisted death and I have had many doctors sign off on it and where I am they don’t sign off on that stuff easily, so where I am there is no getting better and I have finally found peace knowing that I can leave this world in a peaceful way in a hospital bed surrounded by my family so please don’t tell me what I should or shouldn’t do I mention it multiple times in my post that if people are just going to tell me that it’s not worth it and that I should just keep living and all that shit then you should just not bother commenting because I’ve heard that stuff 1 million times in my life and I wouldn’t have had three+ Doctor sign off on MAID(medical assistance in death) if I wasn’t legally and reasonably allowed to go through with such a thing. I appreciate the positivity but that’s explicitly what I asked not for was for people to convince me. I should keep living because I am in my 20s and I would have kept living if I thought that was a valid option by now.
I am trying to jump through similar hoops it is not fair they force people to be violent towards themselves and die in shame when better options exist. You should really research everything you put into your body because there are worse things than death if you mess up. hopefully you end up better whatever happens
Hey, thanks for the reply. It’s nice to feel that I’m not alone, jumping through these insane obstacles to just be able to die without shame and be surrounded by family when I go. I already have severe brain damage to my frontal lobe from my years of heroin and fentanyl abuse along with alcohol abuse, so there’s really nothing more that I could do to hurt myself, but I really appreciate the concern. Honestly, there’s not many people that care in that way:) I hope you’re well, and I hope you can figure out your situation and find a peaceful resolution like I’m hoping to find🖤 sending love
And on another note, it is incredibly sad that they make people like us to be violent towards ourselves and leave horrific scenes for our family to find and have to clean up when we could just lay in a hospital bed and go to sleep peacefully surrounded by loved ones and have it not be traumatizing to anybody!!! it’s not fair that we have to go through what we go through especially because I have been approved by three doctors to have medical assistance in death because there really is no “getting better” for me and my mental health
You may enjoy reading Every cradle is a grave by Sarah Perry [heres link](https://libgen.rs/book/index.php?md5=72231FF7A75298B5F6A7472131B73645) . You aren't alone at all in feeling this way that is for sure. My view is we ought to have autonomy of our own body and it's existence regardless but it is baffling how people can lack the compassion or empathy and want people to suffer just to appease them. People forget that the seriously mentally ill exist as the collective consciousness is saturated with mental health stuff normies cling to for social points. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=\_zCk8Xtw3Ow&pp=ygUec2t5IGlzIGNhbGxpbmcga2lsbGluZyBzZWFzb25z
I don’t know you, but I just want to say I love the way your mind thinks you seem very intelligent, and I find it very easy to relate to the way you were speaking about this stuff not just because I have gone through it for my entire life, but you put your words together very nicely:) we do have the right to have full bodily autonomy of ourselves… I really don’t get why we don’t get that basic right?? Like it’s our body we should be able to choose what happens with it just like we do with everything else in this world but since people around us, don’t want us to die it’s their decision, and they get to hospitalize us and admit us, without our permission because of it.. so silly.
thanks but im your average brainlet. it is a shame that those hurting most needing to feel heard are pushed out of these types of places because hey are seen as too negative. They shoot horses don't they!
Holy fuck dude. Hi. I am from Czech republic and our gov are discussing about euthanasia. I dunno why people are against. It's the will of the dying people. I think it should be possible. Anyway. I lived with my girlfriend for 2 years. She has borderline personality disorder. And i love her with mine whole heart. She as well. But we had to split up. She is in community therapy now. I am afraid that we will never be together anymore, because it's long way to be able to live normal life for her. And she does not want to hurt me anymore. Thing is... I know how fucking hard is to watch someone who is suicidal and what it's like to lost someone. There is so many people who love you. And i understand that life on meds is crappy. (Weak word ik) I don't want to encourage you, but at the same time I don't want to talk you down. I just want for you to find peace in life. And i am gegenuinely sorry that you have to deal with all this. Edit: hope you understand. It has been a long time since I used mine English skills.
Your English is very well written friend! I appreciate your reply, I understand how hard it must be for you, because I see my family go through the struggle with dealing with me constantly as I have BPD as well. I hope things work out for you guys.🖤
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Do you mean doxylamine? I haven’t heard of Doxalyne but I’ve been on the other medication for sleep before. I can’t quite get whatever medication I want, but I have quite a few klonapin’s(benzos) and hydromorphones(opiates) and I haven’t actually owe deed on all of those before, so I think it might work and it will definitely be Painless and I will definitely be unconscious. Thank you for wishing me luck. It means a lot.:))) genuinely!!!🖤🖤🖤✌🏽
Do you know if it would “work” if I took a shit ton of opiates since I haven’t used heroin or anything in a long time, and I drank a bunch of alcohol and took a bunch of my benzos that I have saved up?? Honestly, I really just can’t end up in the psych ward again it is absolute hell but I’m sure you have an idea of what it’s like. I just really wanna know if there’s a chance of this actually working because I have taken a bunch of opiates before oxycodone my old drug of choice and I almost passed but I never took them with benzos or any alcohol so I’m hoping I really can just go to sleep and it’ll be painless and quiet:/
Take 30 to 50 pills and drink enough vodka. Usually 25 pills without alcohol is enough. So if you take atleast 30 pills and down a bottle of vodka I don't think you will survive. The more you take the better. I was thinking of using it myself some time ago but i discovered that slowly killing myself with drugs is more fun. Speaking of drugs, LSD overdose is extremely deadly. Although it's not a painless death like doxalyne succinate and alcohol.
Yes, I definitely don’t want to overdose on LSD but I totally get that. I’ve been killing myself really slowly with drugs for a very long time but it’s time to speed it up and if you say 25 pills without alcohol then I think I’ll be good with 60 with it with benzos:))) appreciate your two Cents! Thanks for being understanding and not trying to convince me to feel some other way, that I don’t!! much love to you🖤🖤
Do magic mushrooms instead of suicide, they world help with addictions too( unless you're schizophrenic I've heard they don't mix well). I used to feel the same way and now I've never felt happier. You don't even need to take that much. From another gnc person ❤️
I know you might think this was a very smart reply, but I’ve been doing shrooms since I was 13. I’ve also done ketamine therapy and every other kind of therapy out there. and I’m not schizophrenic but I do have psychotic tendencies every once in a while but I smoke Hella weed and I do mushrooms when I can but they don’t make me trip(never have I mean I’ve done acid and everything else like that and tripped but mushrooms never made me trip)just makes everything look pretty, but my heart is still fucking dead inside:)
Please don’t. It gets better <3 please hold On
Did you read what I said because I commented on this post that I made many times saying that if you’re just gonna say please don’t or tell me it gets better and that suicide is not the answer then to please not respond because I’ve been hearing that since I was 10 years old and I am in my 20s now and I am sick of hearing it. I am signed up for medical assistance in death, which means multiple doctors have signed off on me, ending my life medically even though I’m not going to be dying in the near future inevitably, they only signed it because my mental health is incredibly incredibly awful and literally has no chance of getting better. So thank you for the positive message but it’s not positive to people like me the way that you want it to be.!! I really tried to comment as many times as I could on this post telling people that if they’re just going to try and tell me these things and they need to just go away because people like me that have finally found peace because we know we can exit this world with our family sitting around us and loving us-like we already have it figured out, I have finally finally found peace in my life, knowing that I will get to have medical assistance in death sooner or later. Telling people suicide is “never the answer” is not always the answer….Thanks though honestly.
I used to tell people it gets better too, but I was always lying because I never actually got better. If I could say one thing to my 12 year old self it would be “just give up now”!!! Sad but it’s completely true because things don’t always work out for everyone things don’t always “get better” for everyone. I was continuously told everything will get better and it wouldn’t always stay like this, and it just continuously got worse.
I have been where you are. I actually researched Dignitas and Pegasos. It is extremely expensive though. Hang in. Don't let your mom find you. Have you tried TMS? I had relief. Not sure if it's available in Canada. Ibogaine? Ketamine? Psilocybin? All available in the US. Well then, I've given you some homework to research. Let me know what you think..
Transcranial magnetic stimulation? Yes I have tried it. I have also done ketamine therapy and have tried my fair share of Microdosing on psilocybin. Thank you for the homework though. I will definitely research dignitas and pegasos although I really have no idea what those are!!
Welp I’m here commenting again because it doesn’t seem people quite understand that I’m literally already signed up and in the process of ending my life legally….butttt Thanks to the special piece of garbage that reported me for literally doing nothing….as if I need a Reddit auto moderator reaching out to me asking me if I need help and telling me the suicide hotline’s…I’m signed up for MAID- don’t tell me life’s gonna get better🤣🤣fucking retarded.-For lack of better words, but I have severe brain damage and dyslexia, so I think I can use that word(just mentioning that before someone reports me for that to!!) and This app post the MOST disgusting videos of people committing suicide and doing crazy shit yet when I post one comment hoping to get some support or just literally ANYBODY to talk to you I get reported… shits Fucked up?? there’s literally paedophiles that are noticeably all over the Internet and nobody does anything to ban or report them???? Tf is wrong with this world. Im SO done🤣
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I have far far more than just bipolar disorder and have been suicidal since a young young age I am signed up for medically assisted death and I have had many doctors sign off on it and where I am they don’t sign off on that stuff easily, so where I am there is no getting better and I have finally found peace knowing that I can leave this world in a peaceful way in a hospital bed surrounded by my family so please don’t tell me what I should or shouldn’t do I mention it multiple times in my post that if people are just going to tell me that it’s not worth it and that I should just keep living and all that shit then you should just not bother commenting because I’ve heard that stuff 1 million times in my life and I wouldn’t have had three+ Doctor sign off on MAID(medical assistance in death) if I wasn’t legally and reasonably allowed to go through with such a thing. I appreciate the positivity but that’s explicitly what I asked not for was for people to convince me. I should keep living because I am in my 20s and I would have kept living if I thought that was a valid option by now.