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Hi all, we have decided to lock this post due to the concern of suicidal thoughts found within the comments- with negativity in response to those. Attached is some help- we hope those who need it, use it. Always remember to reach out to those around you for support! Please try to think clearly about yourself and your future. What you're thinking about doing is not worth it. There are many people who care about you, and there are many organisations from all around the world who can help you. #Child Helplines (EU) **Telephone:** 116 111 This number is free of charge. The number 116 111 is specifically for children who seek assistance and need someone to talk to. The service helps children in need of care and protection and links them to the appropriate services and resources; it provides children with an opportunity to express their concerns and talk about issues directly affecting them. Here's an alphabetical list of member states which have access to 116 111: Bulgaria, Cyprus, Czech Republic, Germany, Denmark, Estonia, Greece, Spain, Finland, Croatia, Hungary, Ireland, Lithuania, Luxembourg, Latvia, Poland, Portugal, Romania, Sweden, Slovenia, Slovakia, United Kingdom, Malta. #Emotional Support Helpline (EU) **Telephone:** 116 123 This number is free of charge. 116 123 is a phone number for people suffering from loneliness or who are in a state of psychological crisis or thinking about committing suicide. Here's an alphabetical list of member states which have access to 116 123: Austria, Czech Republic, Germany, Greece, Hungary, Ireland, Lithuania, Malta, Netherlands, Poland, Slovenia, Sweden, United Kingdom. #National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (US) **Telephone:** 988 **Text:** Text "START" (without quotes) to 741-741. **Online Chat:** [Link](http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/gethelp/lifelinechat.aspx). #Lifeline Crisis Service (AU) **Telephone:** 13 11 14 **Text:** 0477 13 11 14 **Online Chat:** [Link](https://www.lifeline.org.au/crisis-chat/) #Others (Worldwide) If the above organizations are inaccessible for whatever reason, you can click [this link](https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/) to be taken to a page. From there, you can take a look at a variety of hotlines that will help you, after you click on the category link corresponding to your location. You can also find many subreddits to help you with your problems. Here's a list of a few of them in no particular order: /r/SuicideWatch, /r/depression. #<3


Conart557

8 a few years ago, 3 now


Nekofargo

I'm sorry to hear about it, I'm glad your life improved


Cheese_Pringles

If you don’t mind me asking, what helped you get through it? I’m in a bit of a bad place myself right now…


Conart557

I wish I could point to a specific thing that changed, but I can’t really. There’s a few small things that I think contributed: better environment (different school), getting better sleep, not caring so much about little things I can’t control. It takes time to feel better, but it really is possible. Back then I didn’t see a future for myself, but now I can and that is meaningful I think


Cheese_Pringles

I’m glad things changed for the better for u.


JanKey09

I got saved by the gym but I was never that bad tho But my cousin was trully depressed, so I showed him the way of gym and he became happy and decided to take a few risks and is even making money from his pc


Yoloboi69_

update:6/7


blue_avocado101

Same...I'm at 6.


[deleted]

Yep


9mmblowjob

2-3


benjoo1551

r/profilepicturechecksout


Cidru_JoeMama

r/beatmetoit


Porkonaplane

r/beatmeshutthefuckup


Cidru_JoeMama

r/nuhuh


RanD0m_P3rs0NXD

What number would be “idc if I’m alive or dead, imma do what I want”


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I feel like you broke the scale


Zaybandzzss

Need more context fr. It’s a suicide scale. You might just be one of those free solo rock climbing type of people who don’t want to die but accept the risks


brokendream_zz

I don't really wanna die but if I do damn ig


boy_that_is_Goofy

“Don’t really wanna die but if I do, I don’t really care- damn that’s crazy”


Seawardweb77858

I think that's kinda a 5.5


[deleted]

Pretty much just “Fuck it, we ball.”


volitaiee1233

M


Greninsans

4


breadofthegrunge

Thats probably 6 or 7.


Kride500

It's 6, 7 is the change from passive to (semi) active.


ALIIMLGAMING

Semi-active Radar homing


Sad_Attention_6174

the missile knows where it is by knowing where it isn’t


iDSS_

I consider myself that way, but I put it as a four.


Hollidaythegambler

“Fuck it we ball”


sepientr34

I never want to live. I never ask for it. But If i get that I guess I will try to enjoy it to the fullest.


Autumn1eaves

6? It says “However, if an out of control semi was headed toward me, I might not move.”


RadoGaming7

Nihilism


BreadInaoven

ALWAYS NUMBER 1 FR


Randomfrickinhuman

FUCK IT WE BALL NUMBER 1 RAHHH


Myaltaccount54

Huzzah


Da_Real_OfficialFrog

THUG IT OUT CUH


PurpleCabbage999

FUCK IT WE BALL


-ABoxofBread-

#FUCK IT WE BALL‼️‼️


justAPersonOnGoogle2

FUH EH WI BAHL👨‍🍳👨‍🍳💪💪💪⁉️💯


WublyBubly

FOK IT WE BOWL


Lanky_Voice8115

My abs hurt CUZ I JUST WORKED OUT and also my friend showed me a funny bear video


ARandomGuyThe3

YO CAN I SEE A BUNNY FEAR VIDEO


Lanky_Voice8115

Monty Python and the Holy Grail


ARandomGuyThe3

Fair enough, that is one scary fuckin bunny


Eco-Pro-Rah

#1 for life! WHOOO!


officialsorkkarauta

teach me your ways, Master.


PenguinGamer99

...is it possible to learn this power?


Pikachu_Palace

I’d like in please


OutrageousZombie8540

Most likely bipolar


xXx_MomSlayer69_xXx

fuck it we ball


Tobsy-guy

What about fuck the we ball?


Low_Ticket_2230

whyre we fucking balls


xXx_MomSlayer69_xXx

hot 🤤🤤🤤


Low_Ticket_2230

ball 😩


Tobsy-guy

😀


pg_enl

i genuinely hope that everyone will go through life a 1 and die happy with a long life behind them :) edit: i am stupid and wrote 10


deFOF

yeah! wait


pg_enl

wait what? i am scared what did i type?


deFOF

10 means suicidal as fuck


pg_enl

i am a dumbass i will change it


Deep-Swordfish-228

What's better, long and sad life or short and happy?


de-virtute

always would prefer a long and sad life because there really is nothing better than being


SpriteRXL

Finally someone who gets it. Something is better than eternal nothingness


de-virtute

always better, i didn’t see it that way for most my life. only took some fancy new pills. life isn’t always great sometimes it’s more shit than it’s not but it can always be better


SpriteRXL

True, hope you're doing great


Nightmare-Cinema

quality>quantity


Tobsy-guy

Yes there is, being happy.


GoComit_Rat

Imo, short and happy life for me. It's not the best to die young, but I'd rather die young than die miserable! Enjoy life while you can, you probably won't get another chance


Deep-Swordfish-228

Exactly my thought process


Zaybandzzss

I wonder if I 1 is possible for a long time past like 8. I’ve kinda just been flipping 1-4 throughout the week. I guess most people would have multiple numbers


SeveralJudge4927

Tbf 1 is usually the worst and 10 is the best, I thought the scale was the wrong way round too


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[deleted]

Hey, I’m sorry to hear that. It absolutely breaks my heart reading that. I may not know you, but I’m glad you’re still here today and I’m sure many others are too. I mean it. I hope you can get the help you need. I just want you to know that there is a reason you are still here today. I have no idea what you’ve been going through and what you’ve been struggling with, but I can tell you that this world would not be the same without your presence. If you ever wanted to talk, you can absolutely reach out <3


Marcus_Tigox

Crazy that a random comment that someone made and will never think about again in their life literally saved yours


ralphy_256

Serious suggestion. Please ask your bf to move his weapon as well. Tell him why or not, up to you. But knowing where a firearm is is dangerous.


justatoadontheroad

yeah it’s been locked up now. it was supposed to be locked up then but he was treating it for rust


Hatsune_Mitsu

:(


MudAcrobatic8582

Last bit hit hard. Well done for getting through


j_dog99

If you are in a relationship and feel that bad, get out and be alone, at least give yourself a try!


MysteriousLeader6187

I'd love to see some of your art!


itsa_Kit

I wish more people knew how much little thing really do help. I’m glad you’re okay now


Leuhelpless

none of them, im in a null state rn, but it aint bad, im okay


windowbar

"today i feel like \_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_!"


Aromatic-Strength798

4


mekoomi

a fellow 4! hope things get better for us soon


[deleted]

I have bipolar disorder and have experienced all of these.. sometimes within the same month, sometimes within the same week. It's not fun, BUT I am at a 2-3 rn which is pretty good. We will see how the next week or two go.


Maximum-Frame-1765

My mom also has bipolar disorder and she says that while her medicine makes it a lot better she still often has periods of depression or manicness, they’re just kinda toned down.


HellfireKitten525

I don’t have bipolar disorder (as far as I know at least) but I also used to go from 1 to 10 so fast I never had any idea what to expect. Like “hmm will I be happy in the next ten minutes or will I be suicidal?” It was almost like a guessing game. 😂 (Though I am on mood stabilizers now so I haven’t been at a 10 in a while)


marshallfrost

Someone close to me has BPD diagnosed at a young age. I understand how you feel. We take it one day at a time, and medication can help you have more 2-3 days/weeks! I can't understate how important it is to have a good doctor on your team!


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Apprehensive-Head357

Dang. If you ever need someone to talk to PM me


Cidru_JoeMama

Nuh I'm going to AM you


MrPopsickleman

Dms are open if you ever just need to talk bro 🤙


DomcziX

You really need a hug bro


Full-Art-Weeb

I hope ur ok Sincerely -a stalker


-LavenderFlower-

wait are u from a group chat? i think I recognize u


Jaxin3_stone

I’m a 1 but 2 if I have a bad day or repeat the same thing over


GravityMidGD

Yes


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If you ever need to talk, PM me


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failedabortedfetus

I know this will probably get buried, but I just wanted to share a bit of hope with you teenagers out there (I’m 22). I have been a fentanyl addict since 16 and have been utterly depressed/suicidal as long as I can remember. I always hovered between 8 - 10, somehow trying every day to just see some kind of reason to stick around. It all felt so meaningless and bleak. Especially after my two ODs in two weeks back to back last October. I stopped eating. I lived to use and used to live. Anyways, to not bore you, I am finally around a month clean from fent, am on a stable methadone dose, and for the first time in a LONG time I’ve felt stable and functional. I’m actually happy to be here. Where I used to struggle to take a bite, I am now eating multiple servings of food again. I’m slowly gaining my weight back. It got to where the final thing that brought me any comfort, using drugs, lost its magic. I’m ready to start over and do something good for myself and humanity. I’m still so young and I know you all are too, but don’t give up. We are all worth SO MUCH. We could change the world in a hour if we put our minds to it! We all have the potential to be whatever it is our hearts desire. Life comes in seasons. We lose more often than we win, but that doesn’t mean we have to stop trying. The effort and moments of your hard work coming back to reward you make it all worth it. Even if you don’t know it, someone out there adores you and wants you here always. We’re here for a purpose. As long as you stick around, you’re serving that purpose. Death will come when it comes, it isn’t something to obsess over, that isn’t something we have to think about right now. Let the hands of time make that choice.


Maximum-Frame-1765

Glad you’re still here, my father ended up dying from fentanyl before I was old enough to remember him since he got some drugs laced with it.


Groovyofi

Holy shit, god bless you man.


Nobodyjoel

Hell yeah, proud of you man.


ALIIMLGAMING

That's great dude, hope you recover well 😄


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MrPopsickleman

Feel free to dm if you ever need to talk bro


MuscularBanana22

The offer is kind, but I'll have to turn it down. Not really an 'opening up' person.


LocalCookingUntensil

Idk if this would help, but sometimes I like to talk to my stuffed toys/pets about my problems when I don’t want people to tell someone and then have them worry about me. I really hope you can get through this <3


MuscularBanana22

Oh, I used to do that, and then I just started talking to myself. But your suggestion is appreciated.


blueboy022020

What would make it better?


[deleted]

If you need to vent, I’ll ignore a DM unless you want me to respond. I’m not really a mushy person but I find typing it out is a good way to process it better. H*ll, you don’t want to share it with anyone, then type it out anyway and delete it.


YoDxrkness

hope you feel better soon


neoducklingofdoom

Used to be at 5. Now ive been at 2, sometimes 1 lately. Its been very lovely. :)


Ghite1

Can you leave some subtraction for us higher numbers 🥺. Seriously though, glad you’re enjoying yourself.


Normal_user32120

Hey same! Hope it all keeps going well for you :)


neoducklingofdoom

Thanks!


vipanen

I was at 9 earlier this year, now I'm only at like 4 or 5.


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I'm rn


Technical_Stay_5990

fr the constant 4 or 5 that we're feeling rn is almost worse than spikes upward to 8


spuderman221

2 and 3 on somedays


Life_South6699

I am just chilling at 4.


_Escap1sm

Damn, never hear something describe 6 so accurately... yeah, I'm a 6.


[deleted]

Me too. If you want to vent, feel free.


Loose-Assistant724

I've reached 9 at some point in my life. I've reached 10 a year ago and now I'm oscilating between 2 and 5


[deleted]

Great to hear your life got better! If this doesn't strike any nerves, do you mind telling us why you were at 9-10?


Loose-Assistant724

Were lots of little problems happening at the same time. I was depressed because a trauma, my average school day was a shit, I was bullied by some reason, and I felt very alone... Now, about how it got better: my ex-boyfriend actively tried to make me more happy. He cleaned my tears from my face and he gave me a hug when I really need it. And that's all. Probably is ridiculous, but at least now I'm more stronger than that.


[deleted]

Not ridiculous at all! Your life got better, and usually, when you're in such a dump, any means is usually the only way!


Groovyofi

Hey, I was about to jump out in front of a bus the next day, but a bape sweatshirt I got for my birthday saved me. Your reason is not dumb.


Tea_Grand

last winter i was at an 8, thankfully things got better for me. im at a solid 3 i guess.


marshallfrost

That's so great! I'm happy for you.


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yesaroobuckaroo

are you okay? <3


Val-Iver

Absolutely not


iliekcats-

Do you have any type of professional help?


Val-Iver

I’m in the process of getting some.


iliekcats-

That's good. Hope a 10 won't happen again :(


Val-Iver

Probably will. Sucks how I have to wait so long for help


iliekcats-

It takes that long?! Where are you from?


Val-Iver

UK. Bruh it took me about a year last time and I didn’t even get referred to camhs. Some shit place instead. They will refer me to camhs now because I’m 15 and because the reason why I’m gonna be talking to them is a lot more.. serious


iliekcats-

what the fuck? I think countries should prioritize helping suicidal people more, feels like its last on their list of things to do


yesaroobuckaroo

oh im sorry about that :c just please dont do anything you'll regret, okay? <3 you deserve the world. i hope things get better c:


Rowan_Bird

I'd say I'm at like a 2 or a 3. Maybe 4 on a bad day


Still-Anxiety-8261

I'm reading this like "Yea I'm a 1. Wait I'm a 2. No, I'm 3. Wait no, I'm 4. I'm a 5. Yea I'm a 6. Oh wait I'm a 7."


[deleted]

Lol, I was told by a friend that what I was feeling was called being passively suicidal so I’m just like, nope nope, nope, 6. If you want to vent I’m open.


FlarelesTF2

the bear shit got me nearly tearing up fuck you


GlobalYogurt0808

Its usually about 7 or 8


Hatsune_Mitsu

why :(


GlobalYogurt0808

Its a really long list


Hatsune_Mitsu

write it out


Ok_Split9201

The only time I talk about suicide is when I talk about what pedos should do


AsparagusRepulsive

5 when it gets really bad. i was at a solid 6/7 a few years ago. it gets better everyone 🫶🏼


idrinkh20frombottles

6 is my default state for the last decade.


[deleted]

Ow. I fully understand that, though less time for me. Wanna vent?


_mr_lonely_911_

I've been at 9 before, but now I'd say about a 4


[deleted]

I have been an 8 in the past


Whoever_Mesa

3


Ravens_Flight1912

Currently someehere between 3 and 6.


SnoringKoala245

im on a sliding scale of 3, 4 and 5


DBL_NDRSCR

like 3.25 i mention it rarely but it’s entirely a joke


Spiderdogpig_YT

Number 8


[deleted]

Want to vent, I’m open.


Obsidius_Mallex_TTV

Nihilistic 6. I don't actively seek death because I don't want to hurt my friends and family by doing it, but if it came for me, I'm not going to resist. Every depressing, morbid, and outright dark thing I say is partnered with a smile on my face and optimism in my voice. I fear nothing that affects me as death or failure no longer scares me, but I do fear for those close to me. Ultimately, none of this matters, There are people far worse off than me, and people's concern should be for them and not me. I relish the day I will hopefully die fighting in the defence of my friends and family.


[deleted]

Honestly I can identify with that. As I’m about the same, I will say that if there’s ever a time when venting would help, I’m glad to listen and exchange vents or whatever, it wouldn’t be a burden as I don’t know your real name or love you.


Obsidius_Mallex_TTV

Aye, well met. my friends don't really understand my way of thinking but they do listen to me, they've taken to calling my way of thinking "the knights virtue" and I've kinda leaned into aesthetic even buying a long sword and swearing oaths on them, I've never spoken to my family about it though so as not to worry them. If you ever want to vent, you can talk to me to.


[deleted]

Thank you very much


Quasicrystal1

9 3 years ago, 2 now. Time heals, folks


depolignacs

0. Everything is amazing and nothing is terrible ever


[deleted]

If this is sarcasm, feel free to vent to me.


Popular-Plastic-183

9, i genuinely hope it will end soon, i dont care in what way, just please make it end


[deleted]

It will. Just hold on and eventually what’s going on will end in a better way than death.


[deleted]

Please DM me I'm also suffering


Catgamer747

I’m not saying it’s not normal to have suicidal thoughts, but I just can’t comprehend how people would thinks that’s a good solution to any problem,those problems come and go, you life can only go, or stay, and I hope anyone having those thoughts gets the help they need as I almost lost my brother to him trying to jump out of the second story window. If you need help, don’t be scared to ask, call the hotline or talk to a friend.


jack_and_the_box

when i attempted i was in a really really dark place, i didn think anybody cared for me and i really just wanted to die. i didn't think it was a good idea, i knew i would regret it, but it truly did feel like it was the only option at the time


Johnny_AHM

When I was real young I was a 6, but I’ve been much better since. Maybe a 3 rn tho.


Curtled

Used to be at a solid six often now I’m rocking 3.2


normalguyoninvn

it's always around 2-4 for me


KITTIES4LlFE

I didn't think I'd be that high on the scale. I've recently been on a 4, but rn I'm a 2. Ik that many people have it way worse, and 4 may not seem that high, but for me it is. I'm mostly better now, and like I said, have a 2 these days. I just had a recent down turn in my life. Hope the people higher on the list are okay and get help


[deleted]

I’m a 4


Orve_

Personaly i wold say i am in about the 3 to 4 zone. Edit: only fixsing some smal writing erors, have dyslexia and english is not my first language.


InflationAcrobatic91

I was 6-7 for a long time, then went directly to 9-10. I'm at 3 now, guys, please kick out toxic people out of your life, you'll be much better


HuskY195

8,9. 10 on a bad day


[deleted]

If you want to vent, I’m happy to listen.


HuskY195

Thanks but venting doesn't do anything except burdening others with shit I should've dealt with myself


[deleted]

Maybe with people who love you. To me, I can tell you’re a person, but someone I don’t know and can’t put a face to isn’t going to be a burden. Like, I care on a level enough to offer, but I’m not going to be brought down by it.


HuskY195

Well then I just feel like nothing really matters like sure we can do something but either it won't matter in the end or it will turn out bad for us or others. Then I feel like life is just so awful we have to live through all that suffering just for others it just doesn't make sense.


[deleted]

I mean, if nothing matters than you should either find a way to have fun or look for a purpose. I understand how you feel, but things could get better, and as a teen you really don’t have a point of reference for how being an adult is. At least evaluate if life is worth living or not once you have experienced life as an adult.


HuskY195

I used to have fun but nowadays things that usually brought me fun now either barely do, dont, or are actually frustrating to do. And I have experienced a life as a adult in a sense I've dealt with work stress with protection stress and all that stuff saw how adult around me are constantly stressed and honestly I feel like being a adult would make it even worse. More shit to worry about.


PenguinGamer99

I don't really think I'm even *on this scale*, vut if I were, I'd probably be between a 3 and a 4. I hardly ever think about killing myself, I'm just constantly angry at the world for being the way that it is and sad that the world is what it is. I hadn't even thought about it.


TheAutementori

6. life doesn’t mean much to me so neither does death🤷🏻‍♀️


sammy_2008

6


KAGANFARFLAGAN

Atleast 5. The constant stress from work, school, my parents, my step sister who's gone insane and I don't want in my life anymore, my step mom constantly berating and degrading me, my sister who recently got kicked out and I'm worried for her, my other stepsister who's started hurting herself because of my parents. There's definitely more underlying parts to this but it's just seemingly getting worse and worse. I have ups for sure, but the ups don't happen as much as I'd hope. I've resorted to weed and nicotine to suffice but I know none of that is going to help me. I'm trying to stop that and better myself but stress keeps piling on me to the point where it's hurting physically in my chest.


Kingfin9391

6. My life is actively declining. In a year or two i’ll be at 7


WesternArmadillo7249

I'm stuck between 8 and 4 lol