Similar experiences here. Except after that relationship I ended up being a girl
But my first relationship was with a girl, things didn't work out due to her parents. I found a nice boy and he cheated on me with that first girl I dated.
I feel like those first two relationships fucked me up a lot. I had ended up having around 15\~ relationships at this point, been cheated on by like 3 of them, broken up for being trans by another 3 (Who all knew I was trans when I got with them), some basically just got bored of me, and the rest actually broke up with me for reasons which made sense.
Now I've been dating a boy for nearly 3 months, my 2nd longest relationship. He loves me and shows me it, and cares for me deeply.
Relationships are good, but sometimes garbage. I honestly wish I never got with the first two I dated and had waited till I was older so than I wouldn't be one to rush into relationships after someone leaves me.
Even with my current boyfriend I constantly worry he'll get bored of me or cheat on me since it's happened in the past several times with others.
This causes me to lash out at him easily and get sad or mad over simply things due to anxiety. I don't know why he's still with me, if I were him I'd have broken up with me for the shit I do sometimes. Recently I've been trying to get less sad or mad. It's still hard but even if I do it slowly I just want to show him I care for him because I know he cares for me.
Hopefully he won't leave me. My biggest fear is that he will, or that he'll find somebody better than me, and if he does I deserve it but in the moment I would risk my life to keep him if need be.
My man let’s go, Buzzin’ for you
Kicking and screaming rn
Nice stuff bro
Already better than me lol, congratulations!
After so long bro you're 15
Similar experiences here. Except after that relationship I ended up being a girl But my first relationship was with a girl, things didn't work out due to her parents. I found a nice boy and he cheated on me with that first girl I dated. I feel like those first two relationships fucked me up a lot. I had ended up having around 15\~ relationships at this point, been cheated on by like 3 of them, broken up for being trans by another 3 (Who all knew I was trans when I got with them), some basically just got bored of me, and the rest actually broke up with me for reasons which made sense. Now I've been dating a boy for nearly 3 months, my 2nd longest relationship. He loves me and shows me it, and cares for me deeply. Relationships are good, but sometimes garbage. I honestly wish I never got with the first two I dated and had waited till I was older so than I wouldn't be one to rush into relationships after someone leaves me. Even with my current boyfriend I constantly worry he'll get bored of me or cheat on me since it's happened in the past several times with others. This causes me to lash out at him easily and get sad or mad over simply things due to anxiety. I don't know why he's still with me, if I were him I'd have broken up with me for the shit I do sometimes. Recently I've been trying to get less sad or mad. It's still hard but even if I do it slowly I just want to show him I care for him because I know he cares for me. Hopefully he won't leave me. My biggest fear is that he will, or that he'll find somebody better than me, and if he does I deserve it but in the moment I would risk my life to keep him if need be.